Disclaimer : All the characters written below are imaginary and a work of pure fiction. There is no resemblance to any incident or situation and is written as work of fiction.

"Karan..." I whispered once more closing my eyes , letting the tears fall after closing the door of my room shut and sliding down on the floor... Every time I took his name , I hoped that it's high time , his name should mean a little bit less to me than it means now...

I don't even know since when had I started loving him...

May be it was when , he had helped me colour my pre school colouring book...

Or may be it was when , he used to let me have his share of chocolate sitting on the school stairs...

Or may be it was when he used to land up in my window at midnight with a bucket of chocolate ice cream...

Well who cares about when had I fallen in love , but I had... Without the knowledge of my own heart , body and soul , I had started considering him more than just a best friend ... I hadn't realised when this "just more than best friends" phase had turned him into everything that I could ever think of...

Yes.. Karan... it was the name I could only think now... he has occupied my dream , my reality , my morning , my night... every second of my life...

I know I am just his friend... yeah , best friend... nothing more...

But I had expected him to be at least be with me if not love me back... I had expected him to stand by my side when the world was against me...

But he didn't do it.. he couldn't do it... probably because when you have to choose between your friend and love , you can't help but choose your love... and he did the same...

Teja walked inside the library to find swayam and sheena sitting side by side , smiling at each other... Karan was holding her hand under the table...

Teja's face broke into a sad smile... a couple of weeks back Karan had scared the freak out of her by landing up in her room at 2 o'clock in the morning...

"what the hell Karan.. where are your manners????" She glared at a smiling Karan...

"and should I slap that smile off your face???" She held her hips... He immediately shook his head sheepishly...

"and why are you here??? It's a girl's room Karan... you can't just like that pop here anytime and that too from the window and that too at this hour of night..." She threw her hands up in the air to prove her point...

"right .. girl..." He said sarcastically eyeing her outfit... She felt a pang in her heart... She also followed his gaze down her body and felt her eyes tearing up seeing her batman tee shirt and grey shorts... He was right.. she in no way looked like a girl... and may be that's why he didn't love her back... she quickly masked her face with an irritated look like she had been doing for years...

"go on with what you have to say... and leave..." She pointed curtly at the window.. He immediately held her hands and started waltzing round the room...

"Teja... what is love????" he asked her still twirling her around the room...

"it's a thing beyond forever..." She whispered back at herself but unfortunately for her , he had heard it... he was so taken aback that he had stopped dancing and stood still looking blankly at her...

"huh??" he asked still not believing that she had said it out of all people... She knew there's no point stopping now..

"it's a thing beyond forever..." she said a little loudly and then continued... " its like a fresh drizzle in a summer afternoon... its like a free bird flying high above the clouds... love is anything which you want to believe... love is when your heart beats in sync with that something or someone you are in love with... love is everything... it's a way of life..." She said smiling softly looking blankly at the wall... He felt something weird from within...

"are you in love with someone???" that was the only question he could think at that point.. he had never expected her to answer his question.. he had expected her to make a face at the mention of "that" word... but her answer had made him feel that a person without the insight of the feeling can't put it to words like this... and he hoped that Teja would say "no".. the reason? unknown...

"are you??" She ducked the question...

"no..." He said confidently and then continued... "I had probably come here to say that yes, I am in love but after whatever you had said about love... if its true then well.. I am not..."

She knew this had to happen someday... she did not expect him to take her name...

"who is she???" she asked trying to maintain her extra vibrant face...

"sheena... its not that I love her.. but then... there is something strange and I don't want to regret by not giving us a chance..." She knew Karan would never mean "Karan and Teja" as 'us'...

Her reverie was broken , as she found Karan frantically waving his hands to grab her attention... She smiled back at him and at sheena too but then sheena made a face and looked away... Teja gave a reassuring smile to him and moved to collect her books...

After the tiring day at college , She had moved to the canteen to grab a cup of coffee... she had taken her order and turned to take a seat when she banged into someone...

"what the freak..." Before she could utter a sorry , the girl in front of her screamed at her face... She saw the coffee in her hand had spilled on sheena's pretty black dress...

"hey I am really sorry yaaa..." Teja grabbed a tissue and moved forward to help her...

"please.. please.. just stay away from me...okay???" she had screamed at Teja again making the entire canteen looking onto them...

"you won't even understand what a special dress means.. not everyone has that special someone to appreciate her if she looks pretty..." sheena had started off with glaring at Teja and ended it with a direct taunt ...

Teja knew it was meant for her... it as meant to point out to her that sheena had Karan to make her feel special whom Teja could never have...

Teja would have answered her back if Karan wouldn't have come upto the canteen door.. Teja's teary eyes met his blank ones.. Teja was waiting for him to come and take her side but when he didn't move an inch she lost the urge to justify herself.. if Karan didn't feel the need to answer back for insulting Teja then why would Teja feel the need???

And with that she had ran out of the canteen and eventually out of the college trying hard not to break down...

I know Karan , I know that I am nothing in front of sheena... she is breathtakingly pretty and I am just another ordinary girl in the town... I know its all my fault that I am hopelessly in love with someone who can never be mine in the first place...

And I don't know how to stop this pain... the pain of wanting the love of someone who is unattainable...