Chapter 20: Shattered dreams

''My wild cat...How many times I told you don't mess with me..I don't like your rejection and now you have to bear a sweet punishment of hitting me..'' There was a threat in his voice.

She snorted. Madness filled his veins and finally it travels all over his body. Both keep gazing each other one with pure love and other with flaming rage. She didn't wriggle because she was cold and much stronger that any weapon. She was in arms of that man whom she hated more than she hated anyone. He was mesmerized to have her breathing that he missed these days like crazy. His hand gripping her both palm tightly, pinning them above her head. Her soft skin was rubbed under his rough hands. Closing the distance between them, he lean down to mark those lips which he craved since so long.

''Leave me Asr, I'm warning you last time after that don't accuse me..'' He smirked and bend down to mark her neck by his wild kisses that make her dizzy. He inhale her scent and took a deep breathe. The bubble that was building from so long finally burst. She greeted her teeth and lifted her leg to hit him on his gut. The grip went loose. The cold and angry girl into his arms turn into wild tigress, evoking the devil inside him. But she didn't stop. She kick him so hard that he fell down on the floor with a hard jerk.

How a sweet and innocent girl turn into jungle billi? He wonder still in shocked state. He winced slightly when she again hit him. Instead of shouting and screaming in pain, he was smiling amused, seeing a completely new side of her. Strangely, he doesn't feel any pain. His facial expression irking her more and more. She lost all her senses and took the wooden rod to hit on his legs furiously without giving a damn to anything. He again eyed on her modesty. It was intolerable for her.

For the first time any girl raised hand on him and instead of fighting back and stopping her, he was smiling bearing the pain given by his lady and gazing her intently. What's wrong with him? Whenever he saw this girl, he forget all his surrounding. He was indeed lost in her because right now he should be yelping in pain.

''Baby when you get tired do tell me..I will remove your tiredness in our bed in a very blissful way..'' He said mischievously winking at her. She stop hearing his shameful words. Bloody pervert! Only phrase coming into her mind.

''How dare you!!!!!!!!!!'' She began getting agitated and gripped his neck furiously.

''If I won't dare you, Would you get honor to get pregnant without marriage..?'' He looked at her intensely. His gaze fell on her cleavage that gave him tempting view because of her punching him. Her eyes were looking at his direction, hating him, accusing him, loathing him. He wanted to hate himself too, just like he hated every second of the attraction and lust. He have no shame! She wanted to kill him right now.

''I'm not your sex puppet, Mr Raizada..'' He was enjoying her anger more than her love.

''But you are mother of my child..'' He retorted with a proud voice.

''Shut up Asr..!!!!!!'' She glare him curtly.

''Arnav, yours and only yours Arnav..Not Asr..'' He snapped with uttermost gentleness. She couldn't tolerate all this anymore and raise the sharp object to hit on his head.

Di!!!!!!! Arohi was horrified seeing the unexpected sight in front of her. She look at the maddening state of her sister and then at the bleeding form of Arnav. To her astonishment, he was smiling staring at her Di.

''Are you out of your mind Di..Stop it!'' She pull her away as she was going to smash him like a wild angry kitten. By god grace she turn up on time otherwise she might have killed him. She turn to walk toward Arnav worriedly as he seems badly injured.

''Arohi..thank you for saving me from this Rakshasni..if you be a second late I will be on direct date with your Devimaiya in heaven..'' He made a innocent face.

''Heaven..My foot! You will root in hell..'' Her voice was full of dominance and harshness. He gave a loop-side smirk. Their cat mouse fight groaned Arohi. She put her hand on his shoulder to guide him out but khushi's ragged voice made her stop.

''Don't touch my sister! Aru let's go of him..This man don't deserve any sympathy and you Mr Raizada get out from my place NOW..'' She commanded in an authoritative tone and immediately shoved her sister hand which were resting on his shoulder. Her demeanor only spoke destruction and demolition.

''What's wrong with you? Look at his state..I don't think he will be able to stand after seeing your mind blowing fights..'' Arohi spoke, not understanding the reason of her rudeness. He chuckled but immediately made a serious and puppy dog face when Arohi look back at him.

''Bhaiya if you are not well you can stay here for some days..'' She said sympathetically as she could see he wasn't able to walk properly. Khushi was about to interrupt when he spoke in a sudden.

