The car ride was hell. The events were on play and I wanted to burn the places he touched. Bile rose everytime I looked at his hand prints on my neck.

I frantically scratched my neck and my breast to remove his trace. His disgusting hands were on me and I was almost raped.

My eyes never stopped watering and I stopped wiping them at one point.

As much I wanted to stop crying infront a complete stranger, whom most probably enjoying my break down, I couldn't.

If you think second time could make you stronger, you were terribly wrong. My mind was the same as I experienced my first time. The feelings hit me strong as I tapped Ryder's hands hurried to stop the car. 

As the car came to a stop, I dashed out to the field along the road and I emptied the remaining contents of my stomach. My stomach was twisting and turning in disgust as I was gagging for those bad part of the life to come out.

It was hitting me again and again. I screamed, loud and as long as I could. No one was there around me and I wanted my brain to erase the trauma. My body was shivering. I took a deep breathe and screamed again.

My legs buckled and I fell to the ground. My tears went dry and my eyes were burning but I wanted to cry more. Because when crying stopped anger takes over. 

My eyes landed on the stone nearby. I got hold of it. I was ready to scrub my skin when a hand jerked me to drop the stone. I shook his hand and tried to reach again for the stone.

"Emily, stop it", Ryder shouted holding my hands. I tried to release mine from him and he pinned my hands behind me pushing my back against him. 

"Leave me", I grunted. His hold tightened, "Emily. Emily. Listen to me", his tone neutral. My breathing was ragged. I didn't know where I was, what was I going to do, when I was going home.

Moments passed.

"It's all because of you", I muttered dropping my head to the ground. He took a sharp intake but never let go of my hand. 

I turned towards him after he slowly released my hands. I wasn't angry. I knew what I was doing though scared shitless. "This what you wanted, right?. To mess with my mind and destroy me. Aren't you excited for more?", I chuckled.

His face was blank with a wide eyes and jaws set tight. His nose was flaring as I continued. 

"You said Connor is your best buddy and will do anything for you, that he will have your back and he is your best friend. You don't deserve him. He doesn't deserve a friend like you", I said infront of his face. 

I walked past him and he grabbed my hands turning me around. "You don't know anything about us", he said grinding his teeth.

I soft chuckled and removed my hands from his, "I don't know anything about you, Ryder. But I know Connor fair enough to tell, you don't deserve him. Have you ever talked about how he felt about you going behind his back and fucked the girl he liked? Have you, Ryder?"

"No", he mumbled. I was shocked that he actually answered me. 

"Have you ever thought she was not just a girl cheating on your friend but someone he liked so much?"

"No"

"Did you even tell him that she was cheating on him before knocking her up? Did you ask the girl why she cheated on him?"

"No, I didn't tell him because she don't deserve him and I wanted him to hate her. I am pretty sure she was after Connor's money."

I snorted, "You should've given her a chance to explain to Connor. What if she changed because of you?  You took it from him". I pointed him. He didn't reply and I knew he couldn't.

I picked my bag from the seat and started walking. I called Luke to pick me up as Connor's car brushed past me.

I had a long story to explain without breaking down. I should've called Matt but it was too late as Luke parked his car in side walk. The road was muddy and no street lamps as I made my way to his car.

Luke started driving without a word. "Luke", I called him which he quickly shut me that he would take after reaching home. 

My mind drifted off to sleep when a loud voice woke me up. I hit my hands in the door and winced. I looked around to see Luke looking furiously at me, to be precise at my neck. I realized we were parked on the rest area of the highway and car lights were on.

"Em, what the fuck happened to your neck and shoulder?", he asked slightly touching my neck. 

He recoiled when I slightly winced.

"Who did this to you?", he asked furiously. It truly scared me seeing Luke in his outrage fit.

Luke was the cool on among us and but if I had mentioned that guy's name, he would be dead.

I reached out for his hands. He was looking at me confused, trying to figure out what happened to me.

"Luke I want you to listen to me calmly".

"The fuck calmly. Em, look at your neck", he said pointing towards my neck and shoulder.

"Luke. Please"

"No, you tell me everything right now and I am killing him with a bare hands. Its that new friend you found, right?", he asked furiously.

"I can't", I said fumbling with my hands on my lap.

"Why can't you tell me?", Luke yelled throwing his hands in the air.

He turned me to face and looked down until our eyes locked.

"Em, you are scaring me. Either you tell me what happened or we are going back and I find every damn thing. I'll find that bastard and skin him alive".

"Luke.Please"

"So, the second option it is", he revved the engine.

I was quick enough to stop him,  "Luke, stop. I'll tell you everything. Please I don't want to go there". The traitor tears were flowing at the very wrong time for a right reason.

"Promise me you won't breathe about the matter or anything I am gonna say. You should never interfere with the things I am doing. You should understand that I am doing those things  for you guys"

"Em, what the hell is happening?", he asked pulling his hair and hit the horn with his forehead.

"Promise me, Luke"

"I promise", he whispered and I told him everything except what's on the video.