Long time no see huh it's been awhile I know I've been gone you all probably forgot about me after all that happened long ago I know it's been to long an you guys use to be hoping to see a new chapter but gave up on the book I'm sorry to say I'm not continuing think that's obvious since I left for so long I'm so sorry to all of you I would've written sooner an it's no excuse but I felt scared or never had the guts to but today for some reason I actually felt like saying something an that's saying goodbye it's really stupid saying that now when I've been gone im truly sorry I realized now it's cause I finally feel at peace in my life for what happened was really tragic for me I had been cheated on felt betrayed and worse to see how my friends were hurt though maybe if someone says things about me that's their side of the story but it's all in the past now I am no longer angry or holding onto it I'm finally letting go of it all it doesn't mean I fully forgive for what they have done but I don't blame them cause I don't know why it all happened I tried I really did try my best to help an forgive but I just felt more broken than how I was but now everything feels at ease I don't feel as much anxiety I don't feel fear as much or I'm self conscious as I use to of people around me I'm finally happy an not paranoid of others leaving or keep thinking I'm gonna hurt them or get hurt though it doesn't mean I hate for what happened cause if it all didn't happen I wouldn't be where I am now nor right now if I fall ever again I'll get back up an it'll make me who I am in the future as for the books I think I'll chose someone to give them to instead of just having them end there I'm truly sorry for not saying sooner but I'm better now yes I'm still having issues but not like before where I had faked my smile I'm at ease now with my loved ones the special people in my life like my best friend who's been by my side an we both feel our friendship is real like no other I have her and all the ones I care for I'm feeling more comfortable with my family especially my mom I kinda had issues for the first time with my dad but over all it worked out like father like daughter I've feel ease with my siblings I have great teachers not all people around me like me but I am who I am I don't worry for their options I have someone I love I have better friends better company around me

This is me (brown hair) soon to be 15 an my best friend by my side, life has gotten better now
For those who I knew an had or still have issues in life I'm sorry I couldn't try harder to help you all but I promise life will get better it's cheesy to say but when you fall just get back up your here now aren't ya

P.S I also got a new artist name for myself now.
Natari~