My dearest Regina,
       One year ago you saved me. A year ago today, I fell in love with you. These last 10 months have been hell without you. I think about you every second of every day. I think about how happy you probably are with Robin. But that still doesn't mean I don't love you. I may be with Remy, but you still have my heart. Forever and always.
                                   ~Emma

I sighed and locked my phone. "Emma, you coming?" Remy yelled from the front door. I stood up from the kitchen table. "Yeah, I'll be right there." I responded.

Tonight, Remy and I were going out to dinner for my birthday. It may be two days early, but with her busy schedule, we figured it would be best to go out tonight before she gets called into work. As happy as I am with Remy, my mind still goes back to Regina and how she took me in a year ago. I sighed and walked toward the front door.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I lay in bed, looking up at the ceiling with my hands resting on my stomach... my very round and swollen stomach. I'm 8 months pregnant with Robin's baby. I look over my shoulder to the man sleeping next to me, and my eyes begin to fill with tears.

"What have I done?" I asked myself. Don't get me wrong, I am happy with Robin. We are having a girl. A baby girl. But all of this just feels...wrong. Like I should be with Emma. I miss her more and more every day, but I don't have the heart to hurt Robin. He has already done so much for me.

Emma's birthday is in two days, and I so desperately wish I could kiss her and say happy birthday to her. But I fucked things up. It's all my fault. I never should have done what I did.

I get up out of bed and walk to my office which is now covered in dust. Since Emma left, I haven't had much motivation to go into work, or do any work at all. I flip on the light switch and head over to my desk. I sit down on the chair and pull out a piece of paper and a pen and begin to right.

Dear Emma,
      Not a day goes by that I don't think about you. A year ago, I took you in... something I've never done before, and I fell in love with you. In two days, you will be nineteen. You've probably already had the baby by now. I hope our son or daughter is doing well. I know you've probably moved on in these last eight months, I'm with Robin now and eight months pregnant with our daughter.

I thought about that sentence and immediately scratched it out. I just had this weird feeling that the baby was in fact, Emma's, not Robin's.

I'm with Robin now But for whatever reason, I can't move on. Emma, I miss you more and more every day. I miss waking up to you, I miss your kisses, and your gentle touch. I know hearing from me is probably the last thing you want, but I just want you to know that I still love you. More than anything or anyone else. I just hope one day, you will find your way back to me and we can finally have that happy ending that we've been hoping to have our whole lives. You mean the world to me Emma. Your beautiful and I love you so very much. Don't ever forget that. Happy birthday my Emma.
                                     Love,
                                    Regina

P.S. There is something you should know... I'm pregnant, and she's yours.

I sighed and reread the letter I had just written. When I thought it was good enough, I turned on my computer and opened google, and typed Emma Swan into the search bar. I needed to send this letter to her. Even if she never wants to see me again, I need her to know how much she means to me.

After clicking on several different links, I found her on a website for a Café.

Emma Swan, is the lead manager at the Happy Ending Café in Princeton, New Jersey.

I smiled, and immediately knew what I had to do. I took the letter, and put it neatly in an envelope before heading upstairs and getting dressed as quickly as I could.

"Regina, what are you doing?" Robin asked groggily as I rushed to get my shirt over my big belly. "I have a business trip I need to attend in New Jersey." I said. I hated lying to him, but I couldn't tell him I was actually going to see Emma. He looked at me oddly. "A business trip? Regina, you've barely worked in the last eight months." He said. I had just gotten all of my clothes on and I had already thrown in a few pair of clothes for the next few days into a suit case. I picked up the suitcase and walked over to Robin and kissed him on the forehead. "I know dear, but I decided yesterday that I should get back to work." I said before turning around and leaving the room.

With the note, my purse and my suitcase in hand, I climbed into my Mercedes, and started my journey to Princeton New Jersey to see my Emma... my true love.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

"Oh, uh ma'am? Can I please get some more creamer for my coffee?" A customer asked. "Sure, just one moment please." I said. I found a job as a manager at the Happy Ending café here in Princeton. I ran behind the counter to grab the creamer, and not looking where I was going, I accidentally bumped into a woman and spilled the creamer all over her. "Oh my gosh, I'm so sorr-" the woman looked up, and my heart skipped a beat. The familiar hair, smile and long coat and... she's pregnant... it all made my heart leap into my throat. I had no idea what to say to her and she was carrying flowers. Roses to be precise. We stared into each others eyes for a moment, while I desperately tried to come up with something to say. "R-Regina? W- what are you doing here?" I asked in complete shock. "I'm here to give my princess what she deserves on her birthday." She said with a smile and I couldn't help but blush. "Would you mind waiting for 20 so I can finish my shift?" I asked with a smile. "Of course dear. Oh, and one hot chocolate with cinnamon." Regina said with a wink. I nodded and went back behind the counter to get her the hot chocolate and complete the rest of my shift.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I sipped on my hot chocolate while I waited for the blonde to complete her shift. I can't believe I was actually doing this. I can't believe that I'm actually here, doing this for Emma. For us.

