It's your day

People come in my face asking about you

I hide my melancholy behind my thoughts and smile

After all you are a star worthed to be praised

They ask me about my plans

They ask me about reason of my softness

Can I say? The truth!

I dont have any plans

Because I was the system she never wanted

Installed in low key disgraced brand she is stuck with me

I dont have a right to hug her

Nor cook for her

Nor cuddle with her

As I was a system she never wanted

But today I wanna say

Can you atleast once hold me

And

Kiss my scars

Hug my demons away

Cuddle with me to make me feel warm and secured

Come down from your level to mine

Be in my shoes n say that u r proud of me

I want that one moment please to complete myself

I love you so much

I am fading but I am not dead

Can you stop treating me like an untouchable?

Can you stop making that face every time I walk past you?

Can you stop shaming me for my anatomy and morphology?

I know you deserved more like best

I am not the one

Can you please dont?

I am the most brutal critic of myself

I hate myself with all passion

That's biggest punishment for me for existing

Can you atleast for one day dont fight with hardware?

I know he is bad

You are a star

You deserved much more

But I exist because of you

I hate when I have to lose my breath because of it

Can you not make love so hard?

Can you appreciate my little efforts?

Can you stop testing my patience?

Why do I have to compete so hard to get you?

Why?

Why the hell you can't just hold me, love me and cherish me the way I am?

I am hurting a lot

A lot more than I say

A lot more than I show

This pain tears me apart every day one hour every second

Can I get my fairytale family?

Can I?

Just for one day!

I wouldn't say a single word after it

I am an outdated system dragging you down

Soon i will perish

I hope then you can be happy and relieved from my burden.

I am a lunatic

Far too drunk

In the misery and pain

My euphoria is your hate

I am pretty comfy in it

Thank you for existing

I love you so much my dear motherboard

More than I say

More than I show

Up till the moon back to Earth

I love you so so much!

Today it hurts a lot

This longing send wave to shiver through my spine

I wish you notice me someday