'Please leave a message for -'

I'm ready to throw my phone out the window, I could almost give myself a face lift from the way I keep massaging the temples of my head.

Now she can't respond? But practically blew up my phone with missed calls. I feel sick, my stomach in knots with hot bile crawling up my throat, of all the levels she dropped, this one was the lowest of the low. Not even I would have thrown her under the bus even if I was bribed with hundreds of millions of dollars.

Well actually ...

"You're quiet," The detective says beside me. Dark Eyes facing the road stoically.

"How could you have anything to say in this moment?"

"There is many things to say" he chuckled.

My irritation burning, of course it's easy to laugh, no one is sharpening spears with his name on it. "Can you please not?" I force a calm voice despite the Tension burning my veins.

"Not what?"

"Not like laugh in this moment? Because we well I am sort of busted right now? I need time to think." My chest heaves, a part of me wants to unleash the rage onto him, but what would it help? In the end the real ones in power will go unscathed while I screamed at an innocent man.

Like New York itself, my life is A melt pot. Sinking lower and lower into the unknown chaos I call life.

I can't even blink without my mind creating the worst things imaginable, "My life is over" I whispered out loudly, too many things spiraling out of control to keep it piled up inside.

"It's over for me," my chest heaving with tears threatening to escape. "I can't walk the streets anymore." I sniffled, the more I came in tune, the more my heart pounded, afraid of what's to come and how I'll be able to handle it.

"My mother ... was right?" I son put with a chuckle, words my Haitian pride ever wanted to admit, I mean she probably was always right, I just didn't like her tone.

Nothing but me myself and I as huff, laugh and cry out everything inside. Hoping for any type of reassurance, even a small gesture of flirting would do at this moment, even though I just shut him down for chuckling, a simple 'it's going to be ok' would have sufficed.

Peering over to meet his side profile, the tears blur my vision and I blinked out. An expression of stoicism, dark eyes distant, no smile or emotion but the tightening of fists on the wheel.

"Nothing?" I huffed

His Adams apple throbs from his swallow before he exhaled.

"Now you're quiet?"

"Only granting your wish princesa" He says in one breath, passive aggressive tone.

Feeling my glare he turns to meet my eyes as the car pulls up to a stop sign. "Jane" he breathed, "listen -"

"No, it's ok. I mean I brought you far enough in this case" it all makes sense, no point of yelling.

"No Jane, please listen"

"I got you far enough in the case so of course, the investigation must go on and you have to cut loose ends" my eyes glossing, but I force to look out the window.

I can feel his gaze burning my cheeks, "You can drop me off at Tanika's place please and don't worry I won't tell anyone anything."

"Jane -"

"I hope in the end you can still accomplish your goals and bring them down,"

"Please listen -"

"Times ticking detective, I need to go check on my mother and prep for a big downfall" I was interrupting, but I didn't care, nothing in this moment could be uplifting.

With a defeated exhale, the car began to move, as my phone began to vibrate. Just the person I wanted to hear from but is afraid to speak to.

Clearing my throat as I glanced up to the roof of the car, "Hey" my voice broke.

"Jane, girl what's wrong?"

That was fast, "What makes you think something is wrong?" I chuckled, silently sniffling.

"You sound like Shakira with a cold"

My brows furrow, I couldn't decide if it's a good thing or a bad thing. But it seemed to be the breaking point.

"They found out Tanika"

"Who found what?"

"Cameron, he found out about the book"

"Girl what!" Astonishment evident in her voice.

"Yes" I sniffled.

"How?"

"Justine" no hesitance this time. "She really told her man and her man told Cameron everything"

"Hmmm." She hums, as if in thought.

"I understand it's going to put you in a tight spot, the detective is bringing me to the place and I'll be out by the evening and -"

"Where are you going?" She cuts in. "Now is the time for us to stick together more than ever Jane. You're not going no where, just check on your mother"

Hearing those words only made the tears pour harder.

"I been told you I am here until the end, I know how you're feeling Jane, but something tells me that there is some good in this."

