"lix, its been 2 weeks, you need to talk to chan or at least answer woojin before he has a heart attack." ryder said as felix declined another one of his friends calls.

"i'll go to the house later." felix mumbled, he got up and went to the kitchen to pour himself a bowl of cereal. felix was scrolling through his memories as he ate and ended up seeing a picture of chan laying in bed, his shirt off and grey sweats tugging at his waist.

he sat there, looking at the picture, remembering that moment.

flashback

"i love you." chan said from the bed as felix sat on his chair at his vanity doing his makeup.

they had just gotten into some silly argument. felix was "ignoring" chan who repeatedly apologized and told him he loves him.

"baby. i love you, im sorry." chan whined and felix stifled a laugh. "felix cmon. i know you're just doing this to get back at me." chan groaned, laying all the way on the bed.

felix looked over seeing chan stretched out on the bed, looking flawless. so he quickly snapped a picture.

"i love you too."

end of flashback

felix wiped his tears from his cheeks and put his bowl in the sink before getting up. he pulled on a hoodie and some jeans before leaving the dorm.

he walked until he reached his destination, home.

hesitant to enter, he turned the knob seeing the house almost abandoned. he walked up to his and chans room seeing a hole in the wall and clothes and books thrown everywhere. seeing as no one was in any of the bedrooms he checked the studios.

first jisungs, empty.

then changbins, empty.

lastly, chans.

he slowly opened the door and saw chan with his head resting against his desk. music sheets scattered everywhere and papers crumped and lazily thrown in or near the trashbin.

"chan?" felix spoke quietly, the sleeping boy stirring awake.

"woojin, i said im fine, now leave me alone." chan hissed, his eyes still closed. thats when felix noticed the three empty bourbon bottles under his desk.

"chan, please wake up." felix crouched down to level with chan as he sat in the chair.

"f-felix?" chans voice cracked as he opened his eyes to see him.

"yeah, its me." felix responded with a half smile, chan brought him into a hug, crying almost instantly.

"im so sorry, i love you." chan cried.

"shhh, chan. i love you, its all gonna be okay. we're gonna be okay."