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Louis parked his car outside the gym ; he just got done with another meeting with Jannet and wanted to go see Harry training . He walked into the place and waved with a smile at Rick , the guy at the front desk , Rick waved back before going back to talking on the phone .

Louis walked down the hall , entering the gym but stopping on the doorway at the sight of Harry holding a guy's hips as the guy , looking quite thin , was lifting bars in front of the mirror .

Soon the guy put the weight bar down and turned to Harry with a smile , they talked a little but Louis couldn't hear . The guy brought his hand up to Harry's bicep and gave it a squeeze , Harry smiled and nodded , saying something back .

Louis' breath hitched as the guy pushed his hand under Harry's shirt and felt his abs , Harry didn't even try pushing his hand , in fact , he was guiding his hand around to feel more muscles .

The guy smiled and nodded before pulling his hand back , turning back to the bar . Harry's hands returned to the guy's hips as he talked to him , nodding his head and once in a few lifts his right hand moved to the guys' lower back .

Louis wanted to turn away and stop watching them , but on the other side he wanted to go confront the two . But he just stood there , almost as if he's paralyzed .

"Hey , Louis ." Paul walked into the gym , smiling at Louis . Louis shook out of his shock and turned to face him , "Hi Paul ."

"Harry is over there , with a new guy . He's been here a few times already and I asked Harry to help him , show him how to use the equipment correctly ."

Louis nodded , though he still strongly disliked how they were touching each other .

He approached them , the guy put the bar down and turned to Harry , now seeing Louis behind him . He raised an eyebrow , "Hello , can we help you ? We're kind of in the middle of something ."

"Didn't know I need permission to come see my husband ." Louis said innocently , though he still glared at the guy .

"Husband ? You didn't tell me you have a husband ." The guy turned to Harry , who now took a step towards Louis and held his hand . Harry nodded , "Yeah , this is Louis , my husband . Louis , this is Andy , Paul asked me to help him around a little ."

"By the way you were touching me I think it was more than 'helping around' ." Andy smirked a little , "Didn't know you were the cheating type . It's kind of hot ."

"Hey , I am not cheating on Louis ." Harry shot quickly , "I'll go ask Paul to find someone else to help you ."

"You know , I thought we had something ." Andy faked being hurt , though inside he was celebrating as he succeeded in hurting Louis .

"We had nothing , you are nothing compared to Louis ." Harry said and took Louis' hand , walking with him out of the gym . Once in the locker room Louis pulled his hand out of Harry's grip , "Is it true ? What that Andy guy said , is it true ?"

Harry turned to face him with an angered expression , "Don't you fukcing dare believe it ."

Louis looked down , he believed Harry of course , but he couldn't help but be insecure . He flinched when Harry punched the lockers angrily , turning to Louis . "So you don't trust me now , do you ? We're fucking married Louis , get the hell over this insecurity ."

Before Louis could say anything Harry grabbed his bag from his locker and slammed it shut , making Louis flinch again . Louis watched sadly as Harry walked out of the locker room without waiting for him .

He took a deep breath and blinked his tears back before quietly following him , he got out of the place right in time to see Harry speeding off in his car .

He got into his own car , though he didn't start it . He just sat there with his hand over his face as tears rolled down his cheeks . He knew Harry deserves better .

He sat there for a few minutes before wiping his cheeks and his eyes , taking a deep breath to calm himself down . He started the car and pulled out of the parking spot , deciding to drive around a little . He wanted to give Harry some space to cool down .

He drove around a little , parking his car to get himself some ice cream . He sat at a park bench as he ate his ice cream as slowly as he could , sighing because his phone's battery is competely empty . He sat at the park some more , and before he knew it it was dark . He got back to his car and drove home , parking in the driveway .

With heavy steps he walked into the house , and as he closed the door Harry was quick to embrace him .

"You had me worried sick , where were you ?? Your phone is dead , I called your mum and Winter and Zayn and Niall , no one knew where you were ." Harry pulled back to look at him , Louis bit his lower lip , "Sorry ."

"Where were you ?"

"I - I drove around a little . Wanted to give you space to cool down ."

Harry took a small breath and nodded , bringing his hand up to cup his cheek . "I'm sorry about what I said ."

"Don't be . You're right ." Louis shook his head , "I'm a grown person , we're married , you'd never cheat ."

"I figured how it looked from the side , with all the touching ." Harry rubbed his thumb on his cheek , "I will never cheat on you ."

"I know . I'm sorry ." Louis looked down , Harry lifted his head up and kissed his lips , "I made some dinner . You hungry ?"

"Not much ." Louis shook his head , letting Harry take him to the table .

He pulled a chair out for Louis , "You don't have to finish it all , eat as much as you want ."

Louis sat at the table , he ate a few bites of his food before picking at it . He didn't have an apetite , Harry's words still on his mind .

Get the hell over this insecurity 

"Are you done , Boo ?" Harry asked , pulling Louis out of his thoughts . Louis nodded , "Yeah , I'm not hungry anymore ."

