5 days ago

Coleen

I clapped my hands as I finished editing my video. 

At last! After more than 2 hours of editing natapos ko na rin ang Halloween video na ginawa namin sa hotel.

I know my subscribers will be enjoying this video, because this is so hilarious and really fun.

We girls did a lot of embarrassing moments at the Natasha Hotel sa Alabang. Sayang nga lang umuwi agad si Bella, hindi tuloy siya nakasama sa mga videos.

The video was all about Halloween before and Halloween now a days. It was super fun! 

I remember 'yung ibang tao 'dun, they are staring at us dahil mga naka halloween costumes kami habang papuntang room namin. 

But we just drop them off, no more feeling of embarrassment because I'm with them naman. No worries.

And I'm so happy na napilit ko si Kyle na i-video kami. I know he'll do good because he's a photographer. But you know, he doesn't want to support our embarrassing kind of video, pero buti na lang napapayag ko.

And that was once in a life time! Imagine! Pumayag si Gabriella to be the skull girl. Siya pa naman 'yung ayaw mababoy 'yung mukha. And at last! Ate Patty's golden hand in doing make ups was revealed!

After ilang minutes, natapos ko na rin i-upload 'yung video.

And after about 5 minutes, I gained likes and good comments too!

That's why I really love my subscribers! They we're very instant! Lagi ata silang naka-abang sa youtube for new videos!

I looked at the clock, and I have 1 hour more to get ready.

I still go to school, as you all know. Naiinggit nga ako kila Ate Michelle, Bella, and Michelle. Except Gabi, cause she just graduated pero tambay lang siya kasi di siya nakapasa ng boards.

They are able to do whatever they want now, kahit si Gabi na wala parin work, but at least they are all free from the hell a.k.a school. 

But on the other side, I'm still happy, dahil I still get all the benefits as a student, like I have my allowance and get to buy all I want not even using my own money.

Tumayo na ako and then decided to take a shower.

After taking a shower, I texted Kyle to say he can pick me up, nagbibihis na lang naman ako.

I don't do heavy make-ups. Actually, I hate putting make up, I just don't feel that comfortable wearing make-up. Kaya foundation and lip tint lang nilalagay ko. 

After I dress up, bumaba na ako at lumabas. But Kyle wasn't there yet.

Tumingin ako sa dalawang gilid, but there's no car at all going to my direction.

That was odd. Laging maaga si Kyle kapag susunduin niya ako. Sa halos 5 months na kami, he's always an early bird.

15 minutes na lang bago mag-start ang class ko.

I tapped my feet on the floor while waiting.

Asan na ba 'yun?

I tried calling him, but he doesn't answer. 

5 minutes na lang malelate na ako...

I decided to call ate Patty, na pinakamalapit sa subdivision namin, dahil parang kapit-bahay ng subdivision namin 'yung condo niya.

"Hello? Ate Patty? Are you free? Pwede pahatid po ako?"

"Yes, sure. Wait me in a minute, magpapalit lang ako. Nasan ba si Kyle?"

"Eh, hindi sumasagot eh. Naka-leave pa naman si manong driver."

"Mag driving lessons ka na kasi." She said with a laugh.

No way! I mean, I still don't have the guts. Wala pa talaga ako sa zone na matuto mag-drive. I tried before, and it was a disaster!

"Sige bye na. Wait for me okay?" She said then end the call.

I really thank God I have Ate Patty. She's like the oldest saamin lima kaya siya 'yung tumatayong ate. She's really my ate, since I'm an only child, she serves as my older sister. 

Buti na lang at wala siyang work ngayon.

Kainis naman kasi si Kyle! 

Kung 'di niya ako maihahatid, dapat nagsabi man lang siya. But whatever, baka may emergency.

So I just left him a message na papunta na akong school, and if ever wag na niya akong sunduin.

I heard a beep sound and saw ate Patty's car coming near.

"Dapat kanina ka pa nagpasundo, male-late ka na ata." Said Ate Patty nang makapasok na ako sa car.

"Eh, hinihintay ko nga si Kyle, mukhang 'di naman na makakarating." I replied. 

She didn't answer anymore, she just drove the car fast papuntang University.

"Thank you so much Ate Patty! I owe you! Laters!" I said then gave her a flying kiss.

I rushed to my room. Buti na lang 'Pag dating ko, kararating palang nung prof namin, because wala pa naman silang ginagawa.

