Double update!

Crys' POV

After I finish telling Scarlet about what happened before I arrived at her place, my tears soak into her shurt as she holds me in her arms. The pain of telling her about it all feels like it's slowly killing me from the inside out. 

I explained everything to her. I told her that I believe him but how it doesn't stop the hurt that came from seeing his ex girlfriend kiss him. I don't want to be away from him very long, but I need to sort through my thoughts before seeing him again. 

"I still can't believe you punched Chloe." She snickers, a proud glint in her eyes.

"Yeah, not my finest moment. I was just so angry at her, maybe even then, a part of me knew she was the reason for this." I sigh.

"She deserves worse." She breathes out. "So, you believe him then?" She questions, turning her gaze to me.

Thinking over it all again for what must be the hundredth time and coming to the same conclusion, I nod my head at her. 

"Yeah, I do. He was pressed on the wall by her, and before he even spotted me he shoved her off him pretty harshly." I explain my thoughts. 

"Well, I wouldn't put it past Chloe to do something like this. And honestly, I'd be pretty surprised if Harv cheated on you. He adores you, even loves maybe. No way he'd throw that away for that cow, especially after she cheated on him." Scarlet rambles.

To be honest, I've thought all of this already. 

Well, not that he loves me. But that he knows how painful it is be cheated on, and that he's always there for me. What good would it do for him to cheat on me? We don't go at it like rabbits or anything, but we certainly take advantage of an empty house whenever we can. 

Every touch shared between us during those moments is so intimate, so loving, that it makes it hard to even consider him not being genuine with me. Even now, all I want is to be curled in his arms and tell him it's okay.

I seriously doubt I'll even stay here overnight at this point.

A ping on my phone breaks me from my thoughts, looking down to see a text from Harv. 

Harv: Hey. If you want to spend time with your brothers, I can stay somewhere else. Let me know. Stay safe. xo

The text seems to cut into my heart like a knife. He's done nothing wrong, yet he's offering to be away from his closest friends just to make me happy. Even his message is so different to his usual ones. It's just straight to the point, no joking around or teasing. The only thing that shows me it's truly him sending it is the 'xo' at the end. 

"Hey hey hey, calm down." Scarlet's voice soothes, her arms wrapping around me. 

"What if me not accepting his apology from the start pushed him away?"

"Crys, if he wants things to work out, then he'll wait until you've thought things over. Believe me, I think he'd wait until the earth ended for you." She reassures.

We sit in silence with the television on in the background, both of us just thinking about it all as I stay cuddled up with her. 

"What do I do from here? How do I make this right again?" I ask, curled into my best friends side.

"Do you want to be with him?" She asks, looking over at me.

"Yes, of course." I answer without hesitation. 

"Do you believe him, 100%, about what happened?"

"Yes. It hurt, but I trust him." 

"Then you need to talk to him now that you're calm, and make up already." She says, a knowing look on her face.

"How can I make this up to him?" 

Before she can answer, my phone rings making us both jump at the blaring tune. Looking to see Jeremy's name, I answer it after clearing my throat.

"Hello?"

"Hey sweetie, how're you doing?" Jeremy questions quietly.

"I'm alright, I guess. What's up? Are you okay?" I ask, concern evident in my voice.

"Good. Yeah, we're okay. It's just, Harv came home about an hour ago looking pretty horrible." He says quietly, clearly not wanting to be heard by others that are home. 

"Is he alright?"

Shit, it started raining pretty hard after we parted ways. I hope he wasn't in it too long, though we don't live too far from college.

"I don't know. He told us what happened though, are you sure you're okay?" He asks.

"I'm still with Scarlet, and yes I'm okay now. We've got work in an hour though." I grumble to him.

"Did you want to talk about it at all?" He questions after a minute of silence between us.

"No, I believe him Jem. I'll talk to him after work about it all." I tell him honestly, I can't leave it too long or things will only get worse between us.

"Fair enough. He's gone to bed already anyway. He really cares about you Crys." 

"I know, I do too. Well, I'll be home tonight anyway. Please keep an eye on him for me?" I ask, worry about Harv rising more and more.

"Of course, take care of your self. Love you." He says, the mood slightly lighter.

"Love you too. Bye." 

Hanging up the phone, I look to Scar with determination flowing through me.

"I need to make this up to him, I just don't know how to." I tell her.

"Well, let's get thinking then!" She beams at me.

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A couple of hours later, and we were at work on this dreary Friday night. People are still filling The Karaoke Klub, but it isn't as busy as some nights.

Scarlet and I worked out a way, as weird as I think it is, to try and repair any damage between Harv and I. Though I'm not going to lie, I'm kind of scared. 

I've messaged the twins telling them to bring him to the bar tonight, explaining that if they have to lie to get him here, so be it. They said they'll tell him I'm not working, but that Scar wants to talk to him. 

I asked Dave if I can leave a bit early tonight, as well as asking the twins to stay over with their partners. Everyone has said that it's fine, though I had to give a bit of an explanation to Dave before he'd agree to let me leave when I wanted to.