''If you are so insisting..How could I deny you! I am ready to stay here..'' His lips curved into evil grin. Khushi clenched her fist and look away to control herself.

''I'm extremely sorry Bhaiya..My Di sometimes get violent and wild in her anger..'' She was feeling bad for him, seeing him wincing in pain.

''Well, Who know about her wildness better than me..'' He whispered in a low and husky tone. But khushi overheard it. She was trying hard not to burst out specially not in front of her sister who had no idea about his evil deeds. While he was deliberately provoking her to spend more time with his pregnant girlfriend. He was determined to gain her back and erase all the bitterness and pain from her heart. His trace been broken by Arohi.

''Bhaiya, I wanted to apologize on behalf of my Di..she don't know what she was doing..I hope you won't take it to your HEART and forgive her.. '' Khushi let out a bitter laugh. Does he have a heart? What a freaking sick joke.

Arohi was feeling really bad as he was finding difficult to cope up with the pain.

''Stop your bloody non sense and get lost!!!!!!!!!!'' She barked.

''Di please..he is not well..'' She try to make her understand but khushi was in no term to hear a word. Ignoring her protest, Arohi guide him toward living room and made him seat securely.

''He try to misbehave with me and you are defending him..'' She snarled shooting a angry glare to him.

''What?'' She paused not really digesting her words. Khushi recovered in an instant by what she just blunt out in haze. She will never let her knew Arnav being the same man who destroy her life otherwise he will harm her as well. She need to protect her sister from these evil Raizada's.

''He is Akash's brother and I don't like him at all so you better stay away from these rich spoil brats ..'' Khushi try to cover the matter. Arohi was confused as well as shocked wondering how she knew about Akash?

''I will not allow any outsider to stay in my house..'' Khushi remarked and commanded him to leave her house right now. While his eyes fixed at her face. ''Didn't you hear me..I said out!!!!''

''Di you are forgetting its Karan Bhai apartment and I don't think he have any problem for his stay..Arnav Bhaiya is the most humble and honest person I ever known..his silence is the proof he haven't did anything wrong..he respect women and he will never imagine to taint any girl's dignity..'' Khushi wanted to laugh by her comment. His expression changes hearing that. He look away guiltily.

She clenched her fist tightly as the fight within her deepened. The night was still fresh in her mind. The night where all her love and faith brutally snatched by him.

*Flashback*

Khushi clutched the canopy rails and cried her heart out. A tremor passed through her as his words keep ringing in her ears.

''OF-COURSE I LOVE YOU..WE ARE MEANT TO BE TOGETHER AND WE WILL MARRY SOON..''

His words killing her. She was really confused. The person she loved so much how could he do this to her? She walked out from Lavanya house like a dead soul. Feeling numb so numb that she didn't realize how she managed to reached her flat. Her legs wobble, unable to carry the burden of pain. But she don't want to believe all this. Everything is a lie..a big lie. Her Arnavji loves her, only her. Her heart says.

Suddenly a rough hand touched her shoulder and started kissing her nape from behind. She closed her eyes briefly. She knew he was here and quickly she wipe the shedding tears from her cheeks.

''I'm damn hungry for you..'' He remove her hairs by placing it on one side and inhale her scent that is driving him insane. Khushi turn her body to meet his.

''Where are you, Arnav?'' She asked slowly. He groaned and pulled her into his proximity to feast her wildly and passionately.

''Arnav please..'' She push him away with all her force making him damn frustrated.

''What the hell is your problem? Don't spoil my mood and let me have you..I am already pissed off now..'' He made an annoying face.

''Sex! That is all you want from me?'' Her voice choked.

''You were with Lavanya right..i heard your talks and yo-..'' He punch the wall irritatingly. Silence fell over the room. Arnav charged toward her. He grabbed her arm and blunt out everything.

''Yes I'm with Lavanya..You have any problem? How many times I told you stop behaving like a typical house wife..you are not my wife..you are my girlfriend but now I'm FED UP with you and your so called drama..'' Her eyes started streaming. She began getting highly distraught.

''Its good you hear everything I was thinking how to tell all this..waise bhi I got bored being with you..'' She took few inch back, unable to believe her ears. Her body trembled.

