Yes it lingers
Still do

The memories we had
The bond we shared

The effect your words had
Over the blisters of my soul

It never ceases to amaze me
How you placed your hand on my eyes

How you whispered those words
They effectively stopped my fibbling mind

I was a rose blooming; yours to keep
You were the pillar; holding my sky

Some distant yet precious
I learned to adore you so much

Our castle
Our unicorn

Our love
Our dreams

We were the magical two
We were the golden twins

Even lost in daily rut
I knew someone as strong as sky was holding my world

I never wanted to speak about this
But insistence is yours I will deliver

So brace your heart
And hear me out

Remember the day you left
I was at your feet begging

I had a knife there right in my gut
You overlooked walked away

Keeping yourself
Throwing away us

I said I never thought ill of you
I didnt I kept doing us

Regardless of everytime I was hurting
I choose to color your insta

I wished to ease your pain
I subsided myself to understand you

I loved us
Why was love made punishment for me

But the knife that was in my gut that day
One that was left unattended

Poisoned my soul
Stained through my heart

Corrupted my mind
Brought haunting shadows

So the rose you loved
Wilted without its nurturer

You hear those shadows laughing
You see those eyes following

I hope you do
I hope you know this

The cuddling warm teddy made of love
Broke into thousand pieces

Again it's not your fault
Your eyes were shielded with grief

I understand you
But will you understand me

I hid myself in shadows
I lost the capacity to love

I lost the confidence in me who I was
Now just shadows shadows everywhere

I subsided myself
I stopped talking with myself

Yes it lingers
The pain of who I was

The pain of whom I am not anymore
The pain of being walked on

But you know
What hurts more

The haunting shadows
That burned through me

That laugh on us
My mind has been in pieces

Who was me?
Who are you?

What us we had?
Why its worthed to love?

The reason I dont talk is them
They washed away everything we had

I am left with nothing in silence
You see this frenzy this hurt this confusion

Can you see it
Can you silence them

I dont speak
People make me afraid

I dont breathe in light
Humanity brings chaos to my mind

Place your hand on my heart
Sense that little girl locked up in her room

Fearful of outside world
Crying on the loss of everything

The one who had everything
But is crying over because she feels like she have been left with nothing

Lingering smiles
Lingering good times

Can you make her belief with same sense of belonging
That love and people arent monsters whom hurt

That she can exist
That she can laugh

That she can live
That her touch doesnt break anything

That she has same right
To be loved held and cherished

Not some
To be thrown away

Like human race did
Can you make her feel safe

Like you once did
When she lost pearly

If you can
Only then come to me

Otherwise leave me lingering
I will accept my fate in darkness

Dont think I blame you
Never I understand grief

I am just expressing my mind
Since you asked for it

If you cant it's fine
If silly childish rose faded

Give Romi time to heal then
May be one day she can come back

To nurturer her kingdom
To fulfill her purpose as Aharon

© Romi Aharon