Entry Thirteen: Heaven on Earth

Forcing my heavy eyelids open took a monumental amount of effort, but it was well worth the struggle when Frank's gorgeous face filled my vision.

My angel was fast asleep, slumped over in a chair he had placed by my bedside. One of his hands was woven with mine, and his ebony hair was splayed out on the comforter. He looked so young when he slept, all of his cares and worries were erased, and he seemed truly at peace for the first time since I had met him.

I don't know how long I had been unconscious, but it must have been ages. Scanning my surroundings, I didn't recognize anything. We seemed to be inside some sort of townhouse, or maybe a really nice hotel. Bay windows covered one whole wall, and sunlight streamed into the room. Mikey wasn't anywhere to be seen, but I could sense his presence close by, which meant he was safe.

Gingerly, I shifted my torso from right to left, and when I was only greeted by a dull ache, instead of excruciating pain, I sighed in relief. Timidly, I lifted up the hem of my shirt, my chest was layered in bandages to the point that I looked like a freaking mummy.

I debated removing them so I could survey the damage, but I decided against it. I didn't want to move around too much in case I disturbed Frank, and it seemed as if whatever he had done had jump-started my healing abilities again.

I returned to staring down at Frank's slumbering form with a small smile on my face. It was such a relief to see him safe and by my side. The terror that I had been caging inside my heart was finally released, and I could breathe easy for the time being. With a trembling hand, I stroked a lock of hair away from his pale forehead.

Overwhelming affection blossomed inside me, the only way I could describe it was to say that I felt as if I had downed an entire bottle of champagne. I was falling so hard, it was frightening...especially since I wasn't sure if Frank felt the same way, but he had called me baby - hadn't he? I could have easily imagined that though...I had been delusional with pain, and I might have projected what I wanted to hear into the situation.

I was desperate to find out though, usually I am a pansy when it comes to this sort of thing, but I was tired of being in the dark. I didn't know how much longer we were going to survive out here, so I wasn't going to waste another minute; when Frank woke up, I was going to ask him all the burning questions that had been eating away at me for months. I could do this...

As the minutes ticked by and Frank slept on peacefully, I began to lose my nerve. What if he rejected me...what if he left us all alone again. I mean, what was I thinking, he is an angel...isn't being gay a sin or something like that, but on the other hand, he did kiss me twice...and he seemed to be enjoying it, and he has risked everything to help me when I needed him most...

I was so caught up in my own mental argument that I jumped when Frank lifted his sleep tousled head up with a yawn. He blinked groggily a few time, and when he caught sight of me sitting up, his eyes widened with surprise.

"Gerard - you're awake!" His beaming smile was brighter than the sun. He hopped up onto the bed and pulled me into a hug before quickly releasing me with a bashful expression.

"I'm sorry, you probably aren't fully healed yet. Did I hurt you?"

"Don't apologize to me, especially when I should be the one thanking you."

"You have no reason to thank me Gerard." Frank's face fell, and I was confused by his sudden mood shift.

"Hey - what's wrong?"

"I just wish I could have gotten there sooner...then all of this could have been avoided. I feel so guilty for not being there to protect you." Frank turned his head away from me, and I saw a glistening tear escape from the corner of his eye.

"Frank - look at me," I begged. When he still refused, I placed my hand under his chin and forced him to meet my gaze.

"I won't let you beat yourself up over this. None of what happened is your fault. If you hadn't shown up when you did, Mikey and I would both be burning in Hell right now. Even if that demon had taken us, that wouldn't have been your fault either okay? We chose to run, and no matter how this all turns out, I don't want you blaming yourself. You have already done more for me than l could have ever asked for. Frank - you saved me...and not just from that demon. You saved my soul all those months ago when I first saw you in that barn. So please don't be sad...I hate to see you cry." I wiped away the tears from his cheeks and he leaned into my hand with a shuddering sigh.

"Oh Gerard...I just don't know what I would do if anything happened to you. I can't bear the thought of losing you now, and seeing you in that state almost broke me. You have suffered so much, and I never want you to have to go through anything like that again. I don't think I could take it..."

"Would losing me really be so bad? I am just another demon..." I ached to ask him about his feelings for me, but my self-destructive mind shot me down, and I swallowed the words before they could pass my tongue.

"It would be the worst thing in the world...I know this sounds ridiculously selfish, but I need you to stay alive, for me, if for no other reason." I felt my hopes soar for a minute, and I swore I saw devotion shining out of Frank's eyes.

