A/N hey guys, sorry for taking so long, life is difficult, love you all, thanks for reading!
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After having a whole day to myself, to rest and think things through, I've come to the conclusion that I HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHAT EVEN.
Basically, my emotions are a mess and I'm a mess.
I really really really like him...
But it just won't work out. I know it.
I just know in the bottom of my heart that even if this feeling were mutual- we wouldn't work out.
I'm not Korean, he's not Muslim.
I'm just an average weirdo- he's an idol.
You know?

I prepared my breakfast and sat down infront of the screen.
I have a couple hours before Jungkook arrives with Sungra and her sister.

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They should arrive in about 10 minutes and I'm really nervous- which doesn't make sense because Jungkook is the one meeting up with his crush, not me. My hands are already clammy...

I opened the door to see Jungkook accompanied by two girls, both of average height, one girl, had long wavy brown hair with what seemed like grey and honey undertones to it and hazel eyes... She looked... Not Korean? She was pale as she had surprisingly full lips for an Asian girl?
And the younger-looking one- slightly shorter than the first girl, Sungra I presume, had straight black hair and a full fringe, with light brown- almost honey-like eyes, her pale face instantly came to life as she blushed. I've been staring, of course she feels uncomfortable.
I continued staring, desperately trying to make a link between the two stunning girls.
They were both small and both beautiful, but that's about all they had in common, face shape, nose shape... Everything was different.

"So, Noona, this is Sungra, and this is her sister, Hana. Girls, this is my favourite teacher, Sena" He spoke up as he gestured towards the nervous girls.
Hana had a loud aura but she seemed extremely quiet, it was as if she were a reactive noble gas.
Sungra however, seemed like a group 1 element that reacts internally, so she only appears to be calm but in her head she may be having a breakdown.

"Hey, nice to meet you Sena." Hana spoke up, her voice wasn't deep but it had a soothing element to it which I couldn't explain. She'd be a good singer, definitely.

"Hi, thanks for letting us come here~" the little one said with a much more feminine and high pitched voice- contrasting with Hana's like sharp edges.

"Come, let's sit, anyone want anything to drink? Hana, come help me please, if you don't mind?"

Jungkook and Sungra awkwardly sat on the sofa, leaving a small gap between eachother, I saw them sneak a smile at eachother, before walking into the kitchen with Hana.

I started the kettle and prepared the necessary things, you know what they are, mugs, spoons, sugar...

"So... Uh Hana, if you don't mind me asking... Why do you look so different to your sister? And so... Un-Asian? I mean you have the single eyelid and the short height but..."
I awkwardly asked, she looked at me a lightly laughed.

"Chill, you don't need to tiptoe around the topic, I'm adopted, and I'm only half Korean, that's why." She calmly explained to me.
"OH THAT MAKES SO MUCH SENSE." I exclaimed a tad bit too loud.

"So, what do you think they're talking about?" I whispered as I leaned in towards her; and happened to catch a whiff of her hair- she smelt wonderful.

"Idk, school? Cats?" She suggested.

I brought in mugs of tea and coffee, we all sat facing eachother and discussed trivial things such as the weather, why we need opposable thumbs and things we enjoy eating.
During my pleasant exchange with the three youngsters, I discovered that Hana isn't a youngster at all and is actually only 2 weeks younger than I. And that she works in the music industry, she helps produce songs with/for idols, which I think is pretty awesome.
Sungra tells me Hana can sing and is, and I quote "pretty good at dancing and although she wouldn't be the main dancer, she would be able to keep up pretty well, my eonnie is the best ^^".

I wonder if she'll ever get to work with Bangtan. That'd be cool, plus I'd have a another girl here, my age, apparently she speaks English too.

With Sungra showing off Hana, Jungkook decided to show me off, aish this boy. ^^
"Well, Noona here can speak 3 languages and she knows 2 more but not fluently, a-and she DRAWS. I mean I draw too, but SHE DRAWS. I mean she DRAWS. Like actually properly draws... ^^'" he faded out after realising how loud he had gotten.

During our remaining time, I sat with Hana on the couch and the lovebirds sat next to each other on one of my desks, Jungkook was playing it cool but it was obvious that he was nervous- he couldn't take his eyes off of the ground nor stop fidgeting with his hands, his facial expression, however, was cool and confident throughout.

We had a surprise guest joining us- I opened the door to reveal a smiling Yoongi holding a few bags full of groceries.
He bobbed his head in and looked around, "uhmm, what's going on here?" He asked, eyes fixating on Jungkook.