''You should be lucky as I never been with a single girl for so long..I used girls not more than twice but you are lucky as I taste you many times in my bed and prove my point by showing your real place..'' She cupped his face and beg him to stop. Reality begin to sink.

''Arnavji, Say it you were lying..you love me haina..'' There was a cunning grin on his face. He pull her away callously.

''Well did I ever tell you I love you? I always wanted you khushi..It was not love..it was my need, my frustration, my anger, my revenge..'' Khushi looked on shocked and delusional.

''You meant when you said you wanted me you meant-' She paused remember his confession.

''Yes I wanted to have you in my bed..i wanted to f*** you.. I never forgot the slap you gave me by rejecting me..'' She looked on shocked, not really digesting his words.

''Khushi kumari gupta, I think you still didn't get me..okay let me remind you..Did you remember what you said in my cabin!

Flashback part 1

''Your so called charm might attract girls who run in your tip but I'm not the girl of your type, did you understand..!!!''

''You disgust me, Arnav.. You can never have me..'' With that she slapped him hurting his ego when he try to get close to her.

*Flashback end*

''So khushi what you said I'm not your type? Finally you become my type..you get so attracted that you sleep with me..'' He smirked and arched his eyebrow victoriously. Tears welled her face.

''Did you remember what you said in my car..?''

Flashback part 5

''You are wrong and your thinking is wrong..how dare you compare me with those girls whom you used for pleasure..No Mr raizada! You can never have me...What does you think of yourself..no sane person can breathe air you have breathed..girls may die to be with you but I would die rather than spending a minute with you..''

*Flashback end*

''Finally I had have you khushi! What you said, you disgust me! But now I disgust you because I make you impure and used you in the same way I used my models for pleasure..Its another thing I had to work hard in having you when girls get into my bed within hours but I proved you wrong that nothing is unattainable for Arnav Singh Raizada..he can get whatever he want anytime and as much as he want..'' He exclaimed with a wicked tone. She began crying and grabbed his shirt.

''Please tell me Arnav, it was a joke! You love me so much..the way you make me feel so special, the way you rescue me and confessed our love..your romantic gesture and expressing your feelings..it couldn't be lie..'' He pushed her hand away and smirked indifferently.

''You still mistaking in recognizing me..Whatever happen from starting to end it was all my plan to make you fall in love with me..It was me who send men to stole your entire luggage and money you were carrying from India, to make you go helpless so that you have no other option rather than coming to me..Do you think it was a coincident that all rooms are books at one time? No darling it was my game to make you stay in my room as I booked all rooms to have you but you are so stubborn to not fell in my trap so easily and leave my suite. However, I send my goons to attack you and made myself injured deliberately so that you shift in my place and I can have you in my bed and yah not to forget your so called boss! I bribe him to throw you out for not getting a silly appointment letter from you so that you join my company! Do you think all these incidences happened was a coincidence? Definitely not! It was my full proof plan to make you fall so hard for me so that I can taste you and prove my point that how dangerous and dreadful it could be by messing with Arnav Singh Raizada..you slapped me not once but twice..how could you thought I will let you go so easily..that day I decided I show your real place and look finally I succeeded in grabbing you..'' She went motionless. Shame coarse through her. She wasn't able to believe all this..her Arnav..her love did all this just to have her body? He used her. He never loved her at all. Her entire world shattered into million pieces.

''Look Arnav that is enough now..I am trembling now..you made so many promises to me. All those talks and telling me how much you loved me and we are going to marry and you proposed me by making me wear this ring..''

''It was all fake khushi..I didn't mean anything..how could you believe a player like me ever changed and that too for a down-market girl like you..I only love Lavanya..you knew why I never touch her because she is my Di choice. I respect her and her love- the only girl I desire and love, not you!'' She shook her head and cupped her face lovingly.

''Arnav I give my body, my heart, my love, my every breathe to you..why you being so mean to me..I will die without you..please tell me it was not true..I had loved you with all my heart..i cannot bear all this..you are my only existence to live..my life had become yours..'' He took her hand away annoyingly.

