I thought she might be gone forever.

Her light was my only hope that there was something good left in his world. Her clearing was my sanctuary, seeing her was my reprieve from the torture and the nightmares. And when she disappeared, I thought I had irrevocably lost a piece of myself.

Without a memory to hold on to, without ever even knowing what she really looked like, I was left with nothing. Nothing but a deep and intense feeling of misery and regret. I was alone, in that dark forest inside my mind, and I wondered why I still bothered to remember anything at all, when the most important memories I sought to recollect seemed forever lost to me.

Time still passes. Nothing ever changes, and still I wander.

Until one day, I come upon a butterfly. It dances through the air right in front of me, its silver wings scintillating with every flutter. And I know, she is still there, somewhere. Invigorated with new hope, I follow the butterfly for what feels like an eternity. And just as I begin to think it is all to no avail, I find her again. But not where I had thought I would - in those darkest depths of my mind, where secrets sleep among the shadows.

And all of a sudden, everything changes.

Because finally, I can see her face. It is the most beautiful sight I have every laid my eyes upon, and yet strangely, at the same time, I am now convinced that I have met her before. Even if I still cannot remember when and where. And finally, I can hear her voice. She weaves magical tales of faraway places, worlds filled with colors and sounds, where there is change and life and love.

She vanishes just like she appeared, whisked away with the flutter of a butterfly's wing. But this time, I manage to hold on to the memory.

The next time I meet her in the forest, I remember. Her voice, her face, her smile. And this feeling of hope lingers with me, giving me a strength I had forgotten I possessed. If nothing else, I can now be convinced that the girl in my dreams is real. And if she is real, perhaps there really is something good left in the world.

I am certain that I will see her again soon. And I have so many questions.

Most of all, I want to know her name.

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A.N.
This might need some tweaking/might be subject to future, subtle changes. I'm trying to finally make it a bit easier to guess what is going on here XD