By the time I was your age, I'd give anything

I remember vhen she first joined zhe team.

Solider and Engie seemed to enjoy having her on zhe team, somezing different zen all zhe bloodshed to look at, vhile I had always just scoffed and said to zem "vhy should ve vorry about zis little girl? She probably can't even take care of herself," after I had said zat, I can remember it like it was yesterday, Engie looked me in zhe eyes and said "Don't talk about (Y/n) like that."

To fall in love truly was all I could think

As time vent on, I started appreciating her help... venever I vas sick, or had a headache, she vas alvays right beside me, and soon enough, I grew to adore her beautiful loving (e/c) eyes, and her (h/l) (h/c) hair... zo, sometimes I vould pretend to be sick only to see her. I zoon grew Ill, and I couldn't go out and fight vith zhe rest of zhe team, so I asked her to.

That's when I met your mother, the girl of my dreams

I offered to set up her respawn, but she said her Vater already had ven she vas younger. But, she zounded so unsure about what she vas saying, as if she didn't know vat zee respawn vas. I looked at her vis an unsure look, but vent along vith it.

The most beautiful woman, that I'd ever seen

I just (pronounced jast) couldn't get her out of my mind, she vas very attractive, intelligent, gentle, and kind.

No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't get zher off of my mind. Every time Solider or Engie had mentioned her, I'd start blushing madly, and zey alvays noticed, and tried to hook us up, but it never worked.

She said, "Boy, can I tell you a terrible thing?

I vas actually sick again, and she knew it, just (same pronunciation as before) by zhe way I vas coughing so often.

It vas one of zhe days vhere she had to take over for me on zhe battlefield. But vhen she got back, she seemed darker zhen before, she seemed to just look anyvhere but me. As she got zhe medicine from my cabinet, I sat up straight.

Once she came up by me, she held out zhe spoon, and gave my zis look zhat freighted me, so I took zhe medicine wisout a fight.

It seems that I'm sick and I've only got weeks

I had grown fond of her, and she had very obviously taken a liking to me too, and it vas obvious vhen she kissed me... but I was too shocked to kiss back, and before I vas able too, she pulled back and said "I-I'm sorry medic, I shouldn't have done that."

I vas about to say somezing, but she had valked out already, "damn it" I muttered under my breath, my mind racing from zhe kiss.

I must've been in my zoughts for a vhile, since I had herd a gunshot, but soon realized zhat it had only been about an hour.

Please, don't be sad now, I really believe, you were the greatest thing that ever happened to me"

I dashed out of my room, to go and find (Y/n)'s, I turned corner after corner, and soon I herd other footsteps following mine.

It had taken a good 2 minutes to finally reach her room, and as I did, I saw her laying zhere, blood pouring out of zhe bullet hole in her head. "(Y/N)!" I shouted as I saw her close her eyes... I was frozen in place, seeing the one who had taken care of my all those years, dying on the floor.

Slow, so slow I fell to the ground on my knees

I soon regained control of my body, and ran towards her body, and picked it up feeling for a pulse... it vasn't zhere.

zhen I realized the terrible truth, she vas gone... I couldn't see her beautiful smile anymore, I couldn't see her (e/c) orbs sparkle as she talked about something she was fond of... and I couldn't hear her velvety voice anymore. I felt my eyes start to water as I zhought all of zhis, and didn't even care if Engie or Soldier vere vatching me anymore.

I cradled her body Vhile crying, "bitte, bitte liebe, komm zurück zu mir," (please, please love, come back to me) I Vhispered to her Vhile kissing her forehead.

If you're given the choice, then I beg you to choose to walk away, walk away, don't let her get you.

It's been a veek now, and no sign of her respawning has been evident, so we had prepared a funeral for her, she deserved... no, she deserves it.

Also, during zhis veek, we had gotten a new recruit, his class name is Spy, he seemed to be very confused to only see zhe 3 of us, most likely hearing zhat zhere vas gonna be 4, but Soldier had soon told him. Soldier had told him zhat I was having zhe hardest time with it, being as she vas the one vho helped me out.

zhe day of her funeral came by quicker zhan I zhought it vould, and everyone, ozer zhan Spy of course, vere upset, and were either crying, or looked like they vere about too.

"I am so very sorry pour ta perte," Spy came up to me and said looking at me with a look of sorrow in his eyes, and I couldn't stop the tears from streaming down my face.

Zhe day of her funeral came and went by pretty quickly, but it vas painful to go zhrough... god how I wished she were here!

I can't bear to see the same happen to you

Today marks zhe 5th year of (Y/n)'s death... ve have also got a few more recruits, Pyro, a Heavy veapons guy vho ve just call Heavy, and Sniper... zhey all seem friendly enough, and I know zhey have started to get worried about me, I haven't eaten today, slept, or even came out of my room.

As if on cue I herd a knock on my door, "is Doktor ok?" I heard Heavy ask, so I got up, and shuffled to my door.

"J- nein, come in Heavy, I vant to tell you somezing," I said as I moved aside to let him in. I vent and sat on a chair as I pointed to my bed for him to sit on, and he obliged, so I vent on and told him, "Heavy, 5 years ago today a... friend of mine, killed herself, and zhe zhing is, I liked her more zhan just a friend, and," I stopped to take a deep breath in to fight the lump in my zhroat.

"Does Doktor need tissue?" Heavy asked me, and I just nodded letting a few tears fall.

He handed me a tissue and I took it gratefully, and viped the tears away.

"And, before I got to tell her, she kissed me, ran out, put a gun to her head, and killed herself," I told him vhile more tears fell down my cheeks.

Now, son, I'm only telling you this, because life can do terrible things

It has now been 15 years since her death, and we have gotten two new mercs, Demoman, and Scout.

It has gotten easier, considering I'll actually leave my room, but zhat's usually to go to zhe medi-bay, and zhat was only ever to talk to Archimedes, god did she ever love zhat bird, and so do I, but really, she loved him more zhan I ever did, and ever vill.

I told Archimedes every year about anozer adventure (Y/n) vould tell me happened in her childhood... and by the end of it, I was a sobbing mess, but today it vas different, today I saw a loose piece of paper, so I picked it up and read it.

Dear Medic,

If you're reading this, it means I'm dead, and I might not of told you, I love you.

I had loved you ever since I first came to 2fort... it had hurt me to hear from Soldier, or Endgie about what you'd say about me... it hurt me Medic. You probably don't even care that it hurt me, and that's okay, I can't please everyone... I just thought that I'd let you know that I loved you, and I just wished you liked me back... but you clearly don't, and you probably never will... so I am sorry for ever bothering you, or making you mad, Goodbye Medic

love,

(Y/n)

As I finished reading zhe letter, I noticed little tear drops on it, and zhat's when I realized zhey vere mine. "Archimedes, please, don't fall in love... it hurts to much letting zhe one you love go... especially vhen zhey meant nothing to you at first, and zhen zhey, zhey mean the vorld to you... it hurts to much to zhink zhat zhey zhought you hated zhem all zhe time, all because of the vay you acted at first. It hurts to know what you've done to zhem, so please... don't fall in love," I told Archimedes as I sobbed.

3rd person p.o.v

The bird just cocked it's head to the side, not knowing what his owner was saying to him, but realized it was upsetting by seeing his master crying to himself.

Archimedes flew down and laded on the Medics head in an attempt to calm his master, and it worked slightly.

The Medic managed to choke out a few simple words "Ich liebe dich, (Y/n)," and with that walked over to his desk still slightly crying.