We filled him in, and he filled us in- he was just stopping by and he had just bought the ingredients Jin had asked for and wanted to ask if I'd care to join.
The invite stretched out to Sungra and Hana of course.
I guess we have an hour or two before dinner then.
In the meantime, Yoongi joined in with my conversation with Hana.

"HI. I really... Really like your music..." HANA eventually blurted out- being the music nerd she is, she was absolutely ecstatic to meet a genius such as August D- him being adorable and beautiful to stare at was just a bonus to his talents.
I would love to tell you about what they discussed, but it's all music babble to me- "Octaves!.....Bridge!... Chord progression!..." And many other terms which I actually do not know.
They got along well, I sense a collaboration.

I walked off into the kitchen to sort a few things out, BLURRRP BLRRUURRP.
I got a message.
I stared anxiously at the 5 letters spelling out his name:
J  I  M  I  N-
Hey, what are you doing right now? Are you free? We need to talk.

What? My eyes lingered on each individual letter, in hopes of deciphering what he meant.

I messaged him back-
I'm with a few people, at my apartment right now... I guess I'm free

....
Silence.
I looked back up, I was doing the dishes and I left the water running, I finished off the boring chore and leaned against one of the counters. "Now what?" Is all I could think.
I jumped when my alert tone went off, I looked down at my screen:

It's best if we talk alone, can you come to the gym next door? I won't keep you long, I promise :)

I slowly dragged my feet along the floor as my mind raced through numerous scenarios about what could happen in the next 5 minutes.
"I'll be back I'm just checking on something, have fun guys!" I notified the remaining 4 in a fake cheerful tone.

I was happy to be able to see him, oh so very happy but the "we need to talk" is a bit... Nerve wracking you know?

I walked into the gymnasium to find Jimin in a vest and shorts, stretching on one of the mats.
I stared at how his calves wrapped around his legs, just the curves and angles of his athletic body- the visual aesthetic of Park Jimin.
I nervously walked up to him, he stood up to greet me.
"Hey, thanks for coming." He smiled and shuffled about at he fidgeted with his hands.
"Sure, don't mention it... What did you want to talk about?" I nervously asked.
I was chewing my bottom lip.
The suspense is killing me.

He looked at me and let out a light laugh, he smiled "oh don't be nervous it's nothing serious!" Jimin tried reassuring me as he ruffled his hair. His gorgeous- now amber orange- shiny hair.
He slowly exhaled, "I wanted to say, that I missed you ^^" and with that a cheesy grin appeared across his face.
His eyes practically becoming straight lines.

I froze up, he missed me? That was it?
IS HE KIDDING ME? I GOT SO NERVOUS.

He slowly took a step towards me-
Wait Park Jimin what are you-
And another step-
DUDE WHAT. *grabs mental inhaler*
I nervously laughed, he had his arms out, he was coming in for a hug.

Due to my current mental state I just kind of stood there like a tree while he wrapped his arms around me and held me tight.
I rested my face sideways against his chest and smiled to myself.
He wasn't sweaty, he probably just got back from his schedule and wanted to work out before dinner.

I could tell he was facing downwards- each time he exhaled I could feel his warm breath tickle my spine, I tried my hardest to hold in my laughter.
My back is sensitive af.

I was too busy enjoying the moment to notice how much time had passed, Jimin pulled away and let the cold air get between us, he rested a hand on each of my shoulders and looked me in the eyes.
"You like me, don't you?" He grinned.
"-actually you don't need to answer, I know I'm your favourite... I am your favourite....right?" He rhetoricated once again.

I tried to break eye contact to ease the tension, but I was captivated by how intensely beautiful his eyes were.
Mesmerised, I slowly nodded, not realising that I was somewhat confessing to him.

He flashed another pearly white smile and began "Good, I like you and you're my favourite too. I'm glad we have that cleared." He adjusted his top as he swallowed his saliva.

"Wha-" I was ready to question his thought process and sanity but I was cut off when he reached for my fringe, he pulled it back and placed it behind my ear.
Yes my side fringe is long enough to tuck behind my ear, BIG WOOP.

"Thanks?..." I managed to sound out after softly smiling in gratitude, although still mildly confused.
That was a serendipity alright.
I was filled with joy and guilt... Could we? Could it? I mean what if? HAH no...

