Chapter 75

The rest of the night passed without any issues, allowing for Matt to finally get a good, uninterrupted amount of sleep. In the morning he woke up and took a shower (as well as he could with his cast on), and started a pot of coffee. If it wasn't obvious, the sleep had helped him to feel much better.

Kasey was still sound asleep on the bed, curled up slightly as her body had just shut down as soon as she allowed it too. She shifted a little bit, hearing Matt moving around but stayed pretty much out the whole time.

Matt wanted to let her sleep in as late as possible, but this also conflicted with his plans to work on her instinct. So he went for a middle ground. He waited until the coffee was done to pour her a cup, and bring it into the bedroom to set it on the bedside table. "Morning, Kase."

She hummed softly as she shifted, smelling the coffee as she blinked awake. She slowly sat up, rubbing at her eyes. "Mmm... Morning..." She replied, sleepily. She grabbed hold of the coffee, taking a sip of it and brushing her hair from her face with her other hand.

"Did you sleep well?" Matt asked, taking a seat on the end of the bed. He sipped at his own coffee, finding the taste refreshing.

Kasey nodded a bit. "I practically passed out the moment that I sat down." She chuckled tiredly. "Guess that happens when you run across half the city and your body is trying to heal-"

"Yeah, that would do it." He nodded, drinking a little more of his coffee. It wasn't the best, but at least it was a bit better than the office coffee. "Once you wake up fully, I might call Claire to come check on you."

She nodded again. "Mkay..." she took another sip of her coffee and shuddered a little bit but it was waking her up a bit faster so she didn't care.

Matt felt the shudder and turned slightly towards her. "I have some sugar, if it's too bitter for you." He offered.

"Nah, it's fine." She replied with a small smile. "It's bringing me around faster if its bitter." She pointed out. She finished it off and set the cup aside. "So... how are we planning on eating breakfast if you can't cook right now?"

"I mean-" Matt thought for a moment and laughed. "I can make eggs, again." He couldn't quite cook as well as he liked, having not had much time to focus on that sort of thing.

"-Or we could order from a delivery place."

She hummed softly. "Cooking means you have to be on your leg and Claire would smack you upside the head if you did. You said you might call her to come check on me so maybe she could bring something with her?" She offered.

"Yeah, I'll ask her to." He finished his coffee and pulled out his phone, preparing a message for Claire. "What would you like? I can have her pick up something breakfast-y, or something else."

"I am not picky." She replied with a small laugh. "Just something that I won't burn through instantly."

"Alright." He replied simply, texting Claire to see if she would pick up some breakfast items on the way over. He knew he'd have to pay her back for all of this at some point.

Kasey stretched a bit before climbing out of bed, snagging her hair tie and pulling her hair up. "So, what's the plan?" She asked him as she worked with her hair.

"I'm going to try and train you as best as I can, without using my leg of course." He didn't want to think about what Claire's reaction would be to him up and moving around.

She tilted her head. "How is that going to work?" She asked him curiously. She wasn't opposed but she wasn't entirely sure how it'd work.

"I'd be more of an instructor than an example, I suppose." It was going to be much more difficult, but he'd try his hardest to make it work. They had a week together, at best, and he needed to make it worthwhile.

She nodded. "Alright. It's worth a shot, I guess." She agreed. "I wish we had longer so you could heal first..." she sighed.

"Me too, kid." Matt told her. He wished they had longer, so he could truly train her as he needed to. "If you're still at the church when I'm healed, maybe then I can."

"Well I don't plan on leaving unless I have to." She replied. "Besides, I can try to find a way to stay in touch that he can't track me with if needed."

"I don't plan on forcing you out either." Matt told her, holding the empty mug in his hands. It really was a predicament they were in, but he was determined to make the most of it. "Want some more?"

She shook her head. "I probably shouldn't." She chuckled. "I just needed enough to wake me up." She replied, grabbing her own empty mug. "Do you? I can go get it," she offered.

"Maybe later, I'll probably save some back in case Claire wants some when she stops by." Matt responded with a small smile.

Kasey nodded at that before tilting her head a bit. "Sounds like she's here."

"Sounds like it." Matt heard Claire as well, and was impressed she came as fast as she did. Then again, Hell's Kitchen wasn't the biggest part of the city.

Soon she was knocking on the door.

"I'll go get it." She told Matt as she headed towards the door.

Matt got up and moved to the living area, with the aid of his crutch of course. He managed to sit on the couch moments before the door was opened.

Claire stepped inside after Kasey opened the door.

"Hey," she greeted. "I brought some doughnuts and some breakfast sandwiches of various types since I wasn't sure if doughnuts would hold you over for long." Clarie told Kasey as she set the stuff on the coffee table.

Kasey came over, accepting one of the sandwiches from Claire and happily humming when she bit into it.

"I'll take that as a yes." Claire laughed.

Matt chuckled. "I know you might be tired of hearing this, but thanks again Claire." He told her earnestly, picking up a doughnut to eat. Honestly he loved that woman, even if he himself didn't know it.

She chuckled. "I did tell you to thank me when you're fully recovered."

