Jackie's p.o.v

Next day at school I couldn't wait classes to be over. I needed to talk to Tazia and she looked down all day so I needed to come up with something.

"Jackie, guess what?" Dom came behind me and handed me a piece of paper. Wait no..it was an envelope. I opened it and inside there were pictures of Dom and Tom during the festival.

"He asked me to be his boyfriend through this envelope and there was a letter but I took that out."

I smiled and then gave him back the envelope. "Well congratulations, did you tell Tazia?"

"I wanted too but then I heard what happened and I changed my mind to wait few more days so keep this a secret."

"Okay but wait, what happened?"

"I see she still hasn't told you so I will refrain to say anything." He got up and left.

"Wait, tell me!" But no answer.

After the last class I found Tazia.

"Study date, your house." I told her and she grabbed her bag and my hand and we hurried to her house.

Once we were in her room I told her about the meeting with his parents and how I just spat everything out in Ethan's parent's faces.

"Good for you, to be honest I would never do that but that's probably not your style. You are more of a type who likes to deal with things openly."

"So that's what has been bothering me and the other thing...well..."

"Hm? What other thing?"

I circled with my head.

"Did you tell him you loved him?" She gasped.

"No...well yes...but no."

"How can you tell him and not tell him?" She was very confused and I know it's my fault.

"So things happened and I asked him to show me his room so I can investigate."

Taz crossed her hands like she knew where this was going.

"And then he somehow pushed me on the bed and.."

I stopped. I can't say it. I can't!!!!

"Did he force you or something because I will kill him."

"No.no.no." I stopped her. "I mean he acted like that, saying something like do you know how easy guys can take advantage of you and it was more like he was trying to give me a lesson or something. I was sure he wanted me to push him off but I was thinking in that moment.." I stopped and tried to calm down my heart. Just thinking about it made me anxious. "I thought I should tell him that I have no regrets with him and I wanted to tell him I'm not scared because I ..well you know...the L word. And then he just told me to get out of his room while he took a shower. We haven't talked since then, I left the house leaving him a cake so he doesn't think I ran away. But I am confused; did I do the right thing?"

Tazia was having this look on her face that I've never seen before. She was just so serious.

"I think it was stupid to go to his room. You told him to take you to his room and then acted like that, saying he wouldn't do anything even though you told him you wouldn't mind if he does, but you didn't expect him to act on it. Idiotic move. Unless you wanted him to do something which is a completely other story."

I opened my mouth to argue but she stopped me. "No, you didn't tell him you love him even though you tried to point it out like that. But I still recommend putting it into a verbal form. Say the words to him so he can understand."

I nodded my head.

"Oh and if you already tempt him like that be sure to know what to expect."

I nodded my head repeatedly.

"One more thing, call him. He might still be hesitating."

I nodded my head again.

"Now, call him now."

I pulled my phone out and rang.

"Hello?" He answered surprised.

"Hey Ethan, how are you?"

I was supposed to figure out what I wanted to say first.

"I'm good, just finished school. I'm going with Landon to pick up Logan."

Tazia gestured her hands for me to keep on talking.

"Where's Logan?"

"He is trying to win back the girl he rejected on the festival, what are you doing?"

"Just you know...talking with Tazia."

She slapped her head.

"Is she there?"

She waved her hands.

"No. She um..went to the bathroom."

"mhm."

Tazia started gesturing things to say.

"So I wanted to see if you are...free...today?"

It was too late when I figured what I said.

"Yes."

Tazia mouthed the words and I repeated.

"I was thinking we should talk...about last night.."

I opened my mouth confused and gave her a look. She gestured to keep going. "I have something to tell you."

"you are talking way to slow."

"It's the phone, something is wrong with it, I'll fix it. Will you meet me later?"

"Okay, should we meet at the fountain in the park?"

"Yes."

"Okay, see you then. Bye."

"Bye."

I hanged up and looked at Tazia. "I will murder you. That was horrible."

"That was perfect, today when you'll meet him tell him that you love him."

"I can't."

