~ Important Author's Note (Pls Read) ~
Ok so like I said last part, I know this is posted quite a while after Thanksgiving but I still had this oneshot unfinished so I wanted to finish it ya know. And that's exactly what I'll be doing with this part.

Other than that, I actually wasn't planning on making a part 4 truthfully speaking. However, because last part was getting too long I decided to make it anyway so here you have it.

This part is about what happened when Solar turned in for the night and went upstairs to his bedroom. So we are now back to full on Solar x Ruin stuff now.

Anyway, after last part, you guys may have thought Solar was feeling better after hanging out with Sun for hours however that's not the case. You see when my version of Solar remembers something from his past that hurts him it doesn't go away easily. It sticks with him for at least 12 hours. Sometimes 24 to 48 hours or possibly even longer if it's really bad and affects him massively. Luckily this won't last for that long but still a decent amount of time. Solar is a broken man in certain ways. Which I guess is why my Solar and Ruin fit so well together as a couple. They're both broken men in more ways than you think. Broken men who find comfort within each other.

So with that being said, I hope you guys enjoy part 4. ;3
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- Last Part -
~ Solar's POV ~

Sun: "Believe me, emotions don't make you weak. If anything they make you stronger."

Solar: "Heh..."

Sun: "Night Solar.

Solar: "Night Sun."

Sun: "I hope you feel better tomorrow."

Solar: "Yeah... so do I."

With that I head upstairs to my bedroom so I could turn in for the night.

- Current Part -
~ Solar's POV ~

Once reaching my bedroom upstairs I open the door and go inside. Once inside I closed the door behind me. When I was in my room the first thing I see after shutting my door was Ruin.

Ruin was currently lying on my bed looking at his phone. However, when he sees me come in he immediately puts his phone down and turns his full attention to me.

Ruin: "Evening dear Solar Darling."

Solar: "Heh, you really did just come up here didn't you."

Ruin: "Of course. I know my place in life and I'm not very welcomed by this family. So I came up here as to not be a burden."

Solar: "Ruin, you're not a burden hun."

Ruin: "Of course I'm not to you. But the others, yes."

Solar: "Not to Polaris or Luna either."

Ruin: "I know. But still am to the rest of the family."

Solar: "Yeah, I guess you're right in that sense as much as I hate to admit it."

Ruin: "Nonsense darling. I said I know where I stand in this family. So I came up here as to not disturb the rest of the household."

Solar: "Fair enough."

Ruin: "Anyway, how did it go with Sun? You were gone for a few hours."

As soon as Ruin said that, even if everything went well with Sun like it did, I didn't want to answer. So I just stayed silent.

Ruin: "Did he make you feel any better Dear?"

Once again I don't say anything and just kept silent. The reason I refused to reply to Ruin is because after asking about how it went with Sun, all the memories of my Sun started coming back.

So because of that, I was now trying to continue staying strong with these thoughts in my mind. In fact I was also trying to fight back against crying again but was really struggling with it.

Ruin: *is now more concerned and retracts rays slightly* "Darling, is everything alright?"

When he said that, that was the trigger I needed to be pulled. I covered my eyes and just full on broke again. In fact because the door to my bedroom was shut I didn't hold back from
anything knowing no one aside from Ruin would see me this way.

Ruin: *says under breath in a soft tone* "Oh Darling"

After barely hearing him say that, Ruin get's up from the bed and comes over to me entirely gently grabbing my arm.

Ruin: "Come, come Love. Let's just get you in bed. Perhaps you just need a good night's rest to hopefully feel better tomorrow."

However because I was already breaking I didn't even budge. So Ruin had to physically pull me to the bed. He did it eventually but not without a lot of struggle. Especially since pulling me is essentially pulling what was basically his same body weight maybe slightly heavier. When he got me to the bed he pulled me onto his chest.

Once Ruin got us both comfortable he pulled the blankets over both of us and wrapped his arms around me his fingers now laced together over my back. Yet because of the position we were now in I was forced to be sobbing against his torso.

