~ Get Me Out Of My Blues ~

*Y/N'S POV* 

"Hey, Y/N! When are you going for the dress selection?", Jimin asked as he grabbed a granola bar off the counter. 

"Dunno. Chris suggested this weekend. Could you ring him up and just confirm?", I asked Jimin, having zero access to the phone. 

Of course, on the special commands of Chris Jenson. 

"Ok. I will. And are you staying for the day?", Jimin asked as he sauntered off to his room. 

"Probably. Did Chris mention anything about coming to your place or sending a car?", I asked. 

"Not really. I'll just ask him. I'll be happy to have you over for the day. Also, you and Tae have a lot of catching up to do.", he said with a grin as he typed away on his phone. 

I sighed a bit as I looked over at the bluenette, who had his eyes glued on the television, his jaws set. 

So much for catching up...

"Yeah, right.", I said in an undertone before going into my room and sprawling onto the bed, mulling over the incidents earlier. 

Would we have kissed...

If Tae or I would've been in attracted to each other...

I've never felt anything close to attraction for him...

He was more like a brother...

But...

These past few hours were messing up my insides...

Pointing out loopholes in my perfectly planned blueprints...

"Y/N!! You in there?", Jimin's voice floated in from the other side of the door. 

"Yes. Come in.", I said in a tired voice, reluctant to converse with anyone. 

I wonder what Chris must want now. 

I hope Jimin can go with me. 

"Is everything alright, Y/N? You don't have a fever, right?", Jimin asked, concerned as he touched his palm to my forehead. 

"I'm fine, Jimin. What did Chris say?", I asked, swinging my legs while I rested on the bed. 

"Well, he did say that he would've loved to take you for the dress selection, but some urgent work came up and because of that he's asked you to take the car and his credit card and help yourself.", Jimin said with a shrug. 

"I see.", I said, keeping a straight face while my insides rejoiced. 

At least I won't be playing dress-up with him at the shop and for once, I can perhaps buy something that doesn't border on flimsy. 

"I wish you weren't getting married, my little sister.", Jimin said as he put his arms around me. 

"Shut up, pabo! Why wouldn't you want me to get married!? And Chris is a perfect gentleman.", I lied through my teeth. 

"I feel as if I'm using you. I've always wanted you to get married for love. Not for necessity.", Jimin confessed, resting his head on my shoulders. 

"Jimin. I'll learn to love him. If we have to save dad's company from competitors, me getting married to Chris will ensure security.", I said, cringing at how diplomatic I sound. 

"Yes, I know that. But you shouldn't be the one to pay the price for my incapability!", Jimin whined as he hugged me. 

"Jimin, you're the best brother a sister could ask for. And, a lot of people marry into society and business relationships. This is just one of them. Don't overthink about it. Now, shoo! I need to get dressed!", I said as I pushed him out of the room and shut the door on his face. 

I stood for a few minutes, facing the solid sunmica, taking deep breaths before going over to the closet and throwing it open, revealing tons of evening dresses lined up in perfection. 

I chose a knee length dress, fitting and full-sleeved. 

The fiancee of Chris Jenson needs to have perfect shots for the paparazzi to drool upon.

Something reserved and unrevealing. Yet classy and elegant. 

But...

I do wish to be away from the spotlight much too often. 

- TIME SKIP TO EVENING - 

"Where are you going?", a voice stopped me as I turned the door handle to leave. 

"For the dress selection of my wedding. Where's Jimin?", I asked, feeling slightly lonely to be going shopping all alone. 

"I think he went to sign off a deal. Or a date. Who knows?", he said and shrugged, not much bothered regarding his whereabouts. 

I rolled my eyes at him and opened the door to leave. 

"Are you going all alone?", he asked me, stopping me in my tracks for the second time in a span of 5 minutes. 

"Yes.", I said as grinded my teeth, uncomfortable and agonized beyond measure. 

"What about your bridesmaids? Aren't they usually a part of the entire dress enchilada?", Taehyung asked with an air of swift shrewdness and observance. 

My throat went dry at his question. 

I didn't think he would notice the lack of the female population surrounding me. 

"Oh! They're all busy today. And I like to shop alone, anyway.", I lied with a straight face and a shrug. 

Lying...

It's become a second nature to me nowadays...

Not something that I'm proud of...

But...

For hiding my failure of a life, I must...

Seek it as a last resort...

"Oh, I see. Well, happy shopping.", he said with a smile which was more than simple. 

Something hid behind that smile. 

As if he could see right through my set of well-honed lies. 

"Thanks.", I bit out bitterly as I finally walked off, shutting the door with a loud bang. 

Tears pooled at the corners of my eyes, but I quickly wiped them away. 

It wouldn't do to cry now...

Suddenly, I felt two arms wrap my entire self from behind and stalled me from proceeding any further. 

I opened my mouth to scream, frightened at being caught unawares in a precarious position when I heard the person say,"It gets awfully lonely, doesn't it?" 

I calmed down instantly as I knew the familiar raspy voice, thick with emotion. 

Lonely...

Yes, Taehyung...

It has been awfully lonely my entire life...

"Yes. It gets awfully lonely.", I said, trying to swallow the lump that has lodged itself in my throat. 

"I'm sorry. That I wasn't there to help you and Jiminie out.", he said with a sigh as he let go off me. 

I immediately missed the warmth of his embrace, but it also painfully reminded me of my destiny. 

"It's fine, Taehyung. That was our battle to fight. You've always been a good friend to us both.", I said with a smile. 

And a friend is what you'll remain...

Or what I hope you remain...

"Thanks, Y/N. But, I missed you guys. More than you both know.", he said with raw emotions, evident in his tone. 

I looked at the ground and said,"Jiminie always had you in his heart."

"And you? Did you miss me too?", he asked as he looked at me with a gaze which bespoke of emotions I had never been rendered capable of feeling.

"I did.", I mumbled, wishing that he'd stop trying to open the lid of past emotions which I had suppressed for 10 years. 

He smirked at me, probably at the admittance or maybe just because he was used to smirking at situations like this. 

A defence mechanism. An escape.

"Let's go then.", he said after a few moments of silence. 

"Huh? You're coming with me?", I asked with a raised eyebrow. 

"Of course. And last time I checked, you hate shopping all by yourself and without a second opinion.", he said as he put his hands behind his head and walked off towards the sleek black vehicle, ready and awaiting our arrival. 

I stared at him in disbelief, rooted to the spot. 

"You remembered?", I mumbled, finding it hard to wrap my head around the fact that the tiny details were so clearly etched across his memory. 

I expected no answer from him, understanding that he had possibly not heard. 

"Yes, I did remember, Baby Girl...", his voice suddenly floated into my ears, which made me look up to find him staring down at me. 

My breathing hitched slightly at the use of the childhood nickname he had affectionately given me. 

"Come...", he said as he took my small hand into his enormous ones, his long fingers entwining themselves with my small ones as he pulled me along with him. 

I followed, a small smile etched across my face. 

Tae bear...

These small things...

Mean a lot...

A/n : Chapter full of fluff :) 

- Logging off for now...

-💕Moonie💕