i hate you mom

you are hypocrite

you can fight for bro

why cant you fight for me

why my biology is my fault

why my existence is sin

i already have a lot to heal from

mom are you listening to my silent screams

i hate you for abandoning me

i hate you for waking this voice of self loathing in me

can you not see how much i hide and care

can you not see 

how filthy inappropriate he is

i am hurting mom

i cant even tell this to anyone

i hate you for shaming me

its not my fault

do you hear me? its not fuck you