Disclaimer : All the characters are imaginary and a work of pure fiction. Any resemblance is unintentional and coincidental.

"Karan.." she said softly. She could hear him humming a song facing umar's bed. She was on her bed and they were not in talking terms. The new year shoot of weekend ka vaar went bad for her. She had lost her calm when she didn't get the chance to speak and she had diverted all her anger and frustration on him.

She knew that she had said some extremely hurtful things to him and she was apologetic. She didn't want to hurt him and she would made sure that he was fine.

"Karan.." she called him again on getting no response.

"what yaar teja.." he turned to face her in irritation.

"i just wanna talk to you.." she said slowly.

"i am drained yaar teja.. i wanna be happy for sometime.. singing and having fun.." he said making a face.

This is not her sunny. Has she hurt him so much that she ended up losing him?

"and you are not bothered about me?" she asked slowly. She knew that his answer would hurt her.

"oh man.." he made a face.. "Teja at this point i just wanna be happy.. and i can be happy myself or i can keep you happy.. so i will choose to keep myself happy first.." he said in irritation.

"i get it..good night.." she somehow managed to say and turned to the other side.

He had come to her bed after a few minutes. She knew he had come forcefully. She was too clouded to have a conversation. She didn't want to have a conversation. Not after what he had said. So she had replied very casually making him go back to his bed and sleep.

*****

Teja sat on the recliner beside the poolside with her warm water. It was 31st. The last day of the year.

For the first time last night she had seen irritation on his face and not anger. Has she pushed her to the extent that he was so drained? Her sunny would never ever think that she made him unhappy , that being with her would make him unhappy and that he would rather choose his happiness first and avoid conversation with her. Let alone saying it. But he said it last night.

She felt terrible. She loved him too much to be able to take him unhappy. And if he was unhappy because of her , she would make sure that she would never even be anywhere near to him. She would never allow his peace and happiness to go away. Even if that would cost her going away from him.

She closed her eyes careful enough that no tears escaped her eyes. For some reason people would always blame him if she cried and she did not want that.

Karan came into the outdoor garden and saw her sit on the recliner with her eyes closed. For the first time , he found her face to be completely blank. Not sad , not angry , no tears ,  just blank. He wanted to go to her but saw nishant go there to ask about breakfast.

She replied to nishant politely, got up and went inside the main house moving past him. As if he had never existed.

*****

Throughout the day , Karan had observed her carefully. She had been polite with everyone , careful enough to not give anyone the chance to say anything to her. She had not engaged in any conversations with anyone apart from the duties and only answered when being spoken to. But she also was careful that she didn't look sad or aloof and always was sitting with someone or the other so that nobody could doubt that she had a storm going inside her. But he knew her too well to get that. He knew something was off.

Right from the evening , he had tried to start a conversation but has failed to. She had made sure that he couldn't. She would either talk to someone about the duties as soon as she would see him or was in the candy shop making sure someone else was qued up behind her. In short she didn't give him the chance to speak to her.

*****

As soon as the lights went out , they knew it was 12 at night. Everyone hugged and wished each other.

Karan's eyes was fixed on her. Even when he hugged the other housemates , he had his eyes on her.

But before he could go to her , she had already walked away to the washroom area. Now he was getting scared.

He quickly went behind her and saw the area empty. He assumed that she must be inside changing so he also took his clothes and went inside to change.

"baabs are you okay?" nishant asked her as she came out , finally seeing her alone in the luggage area.

Karan got alarmed. He could hear them outside.

Nishant felt something was off. So he thought of asking her.

"haan why?" she frowned casually.

"i see you two are not talking to each other.. if you feel like sharing something you can tell me.." he asked with concern.

"i am not talking to him.. he is trying.." she said immediately trying to defend him. People would again blame him.

"but why?what has he done?" He frowned.

"he has not done anything.. i have been doing things.." she said while trying to adjust her clothes into the basket.

"hain?what have you done?teja you are overthinking.. beera will get stressed if you behave like this.." nishant said getting a little hyper.

"he will probably.. but he will be happy.. baabs i have realised that as a person i am too much to take.. it is not about karan.. he is very giving as a person.. he will never even think about leaving me.. but i know how difficult i am.. i make people frustrated.. irritated.. so much so that they forget to be happy baabs.. and i am slowly realising that i am doing this to karan.. have you noticed him smile heartily?we are always fighting.. i am always after his life saying why he did this why he did that.. anybody will get irritated.. and he cannot even show his irritation because then people will blame him.. call him a bad boyfriend.. whatever.. he must be so done from inside right?i know he will get stressed if i am away.. he will get upset.. he will probably skip a few meals.. but it will be in his best interest.. he will be happier in the long run.." she said without letting a single emotion get through her voice and face. everything was blank.

Karan closed her eyes standing inside the washroom. He knew why she was saying all these things. His words from last night had affected her way too much. He covered his face with his palm in frustration.

"how could i do this to her.." he said to himself in anger. "she was so excited  about new year always.. she kept on saying she was so happy that she will be spending it with me.. she kept asking what we would do.. and this is what is happening on new year?all because of me.."

What scared him was her blank voice. He had never heard her so emotionless. It scared him to even think that it was probably too late.