⚠️Warning! Slight mentions of self harm!⚠️

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"Hey Kook, we brought you something to eat."

"Thanks Tae." I smiled tiredly, standing up from the hospital chair and greeting my bandmates who had just walked through the door with a few takeout bags in their hand.

"Have you been getting any sleep?" Hoseok asked suspiciously, probably noticing the dark circles around my eyes but I couldn't care less. "Of course he hasn't been getting any sleep Hobi, I'd be surprised if in these three weeks he had even shut his fucking eyes!" Yoongi deadpanned.

Three weeks? It has been that long already?

"I do get sleep!" I lied through my teeth. "Oh yeah, how much?" Namjoon questioned while crossing his chest as everyone took their seats on the available chairs situated around the room.

"Well my eyes close everytime I sneeze so...."

My members stared at me with worried frowns as I tried to smile at the attempt of a joke I just made.

"Jungkookie..."

I ignore Jin and focus on the hospital bed, where my beautiful boyfriend lay with a peaceful smile, like he hadn't been stuck in a coma for three long weeks now.

After falling off the stage, Jimin had hit his head pretty hard against some of the barriers and instantly became unconscious while the show was going on. Bodyguards, stage crew and my own members and I dropped everything as we ran to him.

Army's screams were deafening, I could still hear it in the back of my head.

The ride to the hospital was long and filled with loud sobbing, the paramedics had allowed Taehyung and I to ride with Jimin whilst the rest followed behind in an SUV.

"This is all my fault." Was the only thing I kept repeating as I cried my eyes out, Taehyung comforting me and sobbing for his best friend at the same time. The paramedics said that Jimin most likely just had a concussion and that we shouldn't be too worried.

But when we arrived at the hospital, the doctors said it was far worse than just concussion. Jimin had suffered a severe head injury when he took that fall, and theres a big chance that if he wakes up he'll be dealing with a bit of brain damage. Doctor Lee also stated that Jimin was under a lot of stress and signs of depression could be spotted.

When we heard that, we didn't believe it. Our bright, loud and happy Jimin had depression?

And then....we were shown the cuts on his thighs.

I had never seen Jin hyung cry so hard in all my life, he blamed himself for not checking up on Jimin. Taehyung blamed himself for not being a better friend even though he knew Jimin was suffering.

Namjoon took it the hardest, his body went into a state of shock as dizziness hit him so quickly that he would have collapsed right there if it wasn't for Yoongi grabbing onto him last minute. My mind was fucked at that point and I barely remember what happened after, just Hoseok screaming for the nurses to get Namjoom some water.

My boyfriend was going through a depression stage, he self harmed in a place none of us would notice and ended up falling off stage and landing himself in a coma.

I failed as his partner.

I failed as his friend.

I failed as his bandmate.

Nothing could stop me from burying my face in his chest and weeping like a baby, apologizing over and over again until I could no longer breathe. The nurses had to sedate me for a few hours because of the hysteria I was causing and they feared for my health.

I stayed in the hospital for three weeks, refusing to leave and since I was so well known, the hospital allowed me to have sleep in the spare bed in Jimins private room. My hyungs tried to take me home many times just so I could have a break but I didn't wanna leave him.

If I was in Jimin's position, he wouldn't leave me either.

"Wake up baby, the whole group is here again and we're all waiting for you to open those beautiful brown eyes for us." I whispered, sitting down again and brushing the stray hairs away from my boyfriends face.

I heard the sad sighs behind me but I paid no attention to them, focusing on talking to Jimin like everything was normal. Doctor Lee said that sometimes coma patients could hear everything, because their brains were still as active as ever so I made it my duty to talk to Jimin for hours everyday.

"Jungkook I know Jimin is your first priority right now, but imagine what he'd say if he saw you like this." Jin blurted.

I knew I must look terrible, the sleep deprivation evident in my eyes, my clothes wrinkled from laying down next to Jimin a few hours ago and my bones slightly showing from my lack of eating habits. "Please...please come home with us for just one night." Taehyung pleaded.

