I end up rushing away. I know he deserved it, but violance was never my thing - even if you could say I was in a gang... ish. We just kinda drove our bikes around places we weren't meant to and broke into places. We never fought anyone, that wasn't our thing.

I miss those guys alot - they made me feel at home... Not that my friends here don't, but I wish we met under diffrent circumstances... I can still hear his rants an yells from my room, he's clearly getting violent. Susey peeks around my door, clearly shaking.

"Hey sweetheart, things getting too scary in there?" she nods and darts over to me, burrying her head into my chest, crying. Dawson joins us not much later, trying to comfort her. He keeps reassuring her that she's a good person, and thats she's not in danger. I stay quiet - My voice'll give away the fact I'm scared. I watch the two as they start to fall asleep. They really do make a good match to each other, They care deeply for and trust each other, and although they are really young, I dout they would have actually looked at each other if they didn't like each other...

My mind wanders to me and Colin. To think we'd end up a thing - I won't lie, I had a crush on him from the moment I met him, personality alone. He might be cynical, and laugh at other missfortune, even if they're his friend but he never judge me over my nightmares.

And in this place, thats something. Something as simple as that means so much. He holds so much of my heart now, I just hope he feels the same over me, and that he's not using me.

...

I'm such a mess... I need to stop - surly, if he was using me, he'd be tied up like the others, right?

Right?