My brows furrowed, "Good in this, how?"

"Girl I don't know, but we will figure it out, You and detective get here now."

I glanced over to him, "Well Tanika he -"

"On our way" he roared. I hear her giggling through the speakers before the line cuts.

"Your staying?"

"I was never leaving princesa, rest we will speak once we are in a closed confinement."

I argued no further, instead turned my vision to the window beside me watching the trees pass by, my mind constantly shifts back and forth between good and bad. A part of me wants to cower and hide under breath the earth, or become a nomad. If I hide, it'll be a win for them, and my Haitian mother would kick my ass for allowing myself to be a loser.

A much needed rest was necessary, if only I could close my eyes, staring at everything inanimate when I suddenly felt strange, Maybe it was the inner battle between myself or maybe the shift and emotions of the car.

"Stop!"

The tires screeched scuffing the ground before coming to a complete stop. Frantically I open the door and projectile vomited onto the street, the steam from the tires scuffs fanning my face.

"Are you alright?" I hear his deep concerning voice behind me. Fingers rubbing my backside.

Before I can respond my stomach regurgitates the acid, Vomiting over and over again until there was nothing left.

Embarrassing, Flat humiliating. Yet was too dizzy to open my eyes and acknowledge the scene. "Sorry" I say turning away from his eyes.

Leaning in "Are you alright?"

"Mhmm" refusing to talk to him with vomit breath.

"Need a hospital?"

His concerns were genuine, but I just wanted to get home and lie down. "No, I'm just stressed and nervous."

"Makes sense" he responded, proceeding to drive away. The rest of the car ride quiet as I dozed off.

A feathery touch on my arm and I shook, the afternoon sun dims to a purplish glow outside the horizon. Blinking repeatedly to come in tune but kept losing the battle due to my heavy eyelids.

"I'm glad you rested well" detective chuckles, voice thick but haven't been clear yet. "You slept for a Really long time, we're here"

I furrowed my brows with my eyes closed, forcing them open to a familiar scene, Tanika's apartment.

"Oh we're here perfect" I smile, still fighting off the strong urge to hibernate.

"Tanika will be down soon"

I hum to his fading voice. Falling into a much needed slumber before my ears perked with the sound of the door. A feminine woman in the background, faint laughter and concerns before I fell right back into a deep slumber.

My leg jerks and I wake up to a dark room, lying on a cushioned bed with a familiar scent. I nuzzle the pillow, feeling the warmth of the blanket that cocoons me with its warmth, I guess If I wake up I will have sprouted my beautiful wings and feel brand new.

I chuckle, slowly bringing my feet to the carpeted ground, rising to my feet. The tank top on my body dispositioned and one of my breasts spill out on the side, a wedgie from the spandex with my kinky curls disheveled.

Nope, still very much a Caterpillar. I think to myself wiping off the dried trail of drool on my left cheek.

Glancing around the dark room until looking out the window, the full moon peeking right in between a few trees in the background, fuck, How long was I out?

Faint giggling coming from the kitchen, turning around to the front door, underneath was a dim glow. Slight conversations could be hard but to muffled to understand. With me pretending to still be asleep be considered hiding?

My anxiety refuses to let me leave, knowing all eyes will turn to me. But I need to be surrounded by all the good energy right now, I winced to the door creaking but breathed hearing it didn't affect their conversation.

Tanika giggles, a masculine voice picking up with another feminine one from the kitchen. Detective is still here?

I clear my throat, fixing myself before heading out, anxiety biking down to my abdomen.

"It was a long ... " detective was the first to notice me, cutting off his sentence short when he glanced to my direction. Shortly after Tanika and her sister follow suit.

"How you feeling honey bun?" Tanika smiles coming over to me.

"Super weak" I hoarse. It was no lie, I'm ready to tumble over.

I'm guided to table, sitting in between detective and an empty seat, he sends a warm smile to me bringing his beer to his lips. Blazer ditched, dress sleeves rolled up to his elbows and the top three undone.

