You were not mine
But the fact was always denied
I thought that we were made for each other
When in reality we were not meant to be together
I tossed and turned in my bed
Wondering, am I so terrible that even you could not be by my side
I cried and cried my eyes out
But still, you didn't care
Now I thought,
I am not weak
I can lead my life without you
If you can do the same
I burnt your every memory from my life
I admit, it was painful
But I had no choice
I opened a new chapter of my life
I began my journey without you.
I would not lie,
I felt terrible at first
But then I understood this was how it was supposed to end.
I stumbled while I went on my way
I even fell down sometimes,
I expected a hand to help me get up
But then I remembered,
The hand I was searching for, was never going to come
So, I got up on my own
Without the help of others
It was then that I realized, I needed to be stronger to face the world without any fear
There were times when I wished that you came back to me and held me in your arms
But alas! This wish didn't turn into reality
And I am glad the wish wasn't fulfilled
Because that made me stronger
So strong that I can now face the storms of life with a smile on my face
I learnt from my experiences
There are times in your life when you have to fight for yourself
And there is no one to help.
It took me years to learn
What I have learnt till this day
And in the process
I have ceased to be the person I used to be
The place where my heart dwelled earlier
Has been replaced by a huge iron block.
It had been 15 years since I have last seen you
I have succeeded in living my life without you
But I had not completely succeeded in erasing all the bitter-sweet memories I had shared with you.
But I had accepted it as the way of my life
And finally when I was coping up with your loss,
I stumbled upon you in the market.
I had not noticed you,
Until you spoke
It was then that I recognized you
You asked if I remembered you or not
Of course I did!
How could I forget you?
How could I forget your voice?
The voice which once made my stomach do somersaults and made my heart flutter?
You were trying to be friendly with me
But little did you know that I was not the person I used to be anymore
So when you tried to hug me
I avoided the hug with extreme effort
It hurt to see your face like that
But as you know, my self respect is most important for me
And I wouldn't let you enter my life again and leave me heart broken
So I walked away from there
While you shouted the words, my ears had longed to hear for years
"I was wrong to leave you. I can't live without you"
But now I didn't care
I have learnt to survive in this treacherous world without you
I left you there and along with you, I left the memories that haunted me for years
And that day I succeeded in the truest sense to erase you completely from my life forever!
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A/n
Ok. I know this is not even close to a poem. But I tried writing a poem as I wanted to do so. But hey! Let me know your views about it and obviously no one can become Shakespeare in a single day. Also wish me Happy Independence Day guys! My boards are finally over and I have lots and lots of plans. I would be completing my ongoing book " School Friends " soon too. This chapter is dedicated to pranju1. You were an amazing friend.  Ok you ARE an amazing friend.  You taught me, perhaps everyone who met you to face the biggest challenges of our life with a smile on our face. I will not say RIP because I will not let you rest in peace.  I will talk with you and you will have to listen to my chats. Miss you Pranju.  You are the best. I wrote this during my exams and I had planned to dedicate it to you as you were the most amazing person I met.  This was supposed to be a happy A/n and although you always wanted your friends to stay happy I can't really right now.  I wish I got you back and said that whenever I said I hate you, I meant I love you, whenever I said you are a chudail, I meant you are an angel.  I wish......  There were so many things to say which have remained unsaid and will remain unsaid for the rest of my life.  We met for such a short time, yet you casted a magic on me that it became difficult to pass a single day without talking to you.  You were my oxygen, you were my blood, you were my everything.  You are my everything.  I will never forget you and perhaps no one will forget you who met you.  You were a person who was one in a million.  You were a gem.  You were not a star but the sun whose mere presence lightened everyone's life. You will always acquire a special place in my heart. Stay happy wherever you are. Love you.

P.S. - Did I tell you guys that my source of inspiration for writing a poem is chaashnee. Well, she is an amazing author and a person in a million and I am lucky that I met a person like her. Well, I know di I am not even close to you but we can always try to improve ourselves right ?
Ok, now really I am going. Bye bye!!!

~ Naina