•from the middle of the room she hears the conversztion moving further from where she's going.•
~trevor mcnevan

For a normal human being, life would be some sort of fancy gift. Being able to communicate with other people, enjoy things like food, romance and alot of happiness. But for kai, life is a curse.
Since her guilt and anxiety started to settle in, she became depressed and turned into a shitty person.
She would push people away, call herself a fuckup, cut, and sometimes she would even ignore her girlfreind. However that was ninth grade, since then things have been worse then cutting and other drama.

Now, she is in college. she smokes weed, constantly has a cigarette in her mouth when shes not in class, she has freind's too but they dont take much notice of how fucked up she really was because of how well she covers it up. The only part of her life that she enjoys is her girlfreind. she is so special to her, max danéir was her name. Tall, dark, a wild soul. she was perfect to kai.
She couldnt ask for a better girlfreind. Anxiety being the bitch it was though, kai was becoming distant from her, fear of losing her was beginning to dawn on her, or being cheated on. The list never ended, so whenever kai saw max, she would cling to her without a word.

3:45 am
Kai's pov

I swear to god, getting up at this hour is bullshit.
Being who i am i hate getting woken up, so i stayed in bed before someone flopped on me. "Heyyy, cmon, wake up!" Ashley. That brittish bitch i call my best friend. I loved her, but at this time of the morning i hated everyone. "Get off me you fatty" Ashley giggled and sat up. "Are you okay?" She asked and placed a hand on my back. This girl, had been my friend since fourth grade, i had just transferred in from paris at the time and she came from england, it was suprising how we both came to america and the same school on the same day and we where so exited about it, we where innocent a childish too so we got more exited and fascinated as well.
So now, we are living in the same dorm in 11th grade. Even though she was straight and didnt always agree with the gay community she stuck by me, unlike the other kids. But now, about 98% of my freinds where gay, trans, genderfluid, non binary, we where everhthing from sexuality, to gender, or just flat out fucked up. Or as my seventh grade princable says- socially unacceptable.

I sat up and slapped ashley on the arm "oww" she whined, making me giggle. I sat up and rubbed my eyes. "Ugh, you white ass four eyed slut, you woke me up" "bitch shut the fuck up, your the whitest person in this entire school" i threw my legs out of the bed and stood up. "I know" he satrted to undress and threw my clothes at her. "Eh- dont give m-" she watched as i chanbed into grey skinney jeans, a white singlet top and a blacm leather jacket. "If you take a photo it'll last longer" she blushed "sorry! Its just that you have a really good body and im just-" "Ashers, you have an really nice body, your skinney, curvy, and tanned. In a peice of chalk with a curvy waist thats it. Stick with your shape. Its nice" she nodded and walked out as i started to put on eyeliner.

12:46 pm
Max's pov

You know those super annoying teachers who lecture you at the start of the week?and theyre like, old and shit. That's my homeroom teacher. Okay, i get she's old and just wants us to go far in life but man, she can go fuck herself.
I sat there bordly, wondering when kai would be here. I dont know what i would do without her, we have been dating for two years now, i just hope it will last longer.

Problem, she's becoming distant. Not z good sort of distant either, a worrying type of distant. Since her mum disowned her she had just been...off. as soon as she walked intk the room i pulled her onto my lap. "Hey there pri- oh god" i cringed and turned my head away, she smelt horrible. But not the sort of im wearing dirty clothes smell. More the i've been around hippies smell. "What?" She whimlered, holding her arms around my shoulders. "Why do you smell like weed?" I asked in a low voice, trying to hide it from other students. She smelt her jackdt, then shrugged "i dunno" she rested her head on my shoulder. "Tired?" She nodded. "Do you just wanna stay here on my lap?" She nodded again.

12:50
Ashleys pov

Since i met kai, i had the biggest crush on her. Truth be told, it hurt's me so much seeing her with max. Smiling, and being as beautiful as she was it just....yeah.
When i walked into the classroom the first thing i saw was max and kai cuddling, the teacher wasn'r here yet sadly, so they didnt have to let go of eachother just yet. But when they did, i would be happy. I know, i sound like a bitch for saying it but it's true!

1:00pm
Kais pov

It had been a long couple of hours, my lips wgere pressed shut, kai was in front of my smiling and talking to ashley and cody. She was honestly so amazing, i loved her so much! I wasn't up for talking today, i felt ddpressed again. Usually in situations like these i would just get up and pull out my bong, but nobody knew i did drugs and i didn't plan on letting anyone know.

Especially not max. If she knew, i would either die or get dumped. The death bit im okay with, but if shes the one who kills me i'll be living the rest of my ghost life knowing she hates me. But if she dumoed me, well....i would kill myself anyway. I didnt want to loseher, i loved her too much.
I brought my knees upto my chest and put in my headphones, playing 'youre going down' by sick puppies. I put it on full volume and pulled out my english book, starting to write a story.

Suddenly i heard a loud slam, looking up i saw max's hand on the table, she was looking directly at me. I took out both of my headphones and looked up at her. "Hm?" She chuckled. "Are you okay? You seem off..." i shrugged "just...tired i guess" i took a sip of my coffee. "Im gonna go back to my dorm, im done for the day" she sighed "want me to co-" "nono, im good." She tentativly nodded, as i rushed to pack my stuff and left.

1:30

As soon as i got back to ths dorm, i sbut the door and opned the window. I pulled out  y suitcase from under the bed and searched for a bag of weed and lighter. As i pulled out the bong i heard  knock on the door. "Hey baby i fo-" max paused, holding my phone and staring at the bonv in shock. "What the fuck??!"