I paced the floor of Jerome's hotel room, my hands were shaking like crackhead. I was taking trying to pull myself together. Tears, eyeliner, and mascara coating my cheeks, it was times like this when I wanted my mom. I wanted Hannah. I wanted my grandma. I wanted somebody. Anybody. I was once again in the middle of one of the most intense breakdowns and no one was here for me.

As always, no one is here for me.

There was a knock at the door. When your mad everything seems to piss you off, that very sound made my blood go even further over it's boiling point.

"Go away!" I called out.

"Housekeeping.." a woman called back to me.

"Go away please!!"

She knocked again. I growled a little. Does this bitch not understand English.

I walked near the door. "Come back later! Damn!"

She knocked again. I groaned and swung open the door. "What don't you-"

I jolted at the sight of Prince standing next to a hotel maid. Her jaw dropped and a smile beamed on her face. "J-J-Jasmyn!!" she squealed, holding her hand to her chest. "I. Love. You. Your my queen. I have all your albums. I think what your doing for music is amazing. Your voice is literally blessing the airwaves. I've been to all your tours!! I can't believe this is happening to me!!"

I forced a smile on my face. "Thank you, I love you too baby." She fumbled to pull out a notepad and pen and shakily held it out to me. I happily signed and gave her a hug.

"What's wrong why are you crying queen?" she pouted.

"Ah ya'know every girl needs a good cry every now and then." I lied.

"Jasmyn." Prince exhaled.

My face dropped and I cut my eyes at him.

"That'll be all." he dismissed her.

"Well.....ok... I love you Prince. I love you Jasmyn." She look at us both one last time before walking off pushing her cleaning cart away. I watched her for a minute. It's people like her that inspire me to keep going. That let me know i'm on the right path. It was quiet between us and I focused in on the sound of his breathing. I could see him staring at me out the corner of my eye. I didn't wanna make eye contact. I knew I wasn't strong enough to look him dead in the eyes for too long. I knew i'd be weak. I knew i'd break and I knew that he knew that. I stepped back into and tried to slam the door but it ran into Prince's foot.

"Move your foot or i'll break it." I threatened, looking down at the floor.

"Can we talk?"

I didn't reply, I walked away from the door. I didn't want to give him the satisfaction of knowing that I actually wanted to hear him out.

I took a seat on the couch, tapping my foot restlessly.

"Jasmyn I just- All I wanna do-"

I don't know if it was the tapping or the sounds of his voice but the mix of them together, set me off. "WHAT WHAT PRINCE WHAT!!!! WHAT DO YOU WANT!!"

He jumped a little out my outburst. "You ever be just so happy in life Prince? Life is just so nice. Gettin' money. Losin' weight. Eatin' right. Edges are back like they never left. Skin is just glowin'." I started pacing the room. "Songs sounds like hit singles and THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN A DOG ASS NIGGA WANNA COME INTO YO' LIFE AND FUCK SHIT UP!!!"

His eyes widened. I walked up to him and pointed my finger to his chest. "LEAVE ME ALONE!! SHIT!!...IF YOU AIN'T GON' BE RIGHT, AIN'T GON DO RIGHT LEAVE ME ALONE BRUH!!"

"I'm sorry.."

"Oh you sorry?" I chuckled, nodding. I walked over to the nearest wall and slammed my hand into it. "SICK OF THIS SHIT! I SWEAR TO GOD! NEXT PERSON THAT FUCK ME OVER GON' HAVE TO SQUARE THE FUCK UP!!..ON GOD!! I WAS SO HAPPY UNTIL I MET YOU!! I WAS GETTIN' MY RELATIONSHIP BACK IN ORDER!! ME AND HANNAH WAS BEST FRIENDS UNTIL I MET YOU!!..."

I threw my head back into the wall. "Now a bitch just cry. Why the fuck am I crying?" I slid down the wall and zoned out staring at the wall across the room, letting the tears seep down my cheeks.

"I guess you been holding that in for a long time haven't you?" he chuckled.

I shook my head my head, the fact that he can try to make jokes after this makes me sick to my stomach. "Do I look like i'm fuckin' playin'?" I put so much emphasis on my words, I wanted it to hurt him..

