~ In The Good Times I Find Myself Longing ~

*TAEHYUNG'S POV*

I stared at the shopping store in awe as Y/N led me inside. 

If I was gripped by the exterior of the store, the interior was a thousand times more extravagant and lavish. With foreign clothing ranges and perfume chains on display while the staff themselves were dressed in a manner befitting those of English princely classes, I felt highly out of place in my cardigan and slacks. 

"How may I be of assistance to you, ma'am?", one of the attendants asked Y/N, ignoring me completely. 

"I would like to choose from a collection of wedding outfits. The best, if I might add.", she said as she fiddled with the hem of her dress, nervous, possibly due to the interaction. 

"This way, ma'am.", the attendant said as she led us through the array of expensive clothes on display - soft to the touch and silky and intricately designed -  further into the interior of the shop and finally into a personal dressing room. 

"Ma'am, might I suggest choosing from this catalogue? Or might you be having something else in mind?", the attendant asked as she handed Y/N the catalogue. 

Y/N looked at me and pushed the catalogue in my hands. 

"W-What am I supposed to do with these!? This is your wedding, damnnit!", I protested softly as I flipped through the pages in the most disinterested manner. 

"You're supposed to help me select!", she said as she pouted and her eyebrows knitted together to form the most perfect frown. 

I rolled my eyes at her as I pointed towards one of the dresses on the catalogue. 

"I think this one would suit you.", I said. I couldn't help but wonder how big a hole it would punch into her fiance's account. But perhaps, he had more zeroes in his salary than I had ever seen in my entire life. 

After all, if he could afford the brands of this shop, he must be a rich guy. 

I looked at Y/N as she conversed with the attendant in fast English. I barely caught a word, though I was least interested in what they were saying. 

I wonder how she felt about her fiance. Was she happy with him? Was he treating her alright? 

I couldn't help it but a small sense of protection slowly crept into my heart and tugged at it's entrance to let it in. 

I sighed slightly. What was even the point in pining for her when she was already someone else's? 

I would just be a nuisance in her happy settled life. And from what Jimin told me, her fiance was a really influential person in the business market. 

It just wouldn't do to anger him I suppose. But, if he hurts Y/N, her safety will always be my first priority. I would conveniently forget that he is a business tycoon. 

Suddenly, a pair of hands were clapped in front of me, bringing me out of my own little cocoon. 

"Earth to, Taehyung! I swear you're still such an airhead!", Y/N exclaimed as she giggled slightly, showing off her pretty crinkles at the corners of her eyes. 

"What is it, Y/N?", I asked as I scowled a little, pretending to be annoyed while internally the beast in my heart roared in triumph at the notice of the small detail. 

"Sit here and wait for me. I'm going to try it on. You have to be my approver! And I don't take no for an answer!", she said as she rushed off towards the trial room, not waiting for my reply. 

I shook my head in exasperation. 

Women were confusing. One moment they're berating you and the next moment, they want you to be their approver.  

I took the seat and waited for her to appear from the dressing room. I scrolled through my phone meanwhile, getting bored of the long wait. 

Who knows how much time had passed? It could be hours for all I know. 

I called out,"Hey, Y/N! Are you done yet?"

"I'm almost done! This stupid-.", she began in a muffled voice but stopped abruptly. 

"Are you ok? Do you need help?", I asked in a worried tone, but was greeted by silence instead. 

I waited for a few moments for her reply, but received none. 

"I-I'm coming in!", I warned as I stood up and pulled the curtains separating the two rooms. 

Inside, I saw a messy pool of dresses lying on the floor and Y/N sitting and covering her face with her hands, amongst them. 

"What happened, Baby Girl? Do you need the attendant?", I asked as I squatted beside her. 

She looked up from her hands, a shocked expression upon her face. 

I concluded that she didn't even hear me coming inside. And most certainly, she didn't want me to catch her in such a precarious position. 

"U-Um...if you want I can leave...", I said as my voice trailed off and I stood up to leave. 

But, my moment was halted as I felt a slight and gentle tug at my slacks. 

I turned around to find her pulling at my slacks with two fingers as she kept her gaze fixed at the ground. 

"Stay.", she whispered, not letting go. 

I smiled slightly at her request as I turned around and sitting cross legged on the floor, pulled her small frame into my lap and hugged her tightly. 

"Now, tell me what's wrong.", I urged her gently, tugging at her chin to face my eyes. 

"I-I couldn't get on the zip of most of the dresses. I think I've put on weight.", she said as tears dropped from her eyes and stained her cheeks with the salty substance. 

"Y/N...I'll help you pull the zipper. It's not a big deal.", I said as I wiped her tear stained cheeks. 

"Y-You will?", she asked with eyes as wide as saucers. 

I rolled my eyes and helped her stand up and said,"You're a pabo. Crying for such trivial things doesn't suit Park Y/N." 

"B-But Chris hates it when I gain weight.", she said as she shuddered slightly. 

"You haven't gained weight! You're as thin as a rail! And these dresses won't even fit twigs.", I deadpanned. 

She chuckled slightly at that as she wiped the remnant of her tears. 

"Now, turn around and let me help you. And watch your hair.", I warned as I spun her around. 

She removed her hair, giving me full access to her back and upper hips. The dress had a wide open back and in the course of pulling the zipper, it might've been better to call the attendant. 

"Is everything alright, Taehyung?", she asked, her voice laced with concern. 

"P-Peachy!", I managed to croak out as I began the excruciatingly painful task of pulling the zipper. 

My fingers trailed her milky soft skin, as fingers would trail upon satin - uninterrupted and unhindered. Goosebumps erupted over her flesh, a mark of what my fingers did to her.

"Done.", I whispered, no sure why I was doing so. 

She turned around, the distance not much between us. Less than a foot. 

"Thanks.", she said breathily, not taking her charcoal black eyes off me, unyielding and unblinking, her lashes glistening under the soft spotlights of the room, the light bouncing off the tear drops. 

"Y/N...", I choked out as I let my hands fall limp beside me, not knowing how to react. 

She was pure torture. Her dress clinging to her body, made her curves stand out and the pale colour of the clothing complimented her skin tone. And as if to merely tease the on-looker, a small v-neck was initiated which revealed the bare minimum cleavage.   

"Taehyung...", she said as she stared back at me with an intensifying gaze,rooting me to the spot. She leaned in slightly and touched the hidden mole on my lower lip. 

My eyes dropped to her lips and the plumpness seemed to draw me in. I could feel the heat being radiated from my body due to the close proximity. It was as if time had stopped and we were stuck in the changing room forever until someone came and reversed it back. 

But, I knew if I closed the distance between us both, there would be no going back. I knew for certain that I desired Y/N. More than ever. But my desires wouldn't do either of us good. The only thing I can do in this situation, is pull back. And that's what I did. I took a step back. Created a distance which can never be closed no matter what. 

She quickly dropped her finger from my lower lip and averted her eyes from my face. 

"Um...I'll wait outside.", I said as I turned around to walk off. 

"I'm sorry, Taehyung.", I heard her whisper as I drew the curtains behind me. 

I sighed. 

I'm sorry too, Y/N...

I'm sorry that I caused a storm within you...

A/n : Thoughts? 👀

- Logging off for now...

-💕Moonie💕