ARNAV RAIZADA

For the first time in life, I knew what decision to make and be confident about, for the first time, I was a hundred percent sure that it was the right decision and I wouldn't have come to this point without Khushi.

As she told me on the phone about Aditi's condition, it broke my heart, I knew she felt trapped so I made the decision for her, I shouldn't but I dint want her to be in a battle this whole time, so it was better if I came forward and helped her.

"Can you come see me?" I asked.

"What?" She asked in surprise.

"If you can't, I can, just tell me where you are and I'll come and we'll talk." I said.

"uh... It's okay, I'll come. See you in a while." She disconnected the call sounding confused, I sighed as I sat down on my bed and stared at the floor sadly.

"You okay bro?" Jiya asked, I had no idea she had been standing at the door of my room until she spoke, looks like my mind was too busy to notice things.

"Yeah." I nodded and smiled faintly at her, she walked in and sat down beside me, she held my hand and looked at me.

"I am sorry for not being supportive about you and Khushi getting together, all I want is for you to be happy and if she makes you happy then it's all good." She said.

"I know, and I have understood why you weren't happy."

"What do you mean?" She asked.

"Nothing, you'll figure that out on your own. Anyway, how has school been? Everything good?"

"Yeah it's all great." She sighed. Since we lost mom, nothing much had been happening in our lives, there was just some kind of void we couldn't fill with anything we tried.

It was like having no parents at all, because dad was never around, I don't even remember the last time I saw him, when mom was around, he used to come home every night, since she passed away, he hasn't. it's like he's avoiding coming home because we will remind him of her or something.

"I miss having a normal family. Will dad ever come home?" Jiya asked.

"I have no idea Jiya, I wish I could tell you he would but at this point I am not sure... he just pays all the bills and sends money every month but he hasn't come to see us himself. I get it he lost his wife, but we also lost our mom, why does he have to stay away from us when we need him?" I asked.

"Maybe this is our life."

"Yeah maybe it's always going to be just us two." I sighed.

"Hey." Khushi greeted us as she walked in, for a moment there I forgot she was coming when I started thinking about my father.

"I'll leave you two alone." Jiya smiled as she walked away, I patted on the place where she was seated so Khushi could sit there, she sat down and looked at me.

"Why did you tell me to come here?" She asked.

"Because I dint want to say this to you over the phone. You said, Aditi told you to choose either having her in your life or me."

"Yes, but don't worry I am not going to leave you Arnav, I'll figure something out with her." Khushi looked at me worriedly.

"I am no worried Khushi, I am just making things easier for you. Choose her, she is your best friend, you have to choose her." I said.

"Why would you say something like that Arnav?" She stood up and looked at me angrily.

"Because look at me, I haven't been sure about this relationship since we began, who knows whether I am going to be okay or not, who knows I won't repeat the same mistakes of my past Khushi? You know she is right, I did hurt Saakshi and nothing I do will ever earn me her forgiveness.

With me you won't be sure whether we'll end up together or not, with Aditi you'll know that she's always going to be by your side. I have known Aditi for a while now and I know she would never change her mind and I don't want you to be trapped in between the both of us.

So, let's just break up, you can go tell her you broke up with me and I'm sure she will forgive you for everything."

"Arnav when I decided to be with you wasn't because one day you would break up with me, what about us, what about our love? What about my love for you Arnav?" She looked at me with tears in her eyes.

"It's okay, you don't love me yet." I said.

"I do! Why do you think I'm fighting this so hard Arnav, we've tried to stay away from each other before also and it never worked, we both love each other Arnav, why do you think staying away will work now." She asked.

"Because this time it's about your best friend. Tell me honestly Khushi, do you want to lose Aditi?"

"Of course not, but that doesn't mean I have to lose you Arnav, I love you. Please." She looked at me sadly, I swear it was breaking my heart and if I had any other way of making things better I would do it, it was just that there was no other way.

I never thought the day Khushi would say she loved me was the same day I would be breaking up with her.

"I am not forcing you for a break up Khushi, I am just here giving you a way out. If you don't want to make that choice it's okay, I am still going to be here with you, I just don't want you to feel trapped between us two. Just know if you want to choose Aditi, I will be completely fine with it, and I will accept your decisions.

I am just very sorry because you are getting hurt and punished because of the mistakes I made in the past. I am really sorry about it. I really tried to talk to Aditi but she just doesn't want to listen to a thing, I don't know what more to do." I sighed.

I felt really bad, if I hadn't hurt Saakshi in the past, Khushi and I would never be in this position right now, I dint even know how to bring her out of it. I thought breaking up would help her, but she dint want that, neither did I, but if it was going to make things easier for her, then I was okay with it. For her I was okay with everything.

"Look Arnav, if you want to help me and make things easier for me, just be with me, I promise we'll figure something out, just don't talk about breaking up please, I cant lose you." She looked at me sadly.

"Neither can I Khushi, but what about Aditi?"

"I can't lose her either, and I know she will come around, I just need some time." She sighed.

"Okay if you say so." I sighed.

I was so sure this was the right decision, well it looked like it wasn't. How did I always end up making the wrong decisions seriously?

"What if she never comes around?"

"We will see about it then, don't be so negative from now okay, she's my best friend I know her better than anyone else, she is mad at you for what you did to Saakshi, once she forgives you for it she will be okay and I'm sure someday she will forgive you, just keep trying okay?" She cupped my face and looked me into the eyes.

"Okay." I nodded.

"I love you Arnav, and when I said we would make this work, I meant it okay. So don't ever think of breaking up. Together we can solve anything apart we'll just break ourselves."

"I know, I just dint want this mess for you." I pouted.

"I am okay with any mess as long as you're with me." She smiled as she bent over and kissed me on the lips. I felt an adrenaline rush immediately, anytime I kissed her, it made my heart jump.

I held her waist and continued kissing her, exploring her mouth, she tasted so good, I never wanted to stop kissing her.

She pulled apart after a while and looked at me with a smirk as if she knew how exactly she was making me feel.

"I have to go now, I'll see you tomorrow?"

"Please don't go." I pouted as I held her hand, since when did I become such a baby though?

"And why shouldn't I go?"

"Because I want more." I winked at her making her blush, she just laughed to hide the blush but I saw it.