Kasey wasn't really paying much attention as she was focused on eating, happily melting against the chair as she did so.

"I know, I know. And I will." He assured her with a light laugh. He finished through his treat quickly, only taking another breakfast sandwich afterwards.

"Let me know when you're done Kasey and I'll run a check up on you then tend to Matt, alright?" She told her and Kasey nodded.

Matt finished his own sandwich, deciding to call it good for now. He didn't have an enhanced metabolism or anything, so he didn't need to eat a ton.

Kasey finished her second one and started on her third as her body had burned through a lot from the energy she used recovering and running around yesterday.

Claire chuckled. "Why don't I go ahead and tend to you, Matt?" She offered.

Matt heard that Kasey was still filling up, so he nodded. "Sure, I don't mind going first." He told her with a smile.

Claire nodded and grabbed the supplies and started checking over the injuries and rewrapping them while Kasey finished her third sandwich, happily content.

She hummed as she leaned back against the chair. "Thank you Claire..."

Matt winced a couple times from the rewrapping, but overall suffered through it. He turned his head towards Kasey with a light chuckle. "Are you satisfied now?"

Kasey glanced towards him. "Hey, it's not my fault my metabolism is high." She pouted playfully at him.

Claire chuckled. "I'm almost done with Matt so I'll check on you in a minute."

Kasey nodded at that as she leaned back.

"Makes sense." Matt said simply, waiting for Claire to finish up. As he did, he went over a few different ideas for how he'd teach Kasey. It wasn't going to be easy, considering she was a spiderling and had abilities he didn't.

Claire finished wrapping the last one and stepped over to Kasey. "Alright. I'm going to check you over now, okay?"

Kasey nodded as Claire pulled her hair out of the ponytail and checked where she had hit her head, happy to see it was mostly healed up and her arms were just bruised now. She had Atlas check her ribs and he reported that they were healing nicely too.

"Seems you're mostly just bruised at this point." Claire noted.

"Well that sounds good, enhanced healing really does help, huh?" Matt asked, a tinge of a smirk in his voice.

Honestly though, if he had been given that sort of ability, he'd never get off the streets. "Should make training easier."

Kasey laughed a bit. "It does." She agreed as she stood and stretched again as Claire moved the food to the kitchen.

"So where do you want to start?" She asked Matt, unsure of what he had planned.

"We should start with that instinct of yours. We have to get to the root of it and find out how to redirect that energy into something you can control." Matt explained. He just had to find out what she could do instead of going straight for the kill.

Kasey nodded. "Okay... but what?" She asked. "There's not a lot I can control in those situations in the first place."

"Something I do to help focus, whether it be on healing or simple thoughts, is to meditate." He offered. "It's not the most riveting idea, I know, but it allows for you to slow down and think of things in a new way."

Kasey tilted her head slightly but nodded. "That makes sense." She agreed. "But I don't think meditating mid-fight is gonna work." She gently teased him. "But it might help outside of it." She acknowledged.

"Yeah, it'd probably be best not to try and do that in a fight. But being able to calm yourself in a pinch would come in handy." Matt told her.

"For today, while you finish healing, we can try meditation. Take the time to focus on keeping yourself calm, while taking in the senses of everything around you."

Kasey nodded at that, taking a seat again, crossing her legs as she did and let her eyes drift closed. Her body hesitated, not wanting to lower its guard, whispering how last time she did that things went south really quickly.

She frowned, still trying to relax but the whispering in the back of her mind was making it hard.

Matt sat as comfortably as he could, closing his eyes to focus on the sounds of everything around him. It was silent for a moment, before he spoke again.

"Have you ever confronted it? The other side of you that makes you doubt?"

Kasey tilted her head slightly when he spoke, the question catching her off guard. "What?" She asked in return before processing it completely. "Oh- Uh..." she thought for a moment and flinched a bit. "Y-Yeah... A-At least once..." She replied, mumbling a bit.

Matt heard her uneasiness, and frowned. She said she had confronted it, but... "Have you asserted yourself over it? Pushing those thoughts to the side will only further the issue."

She went quiet for a minute. "I tried to... but it's hard to when at the time I had tried, it had been right..."

Matt thought for a moment, before coming to a decision. "It will take some time for that voice to go away, but in the meantime you need to take control of it. Assert yourself over it. In short, you need to tell it to shut up. There's a fine line between being right, and being good."

She listened quietly to him explain before nodding slightly. "Atlas usually helps a lot with that but... I haven't been listening as much as I should..." she explained.

"And it's not just during fights that it's whispering at me..."

"Which is why we're going to practice the meditation technique now. A lot of what I'm going to teach you can be applied to life outside of fighting." Matt explained further. He had been in his meditative position while talking.

She nodded again, trying to relax but her body still refused to. She tried to get the whispering to shut up like Matt said but it only seemed to make it louder.

She felt her chest tighten a bit as she kept trying to shut it up but it kept spiraling out of control. She pressed her hands over her ears as the whispering grew louder and more chaotic.