He closed his eyes and took a deep breath, pressing his palms together. "Jasmyn I just wanna talk to you that's all.."

"Oh now you wanna talk to me.."

"Jasmyn you know me-"

"No Prince I don't know you. I thought I did." I corrected him.

"I made a mistake-" He started but I cut him off once again.

"If I hadn't came here would you have even told me about this?"

"I was gon-"

"Would you have ever told me about this?"

"Are you crazy of course I would've told you."

I squinted, not believing him. "Bull-muthafuckin'-shit. How long?"

"How long what?" he barked, as if he had the right to be irritated with me.

"Watch ya' fuckin' tone lil' boy." I warned him, still staring at the wall across the room.

"You watch who the hell you talkin' too." I saw him point at me, sternly out the corner of my eye. I shot my head his way.

I looked him up and down. "Boy whatever and you still haven't answered my question."

He sighed. "A year."

"A year." I repeated, breathlessly. He's been engaged for a year. A year. I hopped up and kicked off my heel. "I should beat yo' muthfuckin' ass."

"I swear I was gonna tell you. I really was but-"

"YOU SHOULD HAVE WHY DIDN' YOU?!?"

He didn't reply.

I shook my head at him in disbelief. I felt so stupid. I've done a lot of dumb things but this takes the cake. I'm smarter than this. I tried to blink away the wetness clouding my vision. One side of my body went numb and I shot my hand to my chest, debating with myself on whether I was having a stroke or not.

"Wow." I breathed, massaging my neck. "What else haven't you told me Prince? Because all i'm hearing today are things you haven't told me."

"Jasmyn." he whimpered, stomping in a circle. "I was wrong I should've told you the truth from the beginning."

"So you chose to lie to me."

"Because I didn't know how to say it to you without looking like-"

"A liar.." I clapped, finishing the sentence for him. I sat back on the couch. "FUCK!! I'm so fuckin' stupid. I knew better than this. Hannah told me she fuckin' told me."

He let out a shaky sigh. "Jasmy-"

"DO I EVER ASK YOU FOR ANYTHING?? I DON'T ASK YOU FOR ANYTHING. ALL I EVER ASK IF FOR YOU TO BE HONEST WITH ME?!"

"I TOLD YOU THE TRUTH!!"

"After your loving fiancee did, look at you finishing eachothers sentences like the loving couple that you are."

"I told you the truth.." he whispered, lowly.

"You lied."

He dropped his head and tucked his hands into his pockets. I sucked my teeth when I realized that there was no use in fighting this. There's nothing left for me to fight for.

I got up and started to gather my things.

"What are you doing?"

"You and I both know what i'm doing"

I looped my arms through my Chanel book bag and started stuffing the last bit of my clothes in my bag. "I need to be alone Prince."

"No no no no no no. Stop Stop Stop." He tried to calm me down . He started to take stuff out my suitcase as soon as I put them in there, which was really working my nerves.

I grabbed his wrists and slammed them into his chest. "Will you leave me alone!!" I took a firm grip on my suitcase and rolled it to the door behind me. Prince stood in front, blocking the door.

"Get out the way."

"This is crazy Jasmyn."

I rolled my eyes and crossed my arms. "Get out of the way Prince."

I leaned his head back on the door and took a deep inhale. "You just tell me what you want me to do and that's what i'll do."

"Well first I suggest you get you a good wedding planner. Then I want you to get a best man, your groomsmen, your vows, a purple suit if you think you need it AND GET OUT OF THE DAMN WAY!!"

"Well if I get out your way where am I gonna go?" he smirked, trying to be cute.

"To hell but until then I suggest your nearest wedding chapel."

He searched my eyes for an inkling of mercy but it wasn't there so he stepped out my way.

And I left.

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I took a deep breathe and knocked on the door.

"Hey" Hannah squinted.

"Hi." I sniveled, I was still horse from crying. "Can I talk to you for a while?"

She looked me over, a little skeptical. Then her face softened. "Of course."

"Thank you." I sobbed. She pulled me into a hug just like she used to and I broke down into her arms. Every ounce of pain spilling from my eyes.