Harry bit his lower lip and nodded , taking their plates to the sink . When he was back Louis was still at the table , so he placed his hands on his waist and kissed his temple , "Let's go to bed , lovely ."

They walked into their bedroom , Louis took Harry's hands off him , "I'm going to shower ."

Harry nodded , watching Louis getting himself sweatpants and a shirt before getting into the bathroom .

Louis placed his clothes on the counter and stripped to his boxers , when his eyes landed on himself in the mirror . His lower lip wobbled and his vision became blurry from tears , feeling his mind getting cloudy .

Get the hell over this insecurity

You're an insecure , useless piece of shit

Harry deserves better than you

Before he could process what's going on in his mind , with heavy breathing he reached for Harry's shaving razor , pulling the waistband of his boxers down . He didn't bother pulling one blade out of the razor , he just dragged the razor across his hip four times before he realized what he's doing .

He dropped the razor and looked down to his hip , letting out a choked sob . He covered his mouth in his hands and slid down to the floor , his whole body trembling .

"Lou ? Lovely , are you okay ?" Harry knocked on the door , trying to hear what's going on inside . "I'm coming in , okay ?" He said and opened the door , heart breaking at the sight of Louis curled on the floor , crying . 

"Oh Boo ." He kneeled next to him and wrapped his arms around him , "Lou , what is it ? Talk to me ."

Louis couldn't talk , he just covered his face and sniffled . Harry wrapped one arm under his knees to pick him up , his other going around his back , but immediately pulling back at the feeling of something wet against his fingers .

His heart sunk in his chest as he saw blood on his fingers , moving to look down at Louis' other side ; new cuts on his hips , and his shaving razor laying on the floor with blood on it . He was paralyzed for a few seconds before shaking out of it , "Oh bug ..."

He scooped Louis up in his arms , holding him against his chest . Louis let his tears fall onto Harry's chest before he rasped out , "I'm s-sorry ."

"Don't be sorry , lovely . I pushed you to it , I'm so so sorry , my love ." Harry shushed him and kissed his forehead , "Let's get you cleaned up now , okay ?"

He helped him to his feet , grabbing a wash cloth from the cabinet . He wet it a little and cleaned Louis' cuts , kneeling down to press a few soft kisses to the damaged skin . He wrapped the cuts up and helped him get dressed before lifting him up in his arms to carry him to bed .

He sat back against the headboard with Louis laying on his chest , he rubbed his hand up and down his back and nuzzled his temple . 

"Bug , do you want to talk ?" Harry asked quietly in a calm voice , Louis swallowed the lump in his throat before sitting up , realizing he's sitting on Harry's thighs before pushing himself off . Harry caught on and pulled him back to sit on his lap , holding his waist to keep him there .

Louis wrapped his arms around himself and munched on his bottom lip to stop it from wobbling . "I - I just . You know I n-never feel good enough , even if I d-don't show it . And today , it just - triggered me , I guess . I'm sorry I let you down . -"

"You didn't let me down , lovely . You just got me worried ." Harry sat up more and kissed his forehead .

"I don't know how it h-happened . I looked in the mirror , then - then that voice was there . And I r-regressed ."

Harry wiped a stray tear and unwrapped Louis' arms from around himself , bringing them up to wrap around his neck as his own arms wrapped around Louis' waist , bringing him closer .

"I'm sorry my love , so sorry . I'm here , I'll always be here . I love you . I love you . I'm yours and you're mine , forever ."

Louis slowly calmed down and pulled back a little , sniffling . Harry pressed their lips together , his hands reaching to the hem of Louis' shirt , pulling it off gently .

He turned them around and lied Louis down , holding himself above his small husband . He unattached his lips to press soft kisses around Louis' face , giving his neck two soft kisses and smiling as he shied away .

He kissed his collarbones , shoulders and chest softly , moving down to kiss around his stomach and sides . He smiled against his skin as Louis let out a light giggle , attempting to push him away . He couldn't resist the urge before dipping his thumbs softly into the sides of his stomach , grinning as Louis giggled and squirmed around .

He lifted himself up and pressed his lips back to Louis' , "I love you , Boo ."

"Love you too ." Louis whispered against his lips .

Harry made slow love to him , taking his time kissing him all over and whispering in his ear . Louis ended up crying , he was so content and the affection was getting to him .

"I want you to know that I'm always here , okay ?" Harry said quietly , his fingers running through Louis' hair . Louis nodded , "I know . Thank you ."

Harry kissed his cheek , "Get some sleep now , okay ? I love you ."

"I love you more ." Louis cuddled into his chest , Harry smiled , "No , I love you more ."

"No you don't . I love you more ."

Harry wrapped his arms around him tightly and tickled him , "I love you so so so much more , my bug ."

Louis laughed and pushed Harry away , though Harry was stronger so he ended up just giggling his heart out into his chest , his feet kicking helplessly .

Harry stopped and kissed his forehead , "You're so precious ."

"You're so annoying ." Louis pouted , though still cuddled back into his chest . Harry smiled , "Go to sleep . Night Boo ."

"Night Hazzie ."

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I don't even know what this chapter was . Sorry if you didn't like it .

~Author