I thought about it for a moment. "But what if Jimin wakes up and I'm not here?" That was my biggest concern. "Then we'll come straight back here before he even realizes what's going on." Namjoon responded with a small smile.

"Theres nothing straight about us."

"Yoongi I swear to god-"

"I'll leave...for just one night." I finally said, making everyones eyes snap towards me. If Jimin were to wake up now, the best thing I could do for him was look my best and be well rested so that I could look after him. Right now I could use the sleep, and Jin's amazing home cooked meals.

Besides, I hadn't left the hospital in three whole weeks. Surely that wasn't healthy.

"Great, I'll call Sejin hyung to pick us up!" Jin exclaimed quickly before I could change my mind. I nodded, turning back to Jimin and placing a soft kiss on his cold lips.

"I love you so much angel, I'll be back soon okay? Please do your best, I know you're trying but I need you to wake up soon. I miss you, Army misses you, we all do." I sighed, letting Namjoon put an arm over my shoulder and guide me out the room.

"He'll be okay Kook, I promise." He assured me, and I believed him without a doubt.

My boyfriend was small but he was a fighter and I knew it was only a matter of time before he was back in my arms again, giggling and just making me the happiest man in the world. I was gonna show him how much I love him, because this whole thing made me realize how much I took him for granted.

Jimin deserved the entire world and I was more than willing to give it to him.

The ride home was filled with comfortable silence, Taehyung holding my hand the entire time as Namjoon and Jin made small talk in the front.

"I'm gonna heat something up for you to eat okay? Go have a shower first though, you stink." Jin pushed my playfully when we entered the house. I laughed for the first time in awhile, letting myself enjoy the feeling of home that I had so desperately missed these past three weeks.

I showered for a good 45 minutes, letting my entire body relax under the hot water. The hospital showers were small and cramped and sometimes never had the hot water working so I had been dying for a moment like this. I was almost falling asleep in there, until Hoseok knocked on the door telling me if I was okay and that the food was ready.

My hyung could see how exhausted I was, as I had allowed the strong boyfriend facade to fall, which is why he helped me get dressed into my fluffy Cooky pyjamas and cooed at my embarrassed flushed face.

"There's our baby." Jin hyung smiled lovingly, putting a plate of gejeot in front of me when I sat at the dinner table, making my eyes widen. "Hyung, you prepared this for me?" I sniffled happily at the sight of my favourite food. "Of course I did Kookie, I can't let our maknae get any more skinnier now can I?" Jin replied.

"Eat as much as you want Kook, hyungs are here to take care of you." Yoongi said, ruffling my hair and making my eyes water. "T-Thank you, I didn't realize how much I needed this." I choked out.

"No one can be strong forever bun, it's okay to allow yourself to be taken care of sometimes." Namjoon pointed out. "We love you so much Kookie, don't forget that." Taehyung blew a kiss in my direction, making me laugh. "I love you guys too." And boy did I mean it.

After dinner I was practically stuffed and thanked Jin hyung repeatedly for the meal, to which he beamed and said he was happy I enjoyed it. We were now all huddled together on the couch, Iron Man playing softly on the television with me sitting in between Namjoon and Yoongi.

My eyes were getting heavier by the second, and of course Yoongi was the first to notice this. "Here, you can sleep on my shoulder." He moved closer as Namjoon covered my body with a thick blanket.

"No it's fine I'm not-"

"Shut up and go to sleep maknae, we'll wake you up if we hear any news about Jimin I promise." Yoongi said, already sensing my panic. I gulped at the warning look he was giving me and allowed myself to fall asleep against him.

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"-ook!"

"Jungkook!"

I jolted forward, placing my hand over my heart and breathing heavily. "W-What happened?" I blurted out, rubbing the sleep out of my eyes. My members stood in front of me all dressed in their sleepwear, looking like they had just woken up a second ago.

Yoongi was still against me, also yawning and sitting up on the couch aswell. My eyes lingered on the clock in the sitting room, the time reading 4am and making me even more curious than I already was.

I wasn't prepared for the next sentence to leave Hoseok's mouth.

"We just got a call from the hospital, Jimin is awake."

I had never felt more awake than I did right at that moment.