"yoongi are you homophobic too?"
i quickly looked up to you and i saw the fear in your eyes but i also saw pain

seokjin was in pain?

i wanted to laugh how can i be homophobic when i was gay?

"no i openly support lgbt"

you smiled but it wasn't the smile that made me fall in love with you

"i'm glad to hear that it would've been bad for you not to."

i nodded part of me wanted to tell you i was gay but the other part couldn't trust you i wasn't openly gay to a lot of people only to 3 people

"so um seokjin what happened?"

you looked up and just stared at me did you not trust me?

"my parents reacted negatively i know they'll get over it soon they're never home either way but i couldn't stay there today so i came here."

i wanted to ask you why didn't you go to jungkook or namjoon but i was afraid.

all i did was nod

here comes my next mistake are you ready seokjin?

you stood up and walked over to my small couch "yoongi do you mind if i sleep here?"

i should've let you sleep there but i loved you seokjin i loved you soo much

i shook my head, "if you don't mind you can sleep in my bed with me?"

i wanted you to say no but i wanted you to say yes at the same time was that normal seokjin?

i guess luck wasn't on my side because you agreed to sleep with me.

a goal right? who wouldn't want to sleep with their crush?

wrong. you brought me to hell seokjin

but before you fell asleep you needed to destroy me you placed your arm around me pulling me close i stiffened but didn't move.

"oh yoongi please call me jin"

and before i could process everything you were sound asleep.

i wish i could say this to you now but i know that no matter what i wouldn't be able to so i'm going to write it

fuck you kim seokjin