"I wish I understood why you cared so much. I am nothing...someone like you shouldn't have even given me a second glance." I glanced down at my hand nervously, which was still pressed against Frank's cheek. Why couldn't I just tell him how I feel? Saying three simple words shouldn't be so hard, but I still couldn't bring myself to do it.

"Gerard - you are the most miraculous person I have ever met. Stop talking like this please..." He inched his face closer to mine, and I froze up completely, begging him to come closer, but too terrified to ruin the moment by making the first move.

"Frank I..." He cut me off by closing the remaining inches between us, sealing his lips against mine in a passionate kiss.

Without hesitation, I kissed him back, wrapping my arms around his neck and pulling him even closer to me. My wounds ached at the unexpected activity, but I mentally screamed at them to shut up so I could concentrate on Frank. If it wouldn't have looked completely ridiculous, I would be fist pumping the air right now.

"God Gerard - you don't know what you do to me..." Frank groaned when we pulled apart for a moment.

Before I could formulate a response, he straddled my hips and lowered his lips back to mine. I felt his tongue licking at my bottom lip, and I granted him entrance eagerly. My heart was trying to beat its way out of my chest, and I couldn't get enough of the way Frank felt on top of me.

Threading my fingers through his ebony hair, I pulled slightly, which caused Frank to emit a soft moan in my mouth. I had never heard a more erotic sound in my entire life, and if Frank wasn't pinning me down, I would have ripped off his clothes right then and there.

Instead, I settled for wrapping my legs around his torso, causing blessed friction just where I needed it most. Frank's fingertips slipped under my shirt, and skated tantalizingly over my hips. Releasing my own groan of pleasure, my back arched as our tongues clashed in a never ending kiss.

Just when I was at the point of begging Frank to touch me, the sound of a door opening broke through the quiet room. We quickly pulled apart just as Mikey walked into view. His hair was sticking up everywhere, and it was obvious that he had just woken up. I loved my little brother, but right now, I wanted to kill him for interrupting us.

"Gee - you are okay!" Mikey exclaimed gleefully. Frank gave him a halfhearted wave from the chair he had retreated to.

"You can't get rid of me that easily Mikes," I answered, hoping he didn't hear the shaky quality of my voice. I should have known better though, my brother is too damn smart for his own good. His eyes flicked back and forth from my swollen lips to Frank's ruffled hair.

"Well um - I just wanted to make sure you were doing all right, but I can see everything is fine, so...I will just be in my room if you need me," Mikey giggled as he backed out of the room.

Once the door had closed behind him, Frank and I exploded into a fit of laughter. Leave it to Mikey to spoil the mood. Once we had settled down, I patted the spot next to me on the bed, and Frank snuggled in next to me.

"I missed you so much Gerard..." Frank murmured as he wrapped his arms around me.

"So did I. I thought I was going to go crazy worrying about you. After I saw you being chased by those angels, I feared the worst."

"Nothing could prevent me from returning to you."

"Will you tell me what happened?" I questioned. Everything had been spiraling out of control so fast, I hadn't gotten an opportunity to ask Frank what had transpired in Heaven.

"Another day baby. I want to forget about everything for a moment, and just enjoy being with you."

"I can't believe this is real," I whispered to myself, and Frank hummed in agreement.

Frank soon drifted off to sleep with his head resting on my chest. He must have exhausted himself healing me, and I was still pretty worn out myself.

Making sure not to wake him, I ran my long fingers through his silky hair lovingly. I couldn't seem to stop touching him to reassure myself that he wasn't a figment of my imagination.

This was what Heaven must be like I decided, having someone you love resting peacefully in your arms. Even though we hadn't actually talked about our feelings, Frank obviously cared for me a great deal, and that was more than I could ever hope for.

Maybe one day he would love me, and even if he didn't, then I would have this memory to cherish forever. I knew without a doubt though, that I would love Frank until the day I died...which was hopefully in the very distant future.

Another update in less than 24 hours...I must really love you guys haha jk :) Actually, I just wrote this out really quick because I have to go back to work tomorrow, and I won't get another day off until Monday, so I doubt I will have any time to write (because I really need to stop writing fanfics at work before I get caught haha).

I wrote this chapter on my new iPhone 6! I am so excited it is finally here, and it actually has a decent battery life so I can write to my hearts content without being attached to a charger! I named him Gerard haha :)

So what did you guys think of this chapter? I felt that this book was overdue some Frerard, so I added in a fluff chapter to lighten the mood. I know it was pretty short, but I just wanted to get an update in before I disappeared for a while. So if you want to make me super happy, then leave a vote or a comment, and I will love you forever.

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