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After my last class I tried texting and calling Kyle again, pero wala talaga. Hindi siya nag-rereply at sumasagot sa mga tawag ko.

I started to feel nervous. So I decided to visit his house na lang.

I'm already welcome their, naipakilala na niya ako sa parents niya, and so do I. Kaya parang kahit kelan pwede naman na ako pumunta sakanila.

Buti na lang maagang natapos 'yung last class ko, kaya marami pang oras.

Pumasok kaya 'yun?

Kailangan pa naman niyang mag-cope up, dahil these past few weeks lagi siyang absent, sabi niya he has to attend family business meetings outside the country. What can I say? His the heir of their family. 

I hailed the cab para maka-punta sakanila. Kahit na alam kong delikado, nag-cab pa rin ako.

Kyle never wants me to ride in a cab dahil it'll be one of the last option kapag sa transportation, it's either sa driver lang namin o sakanya.

Nakakahiya naman kasi kung magpapahatid ulit ako kay Ate Patty, malayo-layo din 'tong University mula sa condo niya.

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Malapit na ako sa bahay nila Kyle, medyo naligaw pa nga kami dahil namali ng liko si Manong driver.

I just hope na nasa bahay nila si Kyle.

One house aways sa bahay nila Kyle nakita kong nag-bukas 'yung pinto. 

Manong driver stopped driving para palabasin muna 'yung kotse mula sa bahay nila car.

Then nang maka-alis na 'yung kotse, nakita kong lumabas si Kyle. 

Manong Driver start driving again and stopped in front of their house.

Bumaba ako and saw Kyle, he's with a girl.... And as I can see she's pregnant. Maybe she's already 4 month old pregnant. 

I breathe in. Ayaw kong mag-isip ng masama. Kahit na naka-cling 'yung kamay nung girl sa arms ni Kyle.

I still refrain myself from thinking negative thoughts. Ayaw kong pangunahan si Kyle.

Nang umalis na 'yung cab, I start walking, then Kyle saw me and I saw him widened his eyes, obviously shocked.

"Uhm. Hi." I nervously said. 

I want to say instead, Hi! Please tell me that baby isn't yours.

But yeah, please. Tell me I'm right. That baby isn't yours right?

I scanned the girl, and she looks pretty decent. Mukha nga siyang mayaman eh. And it seems they were close...

"Coleen... uh..." Inalis ni Kyle 'yung arms niya sa pagka-cling ni girl.

"Napadaan ka?" He said.

I tried to smile.

"Ah... Bakit hindi mo ko sinundo at hindi ka rin pumasok?" I asked. I can't avoid myself looking at the girl again.

Hindi naman siya mikhang bitch, hindi rin mukhang mabait. 

Nakatingin lang siya saakin. 

Pero hindi sumagot si Kyle. He let out a deep sigh, "Diane, this is Coleen. Coleen, this is Diane. My fiance.." He said.

And I was stunned at what he just said.

"What?" I asked dumbly, I want him to repeat his words to confirm everything.

Para akong nabuhusan ng malamig na tubig. I can't believe it!

Fiance? Her? Ridiculous!

"I'm his fiance. Diane Montenegro." Sabi nung Diane. 

Tears start rolling down my face, I looked at Kyle, hoping he'll tell me that what I heard isn't right, that this is all some kind of a joke.

But he just looked away.

"I'm sorry, Coleen... I'm sorry." All he said.

I can't understand! The thoughts aren't sinking in my head! This can't happen!

"B-but... how?" I managed to ask while sobbing.

Umalis na 'yung babae at pumasok sa bahay nila Kyle. 

"I got her pregnant Coleen. It was all accident, until Aunt May decided that we should get married." He said not looking at me.

"Kyle.." I said then held his hand. 

He held it tighter. Mas lalo akong naiyak. 

I'm sobbing hard. I hugged him.

I wrapped my hands tightly at him, and he did the same. 

"I'm sorry.." He said and I felt a hot spot at my shoulder.

He wiped my tears then kissed me in the forehead.

"I love you, Coleen. You know that. And I know you love me too. But in what just happened, I don't think I'm deserving anymore for your love. I'm really sorry, I messed up. I fucking messed all up."

This was the worst part, gusto kong magalit sakanya, gusto ko siyang murahin, sampalin, but seeing him like this... I just can't. 

I sobbed harder, "You love me? But why did this happened?" I asked.

He wasn't able to answer. So I leave.