I don't know when love became elusive

But all I know is no one I know has it

My fathers arms around my mother neck

Fruit too ripe to eat

I think of lovers as trees

Growing to and from one another

Searching for the same light

Why can't you see me?

I closed my notebook and tucked my pen into the spine. I looked over at Michael, his features at rest. He actually looked really cute while he was sleeping, he wasn't pissing me off then. He finally came home last night. It took him 3 days to cool off I guess. He didn't kiss me on the cheek though. He just rolled into the bed, and turned away from me. It brought back a flashback of my how my dad used to treat my mom. Nothing she ever did was good enough, he yelled and cussed her out everyday and she took it. She stupidly stayed with him, no matter how much she complained. I kept telling her to leave but she never did. I flinched when the thought of my father pulling my little brother out his chair and pushing him into the wall. There's a hole in that wall til' this day.

That's why me and my mom have a few problems these days. I love her to death but she can't leave my father and I told her I don't want him in my life, so we only meet up when she isn't around my dad. Which isn't often. She's not happy I don't see why she puts herself through it. I glanced back over to Michael, I vividly remember a wave of a woman's perfume hit me when he got into bed last night. I should've woke him up and asked him about it but I didn't, it's better that I don't know anything. I borderline numb to it at this point.

Then Prince popped into my mind again, Susannah right next to him. Being able to hold him every night. It's not fair. I don't see what he see's in her. But again, there are a lot of things about Prince I don't understand.

I dragged myself into the bathroom and started brushing my teeth. I had to get ready for Grammy rehearsal. I decided to save myself some time and warm my voice in the shower. I did that most of the time anyway. It was a ton easier. I got dressed in something simple. Black crop top, dark denim high waisted jeans, and once again I couldn't find my Louboutins. I wear those things all the time, how the hell I keep losing them I will never know.

"I need to put a bell on those things." I mumbled. I bent down under the bed on Michael's side. Then I felt a tap on my ass. I looked up and it was Michael holding up my heels in my face.

"Thanks babe." I took them from him and grabbed the bed railing as I slid them on. "I'm off to rehearsals bye." I grabbed my bag off the bed

"Love you, have a good day." he yawned. I hesitated for a second when he said that, but I kept moving. As I was walking down the stairs, I noticed Victor standing in the corridor. He was dancing a little with his walkman in his hands. I called his name but he didn't hear me. So I walked up behind him and tapped him on his shoulder. He froze and turned around slowly.

"Mornin'" I mouthed and waved to him. He fumbled taking his headset off much to my amusement. When he finally pulled himself together he bowed a little and took my bag off me.

He cleared his throat "Good morning miss."

"Don't bow at me. I'm not Princess Diana." I laughed. "What's got you in a dancing mood?"

He opened and closed his mouth a few times before he looked down in embarrassment "Sorry."

"It's fine." I chuckled. "We all gotta dance a little." I shot him a confused look. "Why are you standing by the door you could've sat down."

"Well I didn't want to come in your home and disrespect you." I frowned when he said that.

"So you heard about that huh?" He nodded. "Well you could never disrespect me, you treat me like royalty and besides you're like family. Make yourself at home."

"Jasmyn we really have to get going." I groaned and rolled my eyes.

"Fine." He smiled and opened the door. I put on my shades and walked out with him right behind me. The driver opened my door and I got in. It was a silent drive for the most part. I usually stare out the window when i'm in the car. I'm a bit of a nature freak so I like to watch the trees pass by and get lost in my thoughts.

"Do you think I was wrong?" I asked not looking away from the window.

"I think you look fine today-"

"No, well thank you but I mean firing Veronica like what am I gonna do now?"

"What do you mean?" I turned to look at him and took off my shades revealing the tears underneath. His eyes got wide when he saw them.

"I mean I have absolutely positively no clue how i'm supposed to handle my career. She's been handling me since I got signed when I was 11. You know who booked all my performances. Veronica. All my interviews. Veronica. Listened to my demos guess who, Veronica. Yes, I write all my songs. Yes, I sing all my backup vocals. I can work the studio yes. But I was trained by Sony for 2 years before I could release even an album. Sure they taught me things about performing but they taught me absolutely nothing about the music business. Yes I've picked up a few things along the way. I'm thankful my career has gotten as big as it has but I don't know if I can control it . Maybe she was right... she made me Victor."

He placed his hand on my knee and lifted my chin. "Now Jasmyn, i've worked for a good bit of artist. The Rolling Stones, Elton John, Bob Dylan, Diana Ross.-"

"She hates me." I sniffed

"Yeah...she told me."

"Wait...she what?!" I croaked out.

"That's not the point." He waved his hand. "You have the most musical intuiton out of all those people and-"

"I need business intuition Victor."

"And you have that."  He lifted my chin. "Your the youngest person I've worked for and I have to say Jasmyn your the smartest. You know the music business your just scared you have to trust you ability."

"Victor I wasn't thinking when I fired her, she knows how this works."

"But your the only person that knows how to make yourself happy."

I pulled back and sat back in thought. Make myself happy.

"You have to think about what you want." He pointed to me. "Think about Jasmyn. What does Jasmyn want in life?"

"So what if it hurts me. So what if I break down. So what if this world just throws me off the edge, my feet run out of ground. I gotta find place. I wanna hear my sound. Don't care about all the pain in front of me. I just wanna be happy."

I squinted at him. "Are you quoting my song?"

He shrugged. "Maybe. All I know is you wrote the words now you have to put them in action."

I nodded and looked out the window again. The car finally stopped and we had arrived to the back lot of the Shrine Auditorium.

Victor opened the door.

"After you miss."

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Princess Preparing to Become A Queen

Jasmyn is one of the biggest stars out there right now, but apparently she wants to be even bigger!

It's been reported that the pop diva has ended her business relationship with her longtime management and hired a completely new team to land bigger and more lucrative deals!

According to Rolling Stone, the future queen of pop has parted ways with Veronica Callahan, who has been her general manager for 9 years.

The diva is now working with Steve Pamon, former head of sports and entertainment marketing at JPMorgan Chase — who also scored the bank's sponsorship of her upcoming recording facility and label: Moonlight Music.

A source said to take her career to a higher level the 19-year-old fired her whole team — including her best friend and longtime director, Hannah Lux Davis — explaining:

"Jasmyn basically cleaned house, got rid of her old team hired a completely new team. She's opening a lot of new doors for herself and wants to surround herself with business people who could take her career to an even higher level. She's  just renewed her deal Sony, plus she wants to make smarter decisions where it comes to touring, the upcoming label with Sony, sponsorships and acting roles."

She brought Pamon to her team just last week, as well as former Sony executive Peter Thea!

As for Jas's former manager, it sounds like the split was amicable. Callahan's rep Yvette Noel-Schure said in a statement:

"Veronica Callahan has worked with Jasmyn since she was a pre-teen. Their friendship supersedes business, and while she is no longer an employee of her, she will remain an imperative part of Jasmyn's life."

I looked up from the paper at Victor wide eyed.

"Good job." He smiled.