"You had me worried there princesa"

"Yea what's with you throwing up? And passing out like that?"

"Leave her alone " Alex thankfully chimed in, "Let her eat before we dive into any questions"

I didn't know just how hungry I was until An aroma enclosed me within. Instantly recognizing the scent, "Is that steak and bacon mashed potatoes?"

"Yes it is" she chuckles.

The plate is placed before me, without even lingering any longer I'm inhaling everything in front of me. Creamy mashed potatoes crushing under my teeth because of the crispy bacon, the juice of the steak dripping down my lips.

It reminded me of the meal I was to have at that mansion but never got a chance to.

A few giggles before they proceeded to their conversation, a few mocks but I didn't care.

"Have you ever had this meal before?" Alex asks, giggling softly.

"No, never"

"And you recognized it just by the scent, that's real hunger." Tanika laughs. Indeed it was.

I'm at my last bite but wasn't full, I was still hungry? I wanted to ask but didn't want to sound greedy.

"Oh I'll take that, we have been waiting on you" Alex cuts in, gathering my plate from me as she heads to the Sink.

"Waiting on me?"

Tanika sighs, Detective adjusted himself. "Yes Jane, we need to talk about the next step."

And now we were back to reality, I couldn't run from it for long.

"So tell us exactly what happened."

"We all went horseback riding, I uh" all eyes locked on me, absorbing every word and body language. "Mind you Cameron wasn't there the whole time, but than Seth had a call and went back to the mansion"

With two breaths I'm spilling out everything, replaying back every emotion and word even snitching on my self how majority of the time how remarkably horny I was.

Had this been a movie, there would have been some type melancholy music in the background with the camera slowly spinning around to capture everyone's reaction while I mouth words.

"Hmmmm, I get it."

Tanika Leans back in her seat, brows furrowed while looking to nothing in particular, Alex had come over beside us to sit, while detective looks in thought. Moments have gone by, no one says a word leaving me in the most awkward position.

Fuck, I should have left out me being horny, It played no significant part in the conversation but I said it anyways, Fucking hell.

"So, Cameron never asked you to delete it correct?" Alex speaks in the silence.

"No," I responded, everyone turning towards her, something spewing in her eyes as she looked over at detective who was nodding his head.

"No, he did not. Just made a comment telling me to consider myself an outcast of New York is all"

"Because of the book?" Tanika pitches in before looking around to everyone, Every time
I get left out of the loop but this time I couldn't just sit there and play dumb.

"Yes?"

"Jane, remember how I told you there might be some
Good in this?"

Slowly cocking my head, "Yes?"

"This time babe, you're going to discover this on your own."

"I want to, but I'm bad at guessing."

"There is no guess this time Princesa"

Fuck my slow brain, "Uh"

"Jane honey," Alex touches my
Arm softly. "Cameron did not
Ask you to delete the book right?"

"No?"

Tanika comes in, "But yet he made a simple threat to you saying you'd be an outcast?"

The words are starting to
Come together, "Yes?"

"Because this will be his evidence to possibly getting you in trouble." Detective leaned.

"Yes?"

They say no other word, staring at me, while I stare into nothing until I furrow my brows, it was just not clicking.

"Sweetie, you said you wrote everything down right?" Alex soft touch turned firm. There is an answer to what they are getting at.

"Yes, I did but he isn't going to look at that - "

"Cameron isn't going to look at that, but thousands of people reading this story will"

I'm losing hope in myself, for the life of me I can't comprehend anything, law isn't my subject. "I know that. Guys I'm sorry it isn't clicking,"

"It's ok, it will click love, remember you wrote down everything."

A hypothetical light bulb above my head kept faltering, "Yes, I did. I wrote down everything, which means they will read everything," Suddenly it clicks, "Even the comments and also everything that he, Philip and Kevin has done to me and many other women"

"Bingo!" Alex squeals.