"You have to. Didn't you notice how awkward this conversation was? He didn't even try to sweet talk you. You must see him."

I sighed. "Okay."

There was a long silence.

"So what is with you today, I'm sensing a bad aura."

"Mathew broke up with me."

I was in shook. He broke up with her?

"But, I don't understand. You really seem to like him and he seemed nice."

"He was..he was really nice. And caring. And romantic..ahh"

"Then why did he..."

"It's my fault." She hugged her knees.

"Lately I might have been acting differently around him. I issued fights, annoyed him on purpose and I acted immature. He told me I've changed and...he told me the reason why he thinks that." She closed her mouth.

I wasn't an expertise in people's feelings but her behavior says one thing. She tried to turn Mathew into Landon.

"Do you want to tell me why he thinks that?"

"No."

"I see."

"You already are guessing right."

"I do analysis on a daily bases. It's a habit, sorry."

"It's weird right. I mean, how can this happen? I like Mathew. I have feelings for him. He was sweet and sexy and everything I want In a guy. I was sure he was the one to have a serious relationship with. And now this?"

"I'm pretty sure I've read about this all the time and it goes something like...feelings and logic don't work well together."

She rolled her eyes and laid on the bed with her head falling down and her hair sweeping the floor.

"What are you going to do?"

"Do?" She seemed confused. "I'm not going to do anything. I hate that person. Ruined my relationship for nothing."

"I'm pretty sure you are the one to blame here."

"Jackie you are supposed to be on my side."

I sighed and stood up so I can lift her head of the ground.

"So what if you like him. You never had trouble with guys before."

"Because they like me back. No exceptions."

"What makes you think Landon doesn't like you back?"

That seemed to shut her up for a minute.

"Nah, there's no possible way...I mean...pshh as if..tho he did...nah.." She seemed to be in a battle with herself.

"Alright. I will do this one time only, and never again."

"Do what?" She gave me a suspicious look.

"I will take on a personal case and investigate his feelings."

"You will?" She jumped surprised. "But you leave me out of it! Okay?"

"I am not new at this so shut up. My deductive skills have been rusty lately."

"Yay.." She hugged me and I just tapped her hands.

"Okay, okay..i need air, please let go."

She let go and then pulled out a notebook from under her bed.

"What's that?"

"That's the book of plans."

"I don't follow."

"It's my secret little thing. I've never showed it to you before because you didn't care about boyfriends and stuff but now..." She smiled and opened it.

"It's mostly every technique I've tried so far to charm , tease and deal with boys. I'm still working on it and I am thinking of publishing it one day. If I do like Landon I will probably need a new technique. I still can't get over the idea of him and I...yack, no way. But still, just in case, I'll try to come up with something."

I smiled at her foolish expression and looked at the phone.

"I have to go, I have to see Ethan."

"Good luck."

She winked and I left her dealing with her book of plans.

I waited around half an hour next to the fountain and eventually I started worrying. What if something happened to him? He is always on time.

Suddenly I noticed someone running towards me. Ethan was running with the most adorable red face expression ever. When he got to me he bent over and started breathing hard.

"I'm ...so..so..sorry.. The bus crowd.."

I tried to cover up a laugh and I patted his head.

He lifted himself up and I touched his cheeks. He was still red from the running. I gave in.

"You're too cute." I said and started laughing. He looked at me confused and touched his face. Immediately he became even redder.

I guess even this guy can blush from time to time.

I offered him my hand and he took it gently turning around so he can take a deep breath.

I wondered why I was worried he could be upset about last night. He looked normal as ever. Though I was nervous about my promise to Tazia. How do I say I love him?

"So did Logan finally make peace with that girl?" I asked trying to start a conversation.

"Nope, she's still giving him a hard time. But he's not going to give up."

I smiled. "Good. I think that if I was mad at you but didn't want to admit I wanted to make peace I wouldn't want you giving up either."

He grinned.

"What?" I had to ask.

"Nothing. It's just that we think similar."

"Of course. How do you think we are such good detectives?"

He stopped.

"Hm?"

"You just praised us together. You never did that before."

