I don't want tomorrow to be the last day of his class...

I know I'll see him in the hallway, I know I can visit him after school, but I just don't know if I can handle not getting to spend an hour and a half each day listening to his voice, admiring him, and laughing at his jokes.

I also don't know what I'll do with myself tomorrow.  How do I say goodbye? I could hug him, but I really think that'd be weird.  I've already asked him for a hug a month or so ago..  I'm giving him a gift, but I don't know if that'll be enough.  I could write a note maybe....

Or I could leave the page with the lyrics to the song I wrote about him on his desk...

Every part of me just wants to break down and tell him how I feel, but even if I do it discreetly, he'd have  to report me to faculty.  I just... don't want to get in trouble for being that one stupid kid who couldn't handle being professional and keeping her feelings to herself.

Not only that but I know if I confirm my feelings for him, he'll shut me out.  He'll push me away to try and force me to give up.  I don't want that.  More than anything I don't want that..

I don't want to turn our relationship sour by putting my feelings into the mix..

I don't want our interactions to become stiff, or for him to ignore me, or stop having long interesting conversations with me.

I don't want to completely lose access to him as a person, not just a teacher. 

But I HATE having to hold it in...

So my 2 options are, screw everything up completely and get in trouble, or suffer silently..

I don't want to go with either of those....

Someone please help..