02:13 PM // 28-9-2016 // dreams

char,

i'm scared. i'm scared to meet you, i'm scared to get groceries,  i'm scared to travel, i'm scared to be alone. i'm terrified of my own self. i might never get better, i might never be happy. i don't want to wear white tshirts because i am afraid people will see the sweat dripping down my body, i can't be outside my home for more then five hours, otherwise i get panic attacks. i have no friends anymore because people stopped bothering to come by. my parents hated me, i hate me. there is nothing left for me, but death. 

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