"Oh?" He was right. I suddenly felt normal to praise both of us, not just me. Was this another thing love did?

"I'm happy." He smiled and leaned his forehead on mine. "When you said you wanted to talk about last night I was little scared you know?"

I bit my lip. Scared, did he think I would be angry? Damn it, so Tazia was right.

"You're not angry right?" He asked and I knew it I was going to have to talk about it.

While I waited I started thinking of what I should say to him because I told him I wanted to talk about it but now once I started feeling nervous and my stomach started turning I began regretting the decision. However every time I think I could loose him I gain the courage to speak up my mind.

I am terrified to love for the first time but I believe in us. I can trust him.

"No I'm not but..i want to say this..Ethan.. I've faced on my own everything since I was young I have built up walls and I didn't want to let anyone in. But since I started feeling these new emotions I started embracing every fear I had before. I don't do anything halfheartedly when I'm with you."

"What do you..mean by that?" He seemed bit confused but relaxed.

"It means I want to talk to you about my feelings. I don't want to be selfish and make you feel insecure. I'm not going to leave you just like that."

He seemed taken back a little but quickly calmed down and he squeezed my hand.

"I'm glad you told me this." He smiled and leaned down to kiss me. I slowly closed my eyes and embraced the kiss. My heart was beating and jumping up and down. I failed to say the words but I managed to make him smile and that made me satisfied for the moment. Somewhere in the future I'll be braver and tell him I love you.

I pulled apart from the kiss and looked at his hand that was on my cheek.

"You're wearing the rubber band I bought you." I smiled surprised.

"Did you just notice it? I'm insulted." Ethan looked at me angry.

"But I mean.." I panicked.

"I'm just messing with you Plushy." He patted my head ruffling my hair on the way.

"You're the worst." I punched his shoulder and he laughed. Suddenly he put an arm around my shoulder and I felt my heart beat really fast.

"Where do you want to go?" He asked.

I gave it a thought. This was my shot.

"Hey, how about you show me your school?"

"Hmmm, okay." He didn't seem suspicious so I took it as a good sign. We took the bus and we arrived at his school. It was a big, no; huge building that looked like a rich facility. As we entered through the gate I noticed how beautiful the school yard looked like.

"Wow, you go here?"

"Yeah, my parents insisted I go here."

"I've heard about this school but I thought only really rich people go here. Landon and Logan go here too right?"

"yeah, they're on a scholarship."

"Hm, so they are smart ha?"

"They may not look like smart but both of them rank among the first"

"I guess that's expected from your friends." I smiled at him and he turned red again.

Would he stop doing those cute faces. I've never felt too jumpy in my entire life like I do know.

"Let me show you my classroom." He took me inside explaining everything though it looked like a complete maze.

"And this is my classroom." I peeked inside. It was a formal classroom but it looked cleaner, shinier.

"It's not more or less from what I expected."

"I liked your school better." Ethan walked inside and I followed him.

"How can you say that, this place looks like it offers high standards of education?

" But you don't go here."

I felt my cheeks go warm. I leaned on one of the desks looking down.

"What are you saying idiot. Me and the school don't have..."

He put his hands on the desk capturing me and leaning above me.

"I used to look at school as I waste of time before work, but when you were around it didn't feel like wasting time anymore."

I lifted my hand to push him away but I ended up clutching on his shirt.

"You can't..school is...I'm not.."

He leaned over to kiss me when a noise interrupted us.

"Ethan has a girlfriend." Bunch of students were standing at the door.

"I can't believe this."

"He didn't say anything. I thought he was back to normal."

The whispers were getting louder. He took my hands and walked outside the door and everyone moved aside.

"If you excuse us."

He pulled me in the hallway and then turned right to a dark corner.

"That was rude, were they your friends?"

"Shh." He kissed me with such intensity I thought I would fall if I wasn't leaned on a wall.

"My my, can't keep your hands of each other."

I opened my eyes to see Andy standing there grinning.

"I thought I heard something amongst the girls sobbing that Ethan had a girlfriend so I had to see myself if you and Jackie were here. Lucky me to find you."

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