''Stop over reacting like you are the only girl to loose your virginity..So what I had sex with you! What's a big deal in that! You also enjoyed all this..Girls like you come and go into my life but that doesn't mean I will marry you.. I already made myself clear I never had loved you and you haven't done anything for free..I paid 20 Lakhs fees for your sister in return.. You should be happy you get a chance to entertain me so just chill sweetheart..Anyways good luck and thanks for giving me wonderful time in London..i really enjoyed it and don't worry I will never tell about our affair to anyone..nobody will knew about our s**! I am very good in keeping them in secret so that you can enjoy your life as you want and I will do mine..just think that nothing had happened between us..'' Saying this, he turned to walk away. She feel so dejected and cheap of herself. It was so difficult to decide what was more demeaning, the way he treated her or his words.

Within a second, she angrily raised her hand to slap him but being twisted by him.

''Don't you try to repeat the same mistake again. By now you may aware at what extend I can go to achieve my goal..'' He shrugged her hand roughly and turned to leave. Her tears been transferred into painful anger.

''Why Arnav why you ruin my life..I loved you so much..why you played with my feelings? I will not let you go so easily..i will reveal your ugly truth to Lavanya and make you pay for your sinful deeds..'' She roared out of hurt.

''Oh really?'' He turned and smirked indifferently. ''You think you will tell and she will believe you so easily..?'' He raised his eyebrow with attitude.

''Stop running behind me.. Guess you lost your charm after first time..Your taste already vanished from my mouth..I don't need you anymore, so kindly excuse me..'' She looked at him painfully and began directing why he played with her. She looked into his eyes and began questioning. He was looking as if he done nothing. She was feeling extremely vulnerable. Then he took out a blank cheque and handed her.

''This is for giving me those pleasurable nights..Fill your amount and let me go..'' Her heart was stabbing painfully by his cheap words. She slanted her head and began to sob.

''Don't look at me like that.. it will help you to shut your mouth and spend rest of your life with someone of your TYPE..Find some good guy and get married soon and now spare me..'' He walked off without giving since glance at her. A punch type pain caused on her heart. Her view was blurred as she cried her heart out. She loved this man so much. His betrayal was too hard for her to accept. She fell on the ground and pressed her mouth to hide her grief. She cried helplessly.

She remembered the time he wooed her and looked into her eyes and made her feel special. All the times she resisted and give in to his demand by trusting his words and actions. Why he played with her innocence and honor? She closed her eyes shut. Horror rule her face. His every words echoing in her mind and she keep repeating it again and again. Her eyes were puffy from crying

She went in the bedroom and scanned her eyes. She remembered all the passionate moments and her love under his arms. Lifelessly, she touched the bed and all those places where he marked her and cruelly took advantage of her love. Wiping her tears roughly, she spread the kerosene and burnt the bed and throw things he had bought for her.

''I hate you Arnav..You have turned my life upside down..you have shattered my dreams..i will always hate you..i will never forgive you..'' She fell on the floor and began weeping mercilessly. She scratched her skin which was worshiped by him. Her nail marks was causing reddish and bleed on her skin.

Days passed like this with khushi turning more worse and bitter. The pain getting so unbearable that she started drinking alcohol to forget his betrayal. But nothing was working. It getting more worse and intolerable for her to bare.

Karan tried to handle her but she don't need anyone sympathy. She remain aloof in a dark room and locked herself up. As the day passed, she was feeling some changes in her body. But she failed to recognize it. Many times She feel like throwing up and began feeling dizzy. One week passed but condition remain same. Her pain was too hard that she didn't figure out what is happening inside her. This helplessness and pain began to increase and gaping hole form in her chest. She cried even more. His actions killed her day in and day out. She wanted to die.

After few days, when it become impossible to hold everything inside her, She went to speak with Lavanya and tried to save her life from that monster. Arnav was already present as he had a clue she won't give up so easily and try to ruin his relationship with Lavanya. Her every truth turned out to be a silly joke as he called it as her misunderstanding and attraction. Lavanya believed him without any second thought and he announced their engagement in front of everyone, especially in front of khushi.

Khushi loose all her hopes in this life. She don't care about anything as she lost everything that matters to her. Contemplating her next step she decided her life is not worth living anymore. Broken hearten, she decided to take her life. But least she knew a new life already started growing inside her. His sinful fake love, his seeds, his flesh growing in her womb.

She took her step to move toward terrace and decided to jump from there. She was about to take a foot forward but then everything blur in front of her eyes. She loose her balance and on the very right moment, Karan rushed to save her and took her inside. Her painful face was only reflecting what she was going through.