After that I headed back, Jimin had to work out and I had guests at my apartment.
I stopped for a moment in the hallway.... Processing...Did Jimin just tell me he likes me?
Why am suddenly so worried?
I have strange gut wrenching feeling.
Oh.
I know why.
Not being with him at first only hurt me, now it'll also hurt him... If he actually likes me that is.
"You stupid idiot." I whispered to myself.
I stopped mid-hallway and leaned against the ice cold wall, I looked up at the ceiling and slowly breathed. He's something I can never have, it's impossible.
"Idiot. Letting yourself actually believe that for a moment it would work out."
I manically laughed at myself and re-entered my apartment.
I could feel a burning sensation dance around my body, I brushed it off and joined in on Hana and Yoongi's conversation.

They asked me where I went off to-
"Nothing, I had to check up on something. Don't worry about it- some sort of... Malfunction?"

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Due to the overload of guests, for tonight they were opening up the table, stretching it out? Pulling out the extra plank of wood to slot into the centre of the table? You know what I mean.

What had Jinnie ever so graciously prepare you ask? DELICIOUS FOOD. STEAK AND MASH POTATO AND RICE WITH PEAS AND SWEETCORN.
And... Apple and cinnamon muffins.
Yes.

I sat next to Sungra and Hana, across us sat Jimin, Yoongi and Jungkook. Hobie, Namjoon, Tae and Jin occupied the remaining seats.
Upon seeing the food on the table, Namjoon blurted out to Jin "Marry me." As he drooled all over the table.
We were all enjoying our meal- everyone making comedic remarks about Jungkook growing up and falling in love and about how if all musical producers were are pretty as Hana, most of them would've wanted to be producers rather than idols- of course, Hana blushed and fell silent after objecting with a pathetic "Nooooooo".

I made a few comments here and there, trying my best to act natural I tried my best not to look at Jimin... But my eyes were drawn to him. I couldn't help it.
He lightly smiled at me and said nothing.
For a while everyone focused on their food and
Namjoon took over the discussion, he was mainly complaining about how difficult the choreography they're doing is- and how he's aching all over from dance practice.
The discussion somehow migrated to my teaching ability, most of the boys trying to show off.
Hana finally rejoined the discussion-
"Hey, I've heard of the school you said you worked at? My neighbour told me a friend of his went there, he told me he really enjoyed his English classes! I'm pretty sure you were the teacher he was mentioning ^^" She enthusiastically added.
Yoongi gained a sudden interest in the discussion after Hana's contribution,
"Oh, really? That's great! Do you remember his name by any chance? Maybe Sena knows him?"
He asked.
I waited with anticipation for her response.

JIMIN'S POINT OF VIEW.

I finished chewing the chunk of steak in my mouth and swallowed it.
The taste of countless spices and sauces pleasantly lingering on my taste buds.

The pale girl, Hana, spoke once more to reply to Yoongi hyung's question,
"Ah I'm not quite sure actually, I didn't know him personally... Uh.... AH I think his name was Suho? Do you know him?" She asked in a bubbly tone.
Everyone fell silent.

My mind went blank.

Suho.

I felt a sensation of inevitable rage slowly seep into every cell in my body.
My hands formed fists instantly.
My fingers turning white under the pressure.

Suho.

I clenched my jaw and swallowed hard.
I tried to steady my breathing, but it was no use.

Suho.

I hurled my fist at the table-
"Oh that pathetic- piece of shit excuse for a human being that attacked and harassed Sena? That touched her? That invaded her? And scarred her? The dirty prick that laid unwanted hands on unwanted places? -The asshole who probably was the one that broke into her apartment and rummaged through her personal belongings? And slammed her into a wall? Who hurt her? That guy? Oh, yeah. We know the bastard."
I blurted out in disgust, unable to stop myself.

After releasing my rage- I felt a rush of relief- but a sudden pang of pain followed.
My eyes slowly drifted to Sena.
She sat there, frozen- yet shivering.
Holding back her tears.

"Sena-" I attempted to begin my apology but she was already gone.

Everyone thought Suho 'just got violent'.
The bastard did more than that, but Sena didn't want anyone to know that.

"Jimin... What did you just say?... He.. He..." Yoongi whispered before fading out. Everyone was in shock- but above all, they seemed furious at Suho and somewhat disappointed in my lack of self control.

I Embarrassed her and enabled her to literally relive everything she's been trying to forget.

I stood up and went after her.

A/N- HELLOOOOOO NEXT CHAPTER IS PLANNED AND ITS 4AM SO NO PROFF READING AND I AM SUPER HUNGRY BUTTT I DONT HAVE TO PEE SO THATS SOMEHING!
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