May you rest easy
I dont know if I can forgive

I dont know if I ever can
Release these hard emotions

If I remember my childhood
The candy, the laughter

It feels painful a simple grief
Sense of losing a loved one

If I remember my adult years
The abuse, the fear

It doubles my pain to think
You were a big meanie

I stopped laughing out loud
I stopped dressing up

I could not feel safe
I could not breathe in house

Then you wishing death on me
Was it the right way to treat me?

Now after your funeral
I do feel sorry for you

I always felt somewhat sorry
The times when you were sick

I am sorry I couldn't find closure
I was heartbroken and numb

I did tried to get you help soon
I am sorry none was willing to

I am sorry that they filmed
Your funeral and I feel mad

Now I rest my pen to sleep
I am so weird emotions are so weird

I cant even cry
I cant even smile

I cant even release the tension in head
I cant get rid of bitterness in heart

Dear romi I wonder why your heart
Was pounding and now its silent

I do distasted the way you were ignored
I am sorry you could not get help

I am sorry
I loved you

I wish you thought uncle
Before destroying our relationship

I do know you left yearning for me
I was lost and heart broken

I could not bare to look at you
I am sorry hearts once broken

They dont heal
They dont heal

Hope allah forgive you
Hope you dont rot in hell

None deserves hell
None deserves misery

May allah forgive you
May allah heal my heart

Because I have no idea
How will I put back my pieces

© Romi Aharon