I was currently sat in my car. Waiting for Hayes to fly in. The nerves had already arose in my stomach. Making the very empty pit in my stomach feel like poison. All I wanted to do was throw up. I couldn't. I just couldn't do this. I shouldn't be here. When I saw Hayes approach I wiped away the tears on my face. The ones I'd silently let out. The ones I weren't expecting to be here. The pain had already set in. "Hey, you, how are you doing?" He asked me and I looked at him. A sad smile on my voice.

"Hey." I said to him and that's when the door opened. I looked away. I'd regret this whole conversation.

"Oh, god. I tell you, that flight, oy. I am so tired." He said and that's when he wrapped his arms around me and kissed my head. "Mwah." He got out. And that's when I started handing him his watch.

"There's that's for you." I said to him not looking at him. Letting my silent tears fall. My voice still hadn't cracked yet.

"Oh, thank you very much. Why'd you give me the watch? And why aren't we moving?" He asked me and I looked at him. Taking in the last time we'd be together. My heart hurting me more. "Hey. Y/n, Y/n, what's wrong?" He asked me and I looked at him.

"I...I can't do this anymore. This relationship. Us being together. I just can't do it anymore. It's affecting Brea." I said to him. My voice finally breaking like it had wanted to.

"Okay, um..." He got out and I knew that whatever he was thinking. I'd thought it all last night. I couldn't sleep at all.

"It's just...it's causing her a lot. She's going through so much and it's because of me. Knowing she's not happy is making me unhappy. She didn't ask for any of this. I need to put her first, always." I said to him and I couldn't look at him. I knew that this was it.

"Okay. Okay, let me just, um...let me just think about this for a second. Um...I mean, look, I-I could quit. I could quit all of it." He said to me and I looked at him shaking his head.

"I can't let you give up everything." I said to him and that's when he started to chuckle.

"I'm f- -I'm fine with doing that. I could do that." He said to me and I shook my head at him.

"Things will only get worse from there." I said to him and that's when I started breaking down again. Hayes went silent for a moment before he looked back at me.

"Please don't do this, Y/n. Please." He said to me and I couldn't look at him.

"You need to go. Please." I said to him and I couldn't move my eyes away from the road ahead.

"You're not gonna fight for us?" He asked and I couldn't. I was silent. I heard him undo his seatbelt and get out. Grabbing his stuff and walking away. Leaving me, crying. Thinking about everything. I then drove to the elote stand. That's what I needed. When I got home I instantly cried. No one was here. It was just me. Brooke and Jay were working late at the studio. I heard my phone go off from beside me.

*one new message from Hayes 💔*

Open your door

The message read and that's when I started towards the front door. And there he was. Standing out on my front door step. He looked like he'd been crying. "I auditioned for the band when I was 14. It shouldn't ruin a whole life." He said to me and I looked at him.

"It won't, I promise. You will go on and have the best life that anyone could ever live. I'm so sorry." I said to him and this was hurting even more than earlier.

"I love you, Y/n." He said to me and that felt like a punch to my gut.

"I love you, too." I said to him and he walked over and kissed me. We closed the door behind us. This would be it. He picked me up and walked me over to the counter. Kissing me again. Neither of us wanting it to end. For fear this would be the last time we'd be together. When we pulled apart he looked at me.

"Just promise me you'll revisit this in five years. Brea will be out of school, living her life in Thailand. And I'll be some D-list celebrity that nobody gives a shit about." He said to me as my head was on his chest. Five years felt like a whole lifetime away.

"That's too far away. If someone comes into your life that makes you happy like I do, you go for them. And I will, too, okay?" I asked him and he nodded at me. We then kissed for what would be the last time in five years. If that ever happened. I watched as he walked out. Leaving his watch behind. Something for me to have. That would be why he would come back. I slide down the wall to the ground and just cried. This was going to be a long time waiting. Would I even be the same person in five years. I don't think I would be. But who knows.