I spot the twins walking in at the entry, along with Darcy and Evan. For a moment I think Harv didn't come with them, until I see him sluggishly walking behind them all. His gaze his cast down and his shoulders are slouched. It is heartbreaking to see him looking so low, he wasn't even this miserable when we first met. 

I go to the bathroom to quickly check my appearance, since earlier my eyes were red and bloodshot from my many tears. I wait a few minutes before going back out, seeing the twins with everyone at the front of where the jukebox system is set up. 

Harv still has his gaze down, seeming to want to be anywhere else but here. Not that I blame him. I didn't want to be at work either, if it wasn't for Scar's idea, I probably would have just gone home. But we talked about things some more while we got ready for work, and this was the one idea I liked over some of her others.

Walking up to the stage area, Scar gives me a nod of encouragement before walking back behind the bar. All our friends seem to spot me as I get to the jukebox, but Harv's head remains lowered. My mood dampens at how miserable he is right now.

Finding the song I wanted, I get everyone's attention. And hopefully Harv's too.

"Good evening everyone! This song is dedicated to someone special on the front table, so please bare with me." I smile down at Harv's stunned face. 

Our eyes meet for the first time since parting ways at college, and all I can see is his sad bloodshot eyes looking at me curiously. I hope this works, because I think if this blows up in my face I'll cry.

The music starts up and I take in a deep breath to ease my nerves, letting the flow of music calm me.

"Your hand fits in mine like it's made just for me
But bear this mind it was meant to be
And I'm joining up the dots with the freckles on your cheeks
And it all makes sense to me

I know you've never loved the crinkles by your eyes when you smile
You've never loved your stomach or your thighs
The dimples in your back at the bottom of your spine
But I'll love them endlessly

I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth
But if I do, it's you, oh it's you, they add up to
I'm in love with you and all these little things"

Harv gapes at me as I look into his eyes, while singing these words to him. Hope seems to bloom over his face, as well surprise. A small smile slowly forming on his handsome features. 

"You can't go to bed without a cup of tea
Maybe that's the reason that you talk in your sleep
And all those conversations are the secrets that I keep
Though it makes no sense to me

I know you've never loved the sound of your voice on tape
You never want to know how much you weigh
You still have to squeeze into your jeans
But you're perfect to me

I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth
But if it's true, it's you, it's you, they add up to
I'm in love with you and all these little things

You never love yourself half as much as I love you
You'll never treat yourself right darling but I want you to
If I let you know, I'm here for you
Maybe you'll love yourself like I love you oh

I've just let these little things slip out of my mouth
Because it's you, oh it's you, it's you they add up to
And I'm in love with you (all these little things)

I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth
But if it's true, it's you, it's you they add up to
I'm in love with you, and all your little things"

Looking into Harv's eyes throughout the song I sang just for him, I see him go from depressed and sad, to shocked and surprised, and by the end, he is beaming up at me with the biggest smile I've ever seen. 

As I finish my song, he stands up and walks around the table until he's in front of the stage. I don't notice the people clapping, or the next song starting up as he climbs up so that he's standing in front of me. He lifts his hand to my cheek to gently stroke it, a look of adoration and love on his face.

"Does this mean you forgive me?" He whispers, words for only me to hear.

"Yeah, I do. Do you forgive me for making you wait?" I whisper back to him.

"Without a doubt." He smiles down at me. 

His arms wrap around me, pulling me against him completely. His hold is tighter than usual, almost desperate, and it just reminds me how much he was hurting too. Holding him close to me, I comb my hand through his hair soothingly while the other holds him tight. 

I missed this so much, even in such a short amount of time.

"Say it." He whispers into my neck.

I don't have to ask what he means, the whole point of the song was to send him a message. I just have to hope that he won't run away at my words, though it would seem he won't.

"I love you, Harv. So much that it scares me." I whisper into his ear.

His hold on me gets incredibly stronger, his shoulders shake slightly in my arms making me worry. Pulling back slightly though, I see him wearing a big smile as a tear slides down his cheek. As concern starts to flood through my system, he pulls me close again and kisses me.

This kiss isn't like all of our other ones though, it's filled with love and happiness. Heated and passionate, while remaining slow and gentle.

As we pull away again, he looks me in the eye and smiles down at me. A sense of relief starts to take over, seeing him smile again already easing my worry.

"I love you too, so so much." He whispers back, recapturing my lips again.

The sound of hoots and cheers cause us to jump apart, embarrassment momentarily darkens my cheeks. Harv simply chuckles before wrapping his arm around my waist, guiding me down the side stairs. 

Waving goodbye to Dave and our group, I walk out of The Karaoke Klub holding Harv's hand tightly in my own.  

As soon as we exit the bar, Harv pulls me back to him and starts kissing me again with so much love and passion that it makes me a bit dizzy. 

I don't think I could survive not having this man in my life.

I really do love him, with all my heart.

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