I stood there silently for a moment, trying to figure out what had been happening in here before I came, I dint want to make any assumptions of course, it was my best friend and my boyfriend, the two people that I trusted the most.

"It's not what it looked like." Arnav said immediately as he looked at me in horror.

"Why are you giving her any justifications? She doesn't care about you, I should be the one explaining things here." Aditi rolled her eyes at Arnav. At least that kind of made me think maybe it wasn't what I thought.

"What was happening then?" I asked as I looked at the both of them turn by turn.

"We were just talking." Arnav said.

"Shut up will you? It's between me and my best friend, I am the one to talk to her."

"Then talk to me. You were preaching to me, telling me to stay away from Arnav because he hurt your sister and all that, so why are you here with him? And why were you talking in that position?" I looked at her angrily. I still dint know what was actually happening but I was just kind of mad.

"That's what we were talking about." She said.

"I was trying to explain about Sakshi and everything that happened." Arnav said.

"I told you to shut up!" Aditi shouted angrily.

"Let him talk." I gave Aditi a serious look, I dint like how she was behaving with him, I wish I could tell her that it was my boyfriend she was talking to but it would just create more problems than we already had.

"She wouldn't listen to me, she wanted to leave so I just pinned her to the wall so she could listen to me and not run away before I was done explaining things about her sister." Arnav looked at me nervously.

"Why don't you want to listen to him Aditi, he's just trying to make things better between you two?" I was kind of thankful that it wasn't what I was thinking, imagine if it was so, my heart could have broken into pieces.

"Because he dint listen when my sister wanted to talk to him, he never even showed up. What does he want to explain now and why to me, I wasn't his best friend, my sister was." Aditi looked at him with bitterness.

"I just couldn't, it wasn't that I dint want to, I was scared of losing her, I dint want to see her leave me like mom had left me, it was going to break me. I am sorry Aditi, I am just too weak about these things, I know she needed me and I know I should have been there for her but I was just..."

"You were a coward Arnav, you'll just be that." Aditi said as she walked out of the classroom angrily, Arnav looked at me for a moment and then followed her to talk to her.

I dint follow them, I wanted them both to talk about the problem between themselves and solve it on their own without dragging me in between.

I sat down on the chair as I sighed, I was so glad they were just talking. When I walked in here and found them in that position, my mind made went everywhere else, I just needed to sit down, take a breath and then go find them again after a while.

*****

I walked around trying to find them once again, I found Arnav in the parking lot but Aditi was nowhere to be seen.

"Where is she?" I asked as I walked towards him.

"She left with her car, every time I try to talk to her about it, she runs away. Honestly before you, I had stopped bothering, but now that you're with me and she's your best friend, I just wanted to make things better so it wouldn't be a problem for you, but she doesn't want to listen." He said sadly.

"It's okay Arnav, at least you tried. Maybe someday, she would listen to what you have to say." I cupped his face and looked him into the eyes.

"I hope so. Can we go home too? I need to talk to you, I need to let this out?" He asked. I just nodded positively so he grabbed my hand and pulled me along to his car, we got inside and he drove us to his house.

Once we arrived, he parked the car and stepped out, he rushed to open the door for me, then held my hand once again as he took me inside, there were just few servants around doing their work, we both headed upstairs to his room.

Once we were inside, he locked the door as we both sat down on the bed, I looked at him nervously as he stared at me silently for a moment.

"I don't know where to start from." He said.

"Take your time, I'm right here." I held his hand into mine and smiled at him. He sighed and then stayed silent for another five minutes, but then he started speaking.

"I really don't know how it happened... I mean how the fear came. I think I have just never been mentally prepared to lose anyone. I am weak like that." He laughed.

"I realized when mom got sick. I was just too scared, to see her leave me like that, I couldn't bear the thought of it. It gave me sleepless nights, it made me so restless, I was always thinking about it, and I also had panic attacks.

So I thought, maybe if I wasn't around her, it wouldn't make me that scared, so I left... tried to stay away from her hoping it would make things easier for me, instead I should have thought about her, and that she needed her son in her last days, she needed me to be by her side, but I chose to run away and come back after she was gone." His eyes were getting moist but he kept talking.

Then the second time it happened with Saakshi, and I did the same thing that I did with mom, I tried to find an escape. Every time I knew I was about to lose someone I loved, I went away from them, I know it was selfish, I was just scared of losing them and losing my mind at the same time.

When it happened to mom, trust me it was so difficult. Even after she left, I wasn't okay for so long, I went for therapy and everything and it took me ages to get back to normal. And then soon Saakshi left... it came all together, it left me crashed.

At that time, I dint really think about anything rather than how I was going to be okay after they left, instead I should have thought of being with them, trying to make them feel better, create last memories with them, but I chose to run away.

I dint do it on purpose Khushi, it just sort of happened, and then later Jiya made me realize it. After that I swore to myself that I wouldn't let anyone get close to me, because I always left when they needed me, I realized that I had hurt the people I loved, I wasn't there for them when they needed me the most so it was better if I dint get attached to anyone, that way I wouldn't hurt anyone.

So to keep everyone away from me, I started terrorizing them and all that, but then you walked into my life and everything changed. I tried so hard, but I couldn't stay away from you neither could I keep you away from me.

I don't want to hurt you Khushi, but I am scared someday I would end up doing the same, I would run away when you would need me the most, and I don't want to do that to you, I don't want to keep repeating the same mistakes again." He looked at me sadly.

I kind of understood him and knew what he was saying, a lot of times we did things without realizing what we were doing, and it was the same with him, but now he knew the things he had done, so incase he ever did the same to me, he wouldn't be able to forgive himself.

In the past, he did it unknowingly, but if it happened now, it would be knowingly and it was going to be way worse than it was before.

"Have you ever thought of it this way, you did it in the past because you dint realize what you were doing, you dint know it. Maybe now that you know you won't do it.

You said it yourself, you should have spent time with them instead of running away, maybe now if such a situation arises, you would know what to do." I said.

"I know, but what if I end up doing the same things I did in the past?"

"What if you don't Arnav?"

"We can't live based on a what if Khushi, I don't want to hurt you."

"And maybe because you don't want to hurt me you won't. That thought will always be in your mind and maybe one day if you want to run away, the thought will pop up and you would know that you don't want to hurt me so you would choose to talk to me instead of running away.

Look at me Arnav, if we want to make our relationship work, there's only one way it can, by talking. Like we talked today. Anytime, anything happens, all you have to do is talk, just come to me, tell me whatever that's going on in your mind and we'll sit down, talk like adults and solve the problem, that's it.

Even someday when you feel like running away, before doing that, come talk to me, I promise I will listen, and trust me it would make things way easier. The key to making any relationship work is by talking." I said to him.

"Okay, if you say so, I'll talk to you, I'll tell you everything." He nodded.

"Good. Now I really need to go find Aditi and talk to her too, I hope you're feeling better now that we have talked. It wasn't really as scary as we thought it was going to be." I smiled.

"I know. You should go find Aditi." He said as he stood up and kissed me then held the door open for me