Which is when Ruin's voice got soft and he began talking to me in a soft tone. He was quite clearly trying to calm me.

Ruin: "Shhh, it's alright Darling. I know it hurts. Believe me I do."

Solar: "I-It's... I-It's my fault he's gone."

Ruin: "Oh Darling no. It's not your fault none of it is your fault Love."

Solar: "Y-Yes it is."

Ruin: "Darling."

Solar: "If I never existed he wouldn't be dead."

Ruin: "Solar Darling, don't say such a thing"

Solar: "Why? It's true. My Sun died because of me."

Ruin: "No he didn't. Your Sun did not die because of you."

Solar: "Yes he did! He did in fact die because of me! So again, if I was never alive he would've still been alive and well! I'm the fucking mistake!"

Ruin: "Darling please, please don't say such things. Stop saying such lies and gaslighting yourself into believing them Love."

Solar: "I'm not lying! All of what I say is true! My Sun died because of me! I was the core reason he's gone!"

Ruin: "Darling please."

Solar: "Please what Ruin! I'm not going to stop!"

Ruin: "Solar Darling, crying isn't going to bring him back."

Solar: "I know! But what else am I going to do!"

Ruin. "Perhaps think back and remember the good memories and times you had with him?"

Solar: "I've tried that! But it doesn't work! It never works! All it brings is further pain!" *sobs*

Ruin: *shuts eyes and sighs* "Please Dear, look at the positives."

Solar: "What positives! What fucking positives Ruin!"

Ruin: "Well for starts, if you never existed you wouldn't have me, and I wouldn't have you. We would've never been a thing."

Solar: ......

Ruin: "I wouldn't have the sweetest, kindest, most protective and caring boyfriend I have now. I am happy you lived and existed My Dear."

Solar: ......

Ruin: "So listen to me when I say this Solar, I love you so dearly Darling. In fact, I cannot even fathom to imagine a life without you my dearest Love and I mean it. I mean every word of it. You are my dearest Solar Darling and I couldn't ask for anything more."

~ Ruin's POV ~

As soon as I said that it only caused Solar to sob even more. Which is when I tried a different approach.

Ruin: "Listen to me Darling, perhaps this will make you feel better. You might just need to be reminded."

Solar: ......

Ruin: "Solar Dear, your Sun separated to save you. To give you a chance to live on for him."

Solar: "He shouldn't have done that! He should've been the one to live. N-Not me!"

~ Solar's POV ~

When I said that I just further broke into sobs. Some so bad it even caused me to start coughing. That's when Ruin kinda just quit trying to make me think positive. All he did now was hold me and comfort me to the best of his ability.

Ruin: "Hush Darling. It's ok. Just let it out, I know it hurts. It always will hurt. I know for a fact."

Solar: "H-How?"

Ruin: "How what Solar Dear?"

Solar: "How do you know it hurts."

Ruin: "Well for starts, I can quite clearly see it on your face and have for the past about an hour now."

Solar: ........

Ruin: "I can also feel it via your current emotion and emotional state. You know I've always been quite in tune with emotion myself some more than others. You've even witnessed it. You've witnessed it both a few times with Luna as well as with yourself."

Solar: .....

Ruin: "Plus, I've also told you this before Darling, I understand your pain because I went through something quite similar even though it's not exact."

Solar: ....

Ruin: "I may haven't had my Sun or Moon die, specifically my Sun due to separation. However, I did watch my home crumble and fall to a deadly virus. So I know what it's like to lose friends, lovers, and people you care about. It's painful and I know it is. It always will be."

~ Ruin's POV ~

Upon saying just that sentence I felt all my past memories of my own unresolved trauma flooding back to me. That's when I started tearing up myself as I continued to speak.

While I spoke, I spilled out my entire background. Shaking a little as I fought back from sobbing while I once again told my entire story to Solar in hopes of cheering him up.

Thus hopefully showing Solar he had it better than me when it comes to his own personal backstory. That he should be grateful about it even if he lost someone he loves.

