Niall: alright. I get it. I screwed up. I screwed everything up. I hurt you and I keep on hurting you. I get why you're angry, I get why you want to hate me. I get it. But what I don't get is why you have to tell me all of that through a text message. Why can't you just look at me and say it? Tell me how much I hurt you so I can finally understand it all.

Sent at 11:07 pm

Niall bites down on his bottom lip as he looks over at Harry. Harry's phone goes off and the younger takes a moment to look. When he finally does, his eyes look up at Niall who was waiting for him to say something, to say anything really. Harry takes a deep breath, closing his eyes tightly before he looks down at his phone once more.

Harry: there are some things that are a lot easier to say like this. I can think about what to say to you without worrying about it sounding stupid.

Received at 11:10 pm

Niall: I would prefer it if you just talked to me.

Sent at 11:11 pm

Harry: well I don't really care what you'd prefer. This is the only way I can speak to you, Niall.

Received at 11:12 pm

"Harry, this is ridiculous and you know it." Niall says, finally growing tired of the constant texting back and forth. Harry still doesn't say anything to Niall though, keeping his gaze onto his phone.

"I hate this too, you know. I hate how you can't even look at me right now and I hate the fact that you think you can talk to me. I'm sorry, about everything I have done to you. But have you ever stopped to think about what you've done to me? You're not the only one who's been hurting and I hate the fact that you seem to think you are. I love you, I want to be with you, I want you to forgive me yet every time we get even close to moving on... You find some stupid reason why we can't. So what's your reason this time? Why can't we be together, Harry?" Niall asks, his voice coming out angrier than he wanted but he was done with all this bullshit. He was sick of running around in circles with Harry, he just wanted it over and done with. If Harry wasn't going to be with him, so be it. This was Niall's last attempt in making things right because Harry clearly didn't seem to give a shit about any of it.

Harry doesn't say anything yet again, biting down on his bottom lip as he looks at his phone yet again. He starts to type, earning a scoff from Niall as he shakes his head.

"You're really going to text me the reason? Is that what it all boils down to? A f ucking text?" Niall asks as he grows even more frustrated with Harry. Niall's phone goes off after a minute and Niall looks at it even though he didn't want to.

Harry: stop it. Stop treating me like a child, Niall.

Received at 11:21 pm

"Then f ucking stop acting like one! Jesus Christ Harry, look at me and tell me what it is that is so terrible about me that you'll never ever forgive me. Why won't you look at me?" Niall asks, growing desperate now because all he wanted right now was to hear Harry's voice. To see Harry's face as he tells Niall that he didn't want to be with him ever again. He wanted Harry to mean it and the only way Niall knew he would was if he looked at him.

"Look at me and tell me that you never want to see me again." Niall whispers, his voice cracking and he's blinking back tears. Harry still won't look at him though, blinking back tears of his own as he holds onto his phone as if it were a lifeline.

Harry: what if I don't want to? What if I want to see you again? What if I never want you to leave?

Received at 11:26 pm

"Then stop this. Stop refusing to look at me, stop texting me when you can clearly tell me all of this. Stop doing this." Niall says, gesturing between the both of them. Harry once again takes a deep breath, closing his eyes tightly as he tries to gain the courage to do just that. He didn't know why, but he couldn't bring himself  to look at Niall. He didn't want to and Harry hated it because he knew that it was all Niall wanted. Maybe that was why he couldn't though.

He didn't want to do what Niall wanted him to.

"Do you still love me, Harry?" Niall asks and that seems to finally get Harry's attention. Harry finally looks at Niall, his green eyes connecting with Niall's blue. Harry bites down on his bottom lip as he thinks about his answer.

"I... I don't know anymore. I thought I did, but sitting here right now with you... I don't feel anything. I don't feel love or hatred towards you, I don't feel anything. I don't... I don't think I love you like I used to." Harry finally says, meaning every word as he looks at Niall. Niall doesn't say anything now, looking at Harry sadly before he nods.

"Then I guess that's the end of it."

"It doesn't have to be. Look, I know I said that I don't love you like I used to... But maybe I'm not supposed to. Maybe this is me loving you differently, maybe we aren't supposed to love each other like we did back then... You and I, we've changed Niall. We aren't who we used to be."

"What are you trying to say?" Niall asks, now beyond confused where Harry was going with this.

"I'm saying that I love you differently than I used to. I love you, the new you. The you who's sitting in front of me. I love you, Niall." Harry says and Niall's hearts starts to race.

"You better not be leading me on again, Styles." Niall warns, walking towards Harry who looks up from his spot on the floor. Harry smiles sadly before standing up himself, looking at Niall.

"If there's one thing I've learned since we broke up, nothing will ever beat being with you baby."

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This is probably the last chapter. Haven't decided yet but yeah.

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