Having him this close to me was making me quite nervous, I couldn't even speak well but I had to, because he was acting all confused.

"What do you want now Arnav? I thought we were avoiding each other?" I asked.

"I need to get you out of my head." He looked like he was angry, excuse me, I dint walk into your head, if I was there it was because you wanted me there. I wish sometimes I could say such things out loud, they were so savage.

"Then do it, who's stopping you." I rolled my eyes.

"Don't roll your eyes at me." he said as he pressed himself more against me, as if he wasn't already pressing me harder.

Okay, that came out dirtier than it should have.

"Jeez dude, you need to chill. You are the one that never wanted to see my face yet you can't seem to be able to keep yourself away from me, so I don't get the torture here."

"Oh, you think this is torture?" He said as he rubbed his body against mine. If someone saw us in this position, they must think things they weren't supposed to, the worst part was, I dint want to push him away.

What is wrong with you Khushi!

"What do you want from me Arnav?" I sighed in defeat.

"I want you." He replied.

"What do you mean you want me?" why was he so confusing.

"I want you to sleep with me."

At those words, I swear if I had been eating something I would have spit it out. Who in their right mind does this? Stop a girl in a parking lot and tell her they want to sleep with her.

"You're disgusting you know that right?"

"Yet you aren't pushing me away. You like this don't you?" He smirked.

Idiot!

Now that he said it, even though I dint want to push him away I had to, I wouldn't go on looking stupid in front of him duh.

"I need to go see Aditi and I'm not going to be late because some idiot stopped me in the parking lot wanting to sleep with me." I said as I tried to walk away from him but who said it was going to be easy to walk away from the guy that had basically threatened every human being in this university.

All he had to do was just get hold of my tiny wrist and pull me back, I crashed on his chest and damn that feeling.

He put his arm on my waist, pinning me on his body so I wouldn't try to leave again, he smirked at me proudly and all I wanted to do was slap his stupid hot face.

"What Arnav?" I tried to shout, but it came out as a squeak.

"Do you want me to let you go?" He smirked knowing how his touch was making me feel, trust me I really wanted to say yes, but no words would come out of my mouth. Why did I have to feel this way around him? Why couldn't it be any other random guy in this whole university?

"I thought so." He smirked. Idiot. How many times had I called him an idiot?

"As far as I remember you didn't like me, so now why is it that suddenly you want to sleep with me?" I asked.

"Because I made a stupid mistake and kissed you and now I can't get that kiss out of my head. Look it's all logical, I kissed you and I yearned for more, I am sure it's all just lust that's why I'm asking you to sleep with me, just once and we get done with this.

I know you feel the same way, I have noticed how you keep looking at me, and right now you feeling this way around me makes it clear. Look I'm not forcing you, I'm just asking. The rest is upon you." he said as he let me go.

Why did he let me go? I still wanted to feel his touch. Okay Khushi, what is wrong with you? Maybe he was right, it was the kiss that made us feel this way.

"What if it still doesn't go away?" I asked.

"What?"

"If I agree to sleep with you, what if the next day you still feel the same? What would happen then?"

"I won't, I'm sure it's just lust, it's the only thing I ever feel."

"I don't know Arnav... it's tempting but I've never done anything like it before."

"Neither have I... it's just you that I can't get out of my head and it's frustrating me. I don't go on asking random girls to sleep with me." He looked offended. Seriously? He was here asking me such a question and he was the one getting offended?

"I need time to think. For now all I can think of is my best friend and the only chance I have, once I'm sorted with it, I'll give this a thought, and let you know." I sighed. Honestly, right now I had too much going on in my head and I dint want to make this decision just for the sake, I had to think it through.

"Okay, you can go, I'll wait for you to decide. But before you leave, can I kiss you?"

I looked at him in shock, I dint know whether I should laugh at this situation or feel weird about it, last time he kissed me it was out of nowhere, not that I was complaining, but it seemed weird that he was asking for my permission, not that I would have pushed me away if he kissed me.

Damn it Khushi! You're doomed.

"Okay." I nodded. There you go, already giving in.

He stepped closer once again and I tell you my heart started racing crazily, seriously, was this just lust? Would I feel this way if all I felt for him was lust?

One of his hands went to my waist grabbing me once again, I liked the way he held me by the waist it felt so damn good, his other hand slowly tucked my hair behind my ear and the he brushed his thumb on my lips while he licked his own lips.

