There was a time in my life where I always felt like my prayers were not answered, hopeless, weak and just meant to always be at the back of the line, Wattpad has always been my escape to feel like a princess that deserves to be saved by a prince and shining armor, reading many stories about characters that describe women like me and that look like me became my uplifting, it sent me all messages that we can have a voice too, we deserve to be just as safe and loved as all the other women in the world.

All my mistakes had consequences, and those consequences have brought me more near-death experiences than I could count. Life was supposed to end for me back than with that mountain lion, I wasn't supposed to be here, and yet there I was facing yet another obstacle. every day I promised the High and Mighty I would change If I was able to live another day, yet who am I kidding? screwing up is natural to me.

But this time my Lord I promise, let me live and I will change, a silent prayer I spoke to myself before my last moments come.
Squeezing my eyes shut waiting for the blade to impale me, however it never did, a strained grunt filled my head then, sounds like he's wrestling someone ... and losing.

"Move away from her or I'll call the police." Was heard from a far.

I wanted to cringe at that statement, however that voice, elegant and sultry, where have I heard it before? Painfully familiar. A sudden chill is bestowed upon me, Kevin's flames have disappeared from me and so did his frame that planted itself upon me for support of keeping me balanced, trembling uncontrollably, I wound up tumbling to my knees, hitting the ground I decided to take a peek.

Through darkness I see Kevin being tossed around until he lands flatly on his stomach, wincing from the hard thud I caught a figure just above him, the silhouette of a large man. Though it could have been anyone, the physique definition of his body was all too familiar, my vision struggles to remain as I watch Kevins grunt and try to move but the man's strength was overpowering.

Upon analyzing the scene with squinted eyes my heart leaps at something, the man above Kevin slightly turns his head towards me, an act so innocent yet my heart rate skyrocketed, even in the darkness I could see just how well defined he was, a familiar feeling kicks in, he is waiting for something, I can't see him but it seems he could see me, I can feel him looking at me with an emotion I couldn't describe ... Is what I am assuming, because I can't see shit.

A shift catches My eyes, like a fox Kevin sneakily slides the knife from one hand to the other quickly grabbing it and with on swift movement to the right the blade pierced right through the man's thigh, astonishingly not even a grunt or a cry of pain as the man ceased Kevins wrist and with a sickening crack Kevins voice was heard beyond the walls, a shriek so loud it made me cringe deeply closing my eyes, surges of pain shoots my brain readying me for the migraine of a lifetime, I want to run but I can't move, all the pain from earlier hitting me at once, as if my vision was dark enough, I can't even feel my eyelids opening and closing at all, I'm scared.

Rowan, please save me. At times like this, I still think of him.

"Relax dear its ok," that delicate voice comes behind me, the soundless approach made me slightly jump, soft cold hands hold my shoulder steady, that smell, that voice, that comfort, this safety, was it my mom? I'm too weak to laugh. Someone came to save me, I am alright.

***

There are scuffling sounds all around me.

"Jane?!" ... Beep, beep, beep.

Who is that screaming in slow motion?

"Jane!" ... Beep, beep, beep.

Is that a heart monitor? just as the thought came my eyes fly open to a beaming light above, a sharp electrifying pain flies through my brain causing me to wince, groaning at the painful, achy, heavy sensation of my face and bones. I am soar; everything hurts.

"Jane, oh thank God". Mom? "Back up give her some space, she has some explaining to do." Yea that's her.

"Jane, love, can you hear us?", Justine?

I can't make a sound; any movement is agony sent to my brain like a beating of a drum, managing to groan "Could you guys turn off the light?"

"I'll go ask them right now," with that there is scuffling until it fades. "I'll go let the nurse know your awake" came my mother's voice shortly after. I was embraced with a much-needed silence for a short period of time, yet, Through the silence I could hear soft breathing and a body heat.

Who could that be? Just as my curiosity came it quickly left when I felt my hand being lifted softly by a gloved hand, "There she is" came a women's rasp low voice, soon after the heat above me disappeared replacing it with an immediate chill.

Yep, I am in the hospital, but why? How could I forget the event, the scorching itchy inflammation of my cheeks was hard to ignore. "What-"

"Don't even finish that sentence, obviously you were out doing what you weren't supposed to and faced consequences." My mother said in our mother tongue, I want to roll my eyes but that's a karma that'll catch up to me quickly.

"Can you open your eyes for me dear?" I hear the nurse speak, "try and sit up" she adds on, complying with her words I make the first move and slide my arms underneath me; I wince from the pain of the needle on the back of my hand, I needed an IV? I align my back to the bed that was lifted to my comfort, though painful I slowly opened my eyes to a blurred room of grayish blue, different colored eyes and faces of shapes, Mom, Justine and a couple of Nurses.

"Look straight ahead for me dear" the nurse with red hair said coming closer to flash a light in my face, the only sounds are the steady sounds of my heart monitor and the directions of the nurse in front of me. The nurse finished and began speaking to the other who was typing on a computer, trying to fix myself I'm halