The next night, Sebastian Roche flew down and treated the boys to a Chinese dinner. Misha did a livestream telling everyone how they got engaged, and it was perfect. There was only one thing wrong, he still felt like he had flaws. For once thing, he didn't think he was skinny or muscular enough.

At dinner, Jensen excused himself to the bathroom, Sebastian was talking to the waiter... Nobody was paying attention to him, so he spilled soy sauce on his plate and dumped the rest of his food under the table.

When they got home, Jensen carried Misha in because he had fallen asleep in the car. He woke up when Jensen picked him up, but stayed there.

"Hey, Misha?" Jensen shifted slightly before shifting and sitting on the couch so he could hold Misha and snuggle him. He was worried although because he was so light in his arms. It had been a slow decline over the past week. He hasn't been eating as much. The most he ate was at the dinner he proposed at.

"Yes?"

"Are you okay? You've lost a lot of weight and im worried."

"I did? No, you just got more muscles."

"No... I also know that you didnt take your medicine earlier... What's going on?" Jensen made him look at him and knit his eyebrows together.

"Nothing..." He got teary eyed.

"Tell me."

"Why do I hate myself?"

"I dont know. I love you though. I love you more than anything else."

"Loving me is a mistake."

"If its wrong i dont wanna be right." Jensen protested and kisses his forehead.

"Save your self. I'm a mess that you dont need. I have problems. I don't want to drag you down with me."

"We all do. But i have you. Dimitri Tippens Krushnic. You're mine, and I'll do whatever I can to keep you happy. I wont let you go down."

"Death would seem pretty good right now... Despite how much I love you, you can do better. I want to make you happy, but I can't. Your the only thing that matters to me..."

Jensen had to hold back the tears that were burning in his eyes. "I'm happy if i have you. Okay? I won't be happy if I don't."

"Thank you, for putting up with me for so long; but you dont have to anymore."

"What are you saying? I need you. I need you. I love you. You're the best thing that has happened to me. I dont ever want to leave you."

Jensen stayed with him, they didn't talk for a while, but just cuddled.

"Why exactly do you love me Jensen? I'm no good for you."

"You're perfect. And you're the only reason I'm happy. I think fate put us together. I was made for you, I was only made because of you. Do you want some time alone? To think about what you want to do? If I'm the reason you're upset ill get out of your life. But damn, I want to be with you for the rest of my life. What happened to us getting married? What happened today?"

"I dont want to be alone unless I have a razor in my hand. I had a dream that you left me because you realized I'm the equivalent of horse $hit." Misha kept rambling about how he wasn't good enough, and Jensen just kissed him to shut him up.

"Why didnt you take your medice this morning?"

"I did."

"No you didnt."

"You can't prove that." Misha kept talking back, hoping Jensen would take control and give him punishment. He fed off of getting spanked by his master.

"I was with you all day, and even told you to, and you didnt. I didnt want to be too pushy because you're venerable right now..."

"Stop yelling..." Misha cried.

Jensen just shut up, clearly Misha wasn't going to listen. He wanted them to get married and have a honeymoon in Paris and have kids... Why couldn't Misha see that he made Jensen happy?

Andy and Gerard curled up with them on the couch, snuggling Misha because they could tell he was upset. He finally spoke up. "Master, dominate me. Please. I don't want to think. If you love you, you'll help me! Please!"

Jensen nodded, he took Misha downstairs to their dungeon and made love to him. Slow at first, and then more fast pace, making him too enthralled to think about anything. When they finished, Misha laid against his chest and tried to catch his breath. He could only think about Jensen's cologne and how the way he smelled took his breath away.

Misha was determined to take the world by storm; but only with his future husband.