I was a star minding my business
I was a child lost in my barbie world

Surrounded by friends n laughters
I was cherry blossom for all of them

But as time drew more everything changed
Ppl left; leaving behind tears n sorrow

Feel so numb inside my head
Everything I learned is down the drain

Luck was never on our side true
Every one I knew changed faces

It's not love nor hate that exists in me
I am an empty slate lying in the dust of time

I love u n I mean that
Out of all u know what lies inside

I trust u n I mean that
To write to u about my vulnerabilities

Clueless as a slate
Lost as a sparrow

Questioning facts
Questioning knowledge

Who am I?
Who was I?
What I am supposed to be?

What is love?
What is friendship?
What is happiness?

What is real?
What is fake?

Who to keep?
Who to leave?

Lost tattered I tried to join broken parts
Then my hands bleed more from the ones I loved

I see everyone crashing fighting helplessly
Trauma, guilt, sadness prevails in my mind

Hoping for peace n hoping for fairytale ending
What wrong I did I wonder

Then the reality Dawn on me; contradicting my imagination
Mocking in my face for me not being good enough

Then that empty slate cries clueless
Lost unaware blank about what to do next

I dont blame anyone for this
I just want my wings back

Empty mind, soul, heart n spirit
I just want my old self back

Help me to find myself
Bcz I got no heart to go back 22 years back to endure all that pain again

I am a clean slate yours to keep
Take it, keep it, break it, mold it whatever like

I feel like a pacifier fresh out of factory
I feel like a child after birth

I dont know myself
I dont know anyone

I am lost lost lost
I am lost lost lost

Idk what is what
Idk who is who

Confused as hell
Broken as shit

I wonder what to do next
I wonder where to go next