She regain after some moments and hugged herself pulling her knees near her heart. He tried to touch her to wipe her sorrow but she jerk herself before his hand ever reached her.

''Please don't touch me..'' She waved her hand from him. ''I hate when anyone touch me..i hate when anyone mark me..I hate everything related to physical relation..I am a crap girl..I am impure..I am a cursed..I don't deserve to be loved..everyone hates me..'' She mumbled loosing her senses. He wasn't able to carry her grief. Slowly she started moving backward as he was trying to hold her. He cupped her face forcefully and make her look into his eyes.

''You are not crap..you are the most purest girl in the world..I m there with you, khushi..you are not alone..'' He console her, unable to bear her turmoil anymore. She smiled bitterly. The pain became unbearable as she recalled again and again. Her grief was now turning to poison. She remain numb and pushed herself into darkness. Next few days rolled quickly and she started following the routine lifelessly.

His words still haunting her every single moment. Even with closed eyes, she wasn't able to forget his touch, his betrayal and that night when his evil truth came into light. The pain getting deeper and deeper which become impossible to washed it out. She is nothing more than a dead body. Her soul already snatched and no feeling and emotions matters to her anymore.

Arnav closed her eyes and fell on the bed only to reminded their moments together. He stripped off her dignity and shredded her heart into pieces. Khushi had gone from his life for good and he had no regret for that. He smiled at his victory. His ego was satisfied. He was only accustomed to winning. But something inside him was yet not at peace.

*Present day*

In dining table:

Arohi was chattering with him non-stop and he was curiously waiting for only girl that has ability to take his breathe away. His eyes glinted the moment khushi came in a sudden and took her seat beside him. He smiled. But she didn't look at him for a microsecond and took the bowl and started feeding silently after filling her plate. He flinched. A heated lightening zipped through his veins. This girl was making it difficult to maintain his composure. How dare she ignore me? His hand gripped her inside the table and he careless it. She was on fire. Everything burned inside her. She greeted her teeth and turned to look at him with rage.

''Leave my hand, Asr'' She clenched her fist to stop herself from shouting.

''Not so easy women...'' He whispered slyly. She was trying hard not to shout but this man was making more difficult. Arohi who was sitting on other side was totally oblivious about it.

He had cross all the limits of shrewdness. Khushi was struggling and he was smiling and staring at her mesmerized with her hand gripped more tightly and intensely by him. She look away, not wanted to bear his sight and touch that was disgusting her.

''Your soft hand was only mine to be touched..'' Arohi looked at her suspiciously as she noticed her Di stopped eating. However, seeing her gaze, she started eating from other hand.

''Di why you eating from left hand?'' Khushi held her breathe and both of them didn't say a word.

''Haan khushi..kya hua tumhe?'' He asked with a naughty grin.

''What do you want?'' Her throat was constricted with anger.

''I always wanted you..You can't run from me, you simply can't..the sooner you realize it will be better..you only belong to me..'' To his surprise, she started to smile suddenly and hold his hand in response. He was literally shocked by her sudden move.

''You are right Asr..'' She passed a cunning smile and turn to glance at Arohi that was looking at her weirdly.

''Di..Aap theek toh ho nah? I never seen you eating from left hand?'' Arohi asked surprisingly.

''So what Aru! I feel like using my other hand for some good work..Right Mr Raizada..'' Her sudden changed expression definitely shocked him. She gripped him firmly and gave an innocent smile.

''You are getting naughtier day by day, Asr..'' She whispered leaning toward him and pretend to blush with her palm careless his rough hand in the same way he did few moments back. If he was fire, she was ice. His jaw dropped by her sudden approach. Its not like he didn't like it in-fact he loved it but her behavior was quite strange. On the other hand, Arohi was totally unaware what is going on behind the table.

''Enjoy as much you want Asr..Your long term happiness going to snatched in a very drastic way..I will show you a small trailer within few minutes..A small reward of ruining my life..'' She smirked inwardly with her fist clenched in a tight punch. Slowly, she lifted her agony streaked face only to find him staring at her, sitting by her side with broad smile.

His mobile rang. His smile faded instantly and his grip loosened from her hold. His cold demeanor had changed into devastated one.

''What??'' He got up with jerk getting highly shocked.

To be continued!

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