felix walked into his english lecture, hoodie covering his bleached hair. his head hung low as he made his way to his seat.

"hey bud, you okay?" he looked up, seeing the small blonde girl who sat in front of him.

"i guess." he mumbled, she frowned and rubbed his knee in a form of comfort.

"if you need to talk, i'll listen." she said, he nodded, she was majoring in psychology and he knew that but he didn't bother to tell her what was going on in his head.

"here, this is my number. text me." she wrote her number down in his note book and he gave her a thumbs up.

"wheres ryder?" felix mumbled to himself, looking around for the boy who was not yet in class. within a few seconds ryder came running through the doors, earning a hard glare from the TA.

"hey babe." ryder said, hugging felix who just leaned into the older but didn't pull away. "stuff still bad with chan?" he asked.

"i told him i forgive him but it hurts so bad, every time i see him i think to him and calum kissing. he's constantly doing shit to make up for it but i just think i need space from him." felix confessed, leaning his head on ryders shoulder.

"come stay at the dorm with me, luke is away on vacation with his parents so hes not gonna be there and i miss my roommate." ryder said, felix smiled weakly.

"i'll think about it."

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felix walked home after class, not wanting to bother chan to come pick him up. he walked into the house seeing evan laying on the couch sleeping.

"i dont even know who all lives here anymore." felix muttered to himself, going up to his and chans room, the older nowhere in sight. he grabbed a duffle bag and went to his closet, pulling a few shirts, pants, leggings and skirts. he went to his dresser and grabbed some underwear. he saw chans black hoodie laying on the ground, he picked it up and smelt it holding it tightly before stuffing it in his bag. he grabbed his bathroom necessities before going back downstairs so he could leave.

"hey fe- why do you have a duffle bag?" evan asked, felix looked at the bag in his arms and then back to evan.

"i-i cant stay here." he mumbled.

"what? why?" evan asked, getting up from the couch.

"chan, he hurt me and i told him that i forgive him but i dont. i can barely look at him, let alone sleep in the same bed. i just need some space for a bit, time to clear my head." he answered, evan frowned and his eyes looking behind felix. the younger turned around seeing a pale face chan, looking like he was holding back hard sobs.

"if thats how you feel then im willing to let you do that, if its what makes you happy." chan said.

"chan its not gonna be permanent." felix claimed, going to hug the older.

"no, felix just go..." chan pushed him away. "pl-please." his voice cracked as he kept himself from breaking down.

felix sighed and grabbed his stuff before leaving.

"i love you." felix mumbled before walking out the door.

"i-i love you too." chan fell to the floor in a heartbreaking sob, evan ran over to him and took him into his arms.

"he-he hates me." chan cried, his face soaked in tears, he was letting out loud sobs, almost unable to breath. it was so heartbreaking for evan to see, as chan rarely showed his feelings.

"hey, hey. breathe, you're gonna over work yourself. shh shhh its okay." evan ran his hand through the olders hair as he tried to calm himself on for him to overwork himself to the point he had to run to the bathroom and throw up.

"im gonna need help." evan mumbled before creating a new groupchat.