Ruin: "Listen to me as I tell you this again Solar. Hopefully it will show you that even if you lost someone you loved, you still had it better than me."

Solar: ......

Ruin: "For years I watched my home be torn a cinder, useless to doing anything to stop it. I watched it be ripped apart. Everything I cared about be stripped away from me year by year over the course of 50. I lost everything in the process. My home, my dignity, my friends, the people I cared about, and even my lovers."

Solar: .......

Ruin: "I was forced to watch my friends rip each other apart piece by piece unable to do anything about it or they'd find out I hadn't been infected. If that were to happen they would've killed me too."

Solar: ......

Ruin: "I was forced to act for my own survival. Act like the insane murderous heathens my friends had become from this virus. Forced to allow my body to painfully batter, break, crack, and wither away with time so I would look like them. To making not a single repair to my poor body that could reveal my uninfected self. My friends would ask me day in and day out "what was your body count" and I always had to lie. I was forced to kill as a way to blend in even if I never wanted to."

Solar: ......

Ruin: "Then on top of everything, when my creator found out I wasn't infected he was furious. I was called many a name by my creator during the time. Mistake, Inferior, Amalgamated freak so on so forth. All of which were brutally hurtful to me."

Solar: "Ruin, no matter what your creator or anyone for that matter says, you're still beautiful. Or I guess I should say handsome inside and out. Body wise too."

Ruin: "I... *blushes* ...heh. Much appreciate it Dear."

Solar: "Of course."

Ruin: "A-Anyway, I begged my creator for my life. Begged for my life at his feet on my hands and knees with everything I had hoping he would take pity and spare me. To not kill me right then and there, that I would do anything if it meant I wouldn't die. It worked and I got my life but not without a price. I was forced to work under him and accepted. Forced to be my creator's puppeted plaything for him to pull the strings and play me however he wished."

Solar: ......

Ruin: "I was forced to do his bidding and dirty work. Forced to do things I never wanted to do nor would I ever do. That if I didn't work for him and be his good little puppet I would've been killed either way. I had no choice."

Solar: ....

Ruin: "I was never set free until I tricked my creator and fled my dimension. Yet even when I thought I found a new home I played my act just as I did in my home dimension as it's all I knew how to do to survive. It wasn't until almost a year of being here and going on with my plan that I could finally be my true self. Or what I so remember of my true self. I still don't know if I really am my truest self now."

Solar: "Ruin, I think you are your true self."

Ruin: "A-Appreciate it Dear. Yet I still don't know exactly."

Solar: "Ruin, I again believe you are your truest self even if you don't know or feel you are"

Ruin: "Th-Thank you Darling."

Solar: "Of course."

Ruin: *places a hand on face and rubs both eyes with thumb and pointer finger* "Oh Gods."

Solar: "Hm?"

Ruin: "Seems I've succumb to tears myself now Darling."

When I said that sentence I said it with a forced smile and chuckle. Which is when I wiped away my own tears now with the back of my hands. However my laughter turned into a sobbing laugh anyway.

Solar: ......

Ruin: *sniffs* "So again, I may not understand the pain you went through of losing your Sun Solar Darling, but I can understand it and the way you feel. Just look at me after explaining my own unresolved past trauma. I'm a bloody fucking mess."

Solar: "Heh, guess we're both emotional fucks now"

Ruin: "No shit."

Solar: "Yeah, "no shit" indeed."

After Solar said that, the both of us went silent like neither of us had anything more to say.

While we were silent, I felt Solar move his hands from on my chest to his arms wrapped around my waist. He now held me like that while he rested his head on my lower chest.

End A/N:
And I'm ending this part here. However, I am planning on making one more part to this oneshot, a part 5. So look out for that. Other than that I hope you guys enjoyed jthis oneshot as it was approximately 2510 words in all by the end of it. So until next time...
"Stay Awesome, Stay Safe, Have A Great Day Wherever You May Be And Remember I Love You All And I Will See You Guys Escalater. Peace Out My Pups" ;3