These last four months have been painful, but full of new hope and love. I'm now in a relationship with Robin and things are going great. A week after Emma left, I found out I was pregnant with Robin's baby. I was shocked and in tears when I found out. Having taken the infertility potion years ago back in the enchanted forest, I never thought I'd be able to have my own children, but I guess it just proves that Robin and I are indeed true loves, which didn't make sense to me at all so I decided to go and talk to Mother Superior.

Flashback

"I need to know what the hell is going on!" I yell storming into the convent and heading straight toward Mother Superior. "Regina wha-" "I need to talk to you privately... NOW!" I yelled and all the others who had heard me barge in and they left in a rush. "What's going on that needs my attention right away?" She asked as she continued doing whatever she was doing when I barged into the room. "I'm pregnant." I yelled and she suddenly stopped doing what she was doing and smiled at me happily. "Well congratulations Regina!" She said but I glared at her. "How the fuck did this happen?!" She gave me a stern look before beginning to speak. "Regina, you know how it happened, I shouldn't have to explain-" "no of course I know how IT happened idiot. I don't understand how I'm pregnant." I said rolling my eyes. She looked at me confused and I sighed. "I drank a potion back in the enchanted forest that made me infertile." I said a bit more quiet. She smiled kindly at me and grabbed my hands. "Regina, you know that true love can break any curse." "That's what I don't understand. I'm not more than 3 weeks pregnant, yet Emma left 3 weeks ago. She's my true love... isn't she?" "Now that Regina, is something you have to answer yourself. Is there anyone else, as in a guy who could have..." I sighed and nodded. "Robin..." "well Regina, I've seen true love happen in the strangest ways. I've heard stories of people who have had two true loves one a male and the other female. Although it is incredibly unlikely for anyone to find both, stranger things have happened. Maybe, Regina, you are one of the few people who have been lucky enough to find both. Now it's up to you to decide which one you go after." She said. "But the baby... is it Emma's or Robin's?" I asked and she shrugged. "Well now that depends. The timeline is pretty close and unfortunately there's no way to tell until you have the baby." She said and I nodded understanding and turned around to leave. "Regina?" She called out and I turned around, not saying anything. "I'm sorry... about you and Emma." She said. I sighed "so am I." I said sadly before turning around to leave once more.

Since that day, I've decided to just say that the baby's Robin's. I don't feel like explaining the whole true love and magic babies thing to him. As much as I told myself that the baby was his and not Emma's the stronger the feeling in the pit of my stomach grew... the feeling that the baby was intact Emma's. But like the Mother Superior said, I guess we won't fully know until the baby is born.

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"Ahhh!!" I scream in pain as another contraction hits and my girlfriend squeezes my hand tightly. "Just breathe Emma, your almost done." She said calmly. "I can't... I can't do this!" I cried. "Yes you can baby. Just take a deep breath. This will all be over soon." She said trying to comfort me. Although Remy's kindness and love these last few months has been a saving grace, I can't help but compare her to Regina. I miss her more than I've ever missed anything else. But there's nothing I can do to change what happened between us. She's probably happy with Robin, and I'm... happy with Remy. One of the strongest contractions yet hit me like a ton of bricks. "Fuck!!" I cried and squeeze Remy's hand harder. When it's over I'm panting, tears streaming down my face, wishing so much that Regina was here with me. Remy grabs a damp wash cloth off a nearby table and places it on my forehead. "Your doing good Emma, it's almost-" "ahhh!!!" I screamed as the contractions got closer and stronger. "Okay, Emma, I'm going to need you to start pushing, honey." Dr. Cuddy said. I nodded and tried to fight back the tears but I couldn't. I needed Regina. With each contraction, I gritted my teeth and pushed, taking a deep breath afterwards. "Good job baby, just one more." Remy said with a big smile. A few minutes later and the last contraction hit. I pushed harder than ever before and cried out more from pure exhaustion rather than pain. A few seconds later, and the sound of a crying baby filled the room. "Emma, its a boy." Dr. Cuddy said with a smile. I sighed, and attempted to smile, but I looked at the baby in her arms sadly. It was my last connection I had with Regina, but I was absolutely in no position to care and raise a child. "Do you want to hold him Emma?" She asked but I shook my head. I had to give him his best chance. I bit my lip and began to sob, and Remy attempted to comfort me. "Emma, are you sure about this?" She asked and I nodded weakly. "I have to." I said and Remy looked up at Cuddy sadly, but Cuddy had an odd smile on her face. "Very well then." She said and took my baby boy out of the room. I didn't even get to hold him. "I'll be right back. I'm going to grab you some coffee." She said and left my side. I sighed and closed my eyes.

After an hour, I opened my eyes to see Remy and Dr. Cuddy standing in the room, holding a baby wrapped in a pink blanket and smiling. "Emma, Dr. Cuddy has decided to adopt him. She filled out all the paperwork about a year ago to find the perfect baby, and she wants to take yours." Remy explained and I smiled. I knew that Cuddy would be a much better mother than I could ever be. "What did you want to name him?" Cuddy asked as she walked over to me and placed him in my arms. The tears returned to my eyes, as I remembered what Regina wanted to name him. "Henry..." I smiled and looked back up at Cuddy. "Then Henry it is." She said with a smile. "Do you want to keep holding him, or do you want me to take him?" She asked and I handed him back to Dr. Cuddy. "thank you." I said with a smile and she smiled back. "No, thank you Emma." She said and left the room while I sighed. Remy grabbed my hand and squeezed it gently. "Great job Em." She said with a smile. "House needs me for a case, but I'm right upstairs if you need anything." She said and left the room. I looked at the table by my bed, and saw my phone. I reached over and grabbed it. I unlocked it and pulled up Regina's contact information. I so desperately wanted to tell her. To tell her that I loved her and that we had a son named Henry, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. At least not at the moment. I closed her contact and pulled open my notes. I created a new one and titled it "Letters to Regina" although I knew the chances of her ever seeing them were close to none but still, I began typing my first letter.

Dear Regina,

          It's August 15th, and today was the day I had our son. He's perfect in every way. I so desperately wanted to keep him, but I knew that this was not the time for me to be a mother. I had a very close friend of mine take him. She will be his mother. She let me name him and I named him Henry after your father. I knew that that's what you wanted. I miss you so very much, and I wish more than anything else in the world that you could be here with me. I know your  probably happy with Robin, I have a girlfriend named Remy now too, but my love still lies with you. Not a day goes by I don't think about you. I'm so very sorry for running out on you all those months ago. I never should have done it. I guess we never really know what we had until it's gone. I will love you forever Regina, always remember that.
                            Love,
                      Emma Swan

I sighed and saved the note. I really wanted her here more than anything. I really do regret running out that day. I never should have reacted the way I did. I just hope that maybe one day, she will forgive me and will finally read my letters to Regina.

A/N: sorry for another shortish and heart retching chapter. I hope your enjoying it and continue to read it. There's still lots more to go, so be sure to be on the lookout for updates! Please comment below about what you thought about this chapter!