She couldn't make out any of the words, it was just noisy chaos-

Her entire body went rigged when she felt the sensation of someone grabbing her shoulder from behind and she knew it wasn't Matt or Claire.

Matt noticed the change and stopped his own meditation to focus on her. He turned towards her, listening to her reaction. He had hoped it wouldn't turn like this.

"Confront it Kasey. None of it is real, you are. Force it back."

She tried but it's grip tightened. "I-I can't-" She replied, her voice shaking as she felt it tighten around her shoulders and her chest tighten as if constricted by a large snake, struggling to breathe.

She was starting to tremble and Claire quickly came over.

"Hey, take a deep breath okay? Deep breath."

Kasey felt Claire's gentle touch on her cheek and refocused onto it, taking a deep shuddering breath as she tried to fight off the tightness in her chest.

"You can do it kid. I know you can." Matt told her, hating to hear her struggling like she was. Half of him regretted pushing her to try this, but the other half of him knew it was a necessary evil.

She tried to push it away, to make it stop but felt it tighten around her chest more, making her gasp sharply as she tried to stay focused on Claire who stayed close, gently coaxing her to just breathe.

"I-I can't- it gets worse when I try-" She explained as she trembled.

"You've got to focus, calm down, and breathe." Matt told her.

"We are right here, nothing will happen to you. It's all a figment of your imagination."

"I can't!" She cried, finally pushing it away and pulling out of her attempt to meditate, tears spilling down her face. "I'm sorry- I just can't-"

Claire pulled her into a gentle embrace and rubbed her back gently, shushing her gently.

Matt sighed and ran a hand through his hair. This was going to be a lot harder than he originally thought. "Alright-"

He listened to her and sighed again. "Okay, we can stop with that for now." He didn't want to push her any further, and be the cause of another panic attack.

Kasey nodded a bit, letting Claire sit with her and help calm back down after a minute or two.

'Disappointment' the voice hissed at her but she clenched her hand into a fist.

'Stop.' She commanded it. She was tired and stressed out and she knew that Matt wasn't disappointed in her. They were both disappointed in the situation. That was it.

And to her surprise, the voice and slight grip faded away making her jerk her head up, confusion written across her face.

"Woah, Kasey, you okay?" Claire asked her, raising an eyebrow.

Kasey "stared" at her shoulder where she had felt the grip. "I-It... It's gone..."

Matt sat up straighter, a lighter feeling coming to his heart. Hope. "The voice? It's gone?"

After what happened, he hadn't thought she'd be able to change it today. "What happened?"

"I... I don't know??? I just... I told it to stop and it... did???" She sounded incredibly confused.

Claire gently squeezed her shoulder. "That's good, right?"

Kasey nodded but was still confused. "But why... why now? It wasn't going away earlier??"

Matt grinned and nudged her. He was truly proud of her. "Good! You told it straight up to be quiet. Remember that, and utilize it." He sounded happy for her. "I'm really proud of you for figuring it out." As far as he was concerned, she wasn't a disappointment at all.

She was still confused but chuckled faintly. "I'm... not entirely sure how that worked but I guess it's progress?"

Claire nodded. "It's a step. There's still more to go but it's a step."

"It's quite a step, if you ask me." Matt laughed lightly. "We'll keep working on that with time. I have a feeling that voice is a big part of your issues as well, so overcoming it will help greatly."

She nodded at that, a smile pulling at her lips. "Y-Yeah... But..." She hesitated. "Sometimes it's my spider senses too..." She explained.

"That part might be a bit trickier.." Matt responded as he tossed the thought around. He wasn't experienced with the spiderlings, outside of the past few days and what he heard through the grapevine.

She nodded. "It's a lot harder to ignore... It's like really strong instincts... Like," She thought for a minute. "Like how a dog knows it shouldn't have something and will look at you like its guilty but growl and fight you all the same." She tried to explain. "Logically it knows it's doing something it shouldn't cause you've trained it but it's instinct is stronger."

Matt thought the explanation over, finding it made more sense than when he was trying to think about it before. It still confused him to a point, but not as bad. "We'll just have to focus more on that sense of yours then."

"Right." She replied, nodding slightly. "That's probably gonna be the hard part."

"Well, we're gonna try to help you figure it out." Claire told her, reassuringly.

"Absolutely." Matt chimed in, returning to his own meditation position. "We'll be here every step of the way."

Kasey felt her body actually relax at that and smiled. "Thank you... Both of you." She told them as she situated back into the position she had been in and let herself relax, comfortable with Claire sitting next to her.

Matt relaxed in his position. "If you want to try that again, feel free. If you just want to do some regular meditation, that's okay too." He told her, delving into his own usual meditation.

"Well, it's quiet at the moment so I'll take it while it is." She chuckled softly as she let her guard lower, trusting Claire to keep an eye out while she did.

Matt kept an ear out on his end, focusing on calming himself. He wasn't sure if it ever really worked like he intended, but he liked to believe that it helped his healing process.

Claire smiled softly at the two of them and quietly got up to put the food away.

Kasey paid her no mind as she zoned out, focusing on the small noises of the apartment, their heartbeats, and their breathing.

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