Holy cow, I just put the pieces together, I feel a new. "Princesa, listen to me please, everyone listen. This next steps are going to be difficult, Jane you will need to keep writing as much as possible, write down everything that has happened."

I furrow my brows, "Are you sure?"

"Yes" everyone say in sync.

"But how if they are on to me?"

A smirk creeping in the detectives face, stubbly chiseled jawline stretching back into a smirk, "On to who?"

"What do you mean who, me! shouldn't I stop for right now?"

"No, your not. now is the time to keep writing Jane."

"Why is that? I could be getting sued you know."

"Did you ever admit to writing the pages?"

The words fall off my tongue before I could protest, A memory comes back. "No, I never did, but Justine."

"How can Justine prove it?"

"She knows I write."

"But where is your name on any of the pages?"

I huffed, now it's all coming together, "There is no evidence that is was me, so when I am brought to the court of law than the both of us could be going down." As good as it all sounded, it was still too good to be true, Cameron is higher than me and can make everything and anything against him disappear.

"But his uncle - "

"Cannot be his judge, not when things aren't looking to swell on his side as well"

"What do you mean?"

"Jane when was the last time you have looked at the news lately?"

Never, "Uh, not for a while."

"Things aren't looking all too great on Camerons side of things, and now his uncle is on paid administrative leave for false sentencing amongst many citizens."

Tanika glances to him with furrowed brows, "Paid?"

"Yes." he shook his head.

"They are paying him to stay home when he is under suspicions for a penalty?"

"It's like that" Alex shrugs, "That's why Jane I understand where you are coming from, these billionaires literally own everything and these governments are on their payroll."

As much as I want accept defeat and try and cower I couldn't, not this time when there is even a slight possibility I may win. "I'm going to keep writing." I assure cutting into the silence. "But ..."

They all paused, turning over to look at me, "There is actually something more I need to discus."

Tanika dn Alex cock their heads at me, "The day I went there I was in my room but somehow was lead to a door all the way down the end of the hallway near me with the GPS."

"Girl you needed a GPS?"

"Yes"

"Why?"

"To get to the kitchen chile, this place was a maze." I giggled before clearing my throat. "But I walked in and noticed something off. For starters Tanika, I think we were right, Seth is Rowan's father, which means Cameron and Rowan are half brothers."

"I knew it." she says, "I kid you not there was a resemblance the very day I saw Rowan."

"Who is Rowan?" Alex asks.

"Jane's boyfriend, that man hella delicious."

"I want to meet him."

"You will, because I need for all of us to sit down and speak"

"Why so?"

"There is just a lot of information right now that needs to be brought to light, and he has stories of his own about his grandmother."

I noticed Detective Jumpsuit stayed strangely quiet, even in the midst of what could possibly be a breakthrough in his entire career, wow, that sounded awful the way I put it, maybe I should have said -

"Focus Jane." Tanika snaps.

"Sorry."

"It's ok, this is just wow, like -" she turns to Alex, "It could finally clear your name." her eyes glossing before she shook them away. "For so long, I - I this is" she sniffles before I reached out to grab her hand.

In the midst of silence my phone suddenly rings, Could she have finally called me back? "Hang on one second."

Nearly trudging over back into the hallway with my pulse racing, I furrow my brows to a text message from a blocked number, "The fuck?", clicking on the button came a few encrypted letters before loading a video, my fingers hovering over the video but it automatically plays.

"Jane you alright in there?"

I can hear my name in the distance, every sound fading away with my heavy breathing.

"Jane?" the sounds were coming closer, "Sweetie you ok" I glanced up to meet a worried expression, Alex glaring right at before looking down at the ohne in my hands.

"Tanika!" she shouts, patter's of feet making way to me, my chest rams wildly, constricting my chest.

"Jane, honey look at me. What is it whats wrong?" Tanika steps into the room, cautiously she approaches me peeking slowly over the phone, her eyes widened before she turns to the detective, there was a strain in my movements, knots tightening at the pit of my stomach.

My balance is misconducted and everything goes black.

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