Do it already Arnav!

He bent over, brushed his lips against mine, slowly parting it as he kissed me, I had a rush of feelings inside my body, I could literally feel each and every feeling that might have existed, how was he such a good kisser?

My legs were getting weak, I felt like I was going to fall down any moment having no control at all on my legs. How could a man possibly make me feel like this?

He pushed me towards my car, pressing me against it, he grabbed my neck and now started kissing me deeply, with his tongue, I could taste his mouth, it tasted of cinnamon, what did he have that contained cinnamon?

He stopped kissing me for a moment, but his mouth was still on mine and then started once again, this time he slowly bit my lower lips and I swear that turned me on like nothing else, at this moment I even wanted to ditch Aditi and carry on with this but I wasn't going to make that decision, I had been already a terrible friend, I wasn't going to be one again.

"Arnav." I moaned his name as I pulled apart, as much as I dint want to, I had to.

"I think this will make your decision easier." He winked at me as he turned around and walked away. How did he manage to walk away just like that while I was always left yearning for more?

I just stood there for a while trying to gather myself back from what had just happened, I don't think I even needed to give this any more thought, I dint care if I was lusting for him or not, I just wanted to do this, but I was going to tease him a bit before telling him I was ready for it, part of my revenge as he left me like this. Twice!

*****

"Hey! Sorry I'm late." I said to Aditi as I walked into an old café, I remember when we were in school, Aditi and I would come here daily, they served the best coffee ever, and we never missed it.

"It wouldn't be you if you weren't late." She sighed, I pulled out a chair and sat down in front of her.

For a while we both stared at each other silently, I don't know why it was somehow awkward but I know I was the one that made it this way.

"You know I don't have forever Khushi, start speaking." Aditi said looking frustrated.

"I just... I wanted to explain why I left just like that, I still don't know if it's the right thing to do, if I should tell you about it or not, but I can see that it's just costing me my friendship and I don't want that." I said.

"Come to the point already will you?"

"I'm sorry Aditi, it's big for me, can't you be patient? I don't want to hurt you."

"You've already hurt me enough Khushi." She was really mad at me, I knew whatever I was going to say was going to break her heart but I dint know what else to do.

"I left because I knew something, something you should have known but I dint have the guts to tell you, or maybe because I was forced not to tell you. I couldn't live with that baggage, I couldn't look at you daily knowing I was keeping a huge secret from you so I decided to leave.

But despite staying away for so long, it couldn't get it out of my head. I am sorry Aditi, I should have told you then, just know I was forced not to."

"Khushi, you're scaring me. Tell me what it is." She looked scared also, oh God, why did I have to do this to my own best friend?

"One day, I came back home from school early, I wasn't feeling well, and when I reached home, I dint think anyone was around as dad was always busy at work, but I heard some noise from his room so I decided to go check. And I found him there, he wasn't alone, he had a company."

"Who was it?" Aditi banged her hand on the table, looking at me with her eyes wide open.

"Your mother." I whispered as tears rolled down my eyes.

"What?" She looked at me in shock.

"I... I... dint know what to do. I was shocked too, I mean I get it my mother is dead but your parents are together, why would she cheat on your father? That too with my father knowing we were best friends?"

"You're lying! I dint know you could be this disgusting just to get our friendship back." Aditi stood up angrily.

"I'm not lying Aditi. If you think I'm lying go ask your mother this and see what she tells you. I wanted to tell you then but she and dad somehow forced me not to, they told me you would be heartbroken, all I cared about was you, I dint want you to get hurt or lose your family. They promised they won't ever do anything like this again and so they convinced me to keep the truth from you.

But as time went by, it got harder and harder, I couldn't be with you every day and not tell you, it was eating me up, so I thought if I went away I would forget it, but here I am years later, and it's still haunting me." I wiped off the tears from my face.

I hated my father for making me lie to her, I hated her mother also, how could they do that to us?

"I need to leave. My mother has some questions to answer." Aditi said as she walked away angrily, I tried to stop her but she wouldn't listen, she just pushed me away and got into her car as she drove off.

Right now I dint even know if she was mad at her mother or at me for keeping this from her. I just wish she could understand why I did it. She was my best friend, I never wanted to hurt her, but somehow I just ended up doing that.

I was a terrible friend wasn't I?