I was lost in thought, and didn't even realize she was standing next to the table. "Can we please go somewhere a little bit more private?" She asked hesitantly. I smiled and nodded and handed her the roses I had bought for her before I carefully slid out of the booth. I followed her and we walked out of the diner. She lead me to a small apartment building, not too far away. She took her key out of her pocket and unlocked the door, holding it open for me. "Please sit." She said, or more like ordered as she tossed her keys onto the coffee table and placed the roses neatly on the table as well. The table was perfectly centered in the room and was in front of the couch which I was walking towards. I sat down, she sat down in the reclining chair across from me. We stared at eachother awkwardly for a few moments, not saying anything."I'm so-" we began to say at the same time. "You go ahead." Emma said and blushed. I took a deep breath. "Emma, I'm so so sorry, from the bottom of my heart for what I did. I don't know why I did it, I just did. I immediately regretted it, and I still do. You meant... mean the world to me and I didn't mean to fuck everything up." I said and she smiled. "I'm sorry too. I never should have just driven out. I should have texted or called. I missed you so much Regina..." she said sadly. I could see her heart breaking inside, and I could tell she was genuinely sorry. "It's okay dear." I answered and there was a moment of awkward silence.

"So... when did this..." she gestured towards my bowling ball of a belly. "Happen?" She asked. I smiled and gently rubbed my belly. "About eight months ago." I replied and she nodded, not really thinking too much about it. "So it's Robin's?" She asked and I hesitated for a moment trying to decide how to tell her. I smiled at her and looked her straight in the eye, her beautiful green sparkling eyes. "She's yours." I finally said, the smile on my face only growing. Her eyes went wide, and I couldn't help but giggle. She smiled and rolled her eyes at me. "Be careful dear, they'll stick." I said laughing again. "Same old Regina..." Emma giggled and sighed. "So... she... she's really mine?" She said and I nodded. I patted the empty seat on the couch next to me, gesturing her that I wanted her to sit next to me. She did just as I wanted her to, and I smiled as I watch her walk across the room and sit next to me. I hesitantly reached for her hand and placed it on my belly. After a moment, she kicked, and Emma's face lit up like a child at Christmas. "Wow..." she said in awe. Then a thought occurred to me. "What about our other baby?" I asked quietly. Emma sighed sadly and tears began to form in her eyes. "I... I gave him up." She cried and I brought her close to me and just let her cry. "Emma, look at me." I said and she did as I asked. "You weren't in a position to raise a child... at least I think you weren't, I'm not really sure. But if that's the case, I know you Emma. You just wanted him to have his best chance." I said and suddenly she looked at me questioningly. "Him?" She asked, and I quickly realized what I just said. "How'd you know?" She asked and I smiled. "Remember that dream I had about a year ago when I told you we would have a baby?" I asked and she nodded. "I knew it would be a boy." I said. "I hope he went to a loving home." I added and Emma smiled. "He did. He went to one of my girlfriends co workers. She even let me name him." She said with a smile. "Wait, girlfriend?" I asked and her face turned bright red. "I guess I forgot to tell you... I have a girlfriend." She said and my heart sunk. "But I'm not happy. Not a day went by when I didn't think about you. I missed you so much and when I had Henry, when I looked at him for the first time, he reminded me so much of you. It pained me to see him and think of you. That's part of the reason why I gave him up. I still love you." She said and I smiled weakly, still a little bit crestfallen about her having a girlfriend. "I named him Henry. I knew that's what you wanted." She said and took my hand in hers. She smiled up at me, and my eyes filled with tears. "You... you named him Henry?" I asked surprised and she nodded. She knew how much that meant to me. I took a deep breath to try and calm myself down a bit, and once I was back to a somewhat normal state, Emma let go of my hand. "So, how did you find me? What brought you here?" She asked and I sighed. "I've been thinking about you nonstop these last 8 months, and I couldn't stand not seeing you any longer, especially as your birthday approached. I looked you up on google and saw that you were working at the café. I bought the roses, and wanted to surprise you for your birthday." I said. She tangled her fingers into my brunette hair and smiled. "Well, it was a very pleasant surprise Ms. Mills." She said and kissed me lovingly. I immediately moaned, forgetting how good her lips felt on mine and realizing just how much I really missed her.needless to say, things got heated pretty quickly. She stood up, a big smile on her face and she reached her hand out to me. I grabbed it and stood up. "Lets go somewhere a little bit more comfortable." She said and I smiled.

A/N: well guys, swanqueen is finally back together!! A super smutty chapter is coming up next so be on the look out. It will be posted in the next day or two. Hope you guys are enjoying it. Please comment what you think😘❤️

Oh and for those of you who were wondering about my biological family, I met them this last weekend and spent 5 days with them. My dad, step mom, younger sister, younger brother and older brother live about 30 minutes away from me. My dad flew out my older sister from Alaska just to come meet me. My older sister and I look and sound so much alike it's freaky. We're freaked out about it, because we are the only full siblings in my family. We have so much in common, and we are all super close, even though I only spent 5 days with them. My sister is begging me to move to alaska, and my dad is planning a huge family trip to Disneyland for my sisters 21st birthday! I honestly wouldn't have had this opportunity if it wasn't for Jen and her role as Emma. Because of her, I literally have more family than I know what to do with. I have 3 moms, 2 dads, 7 brothers (4 younger, 3 older) and 2 sisters, making me 1/10 siblings in my family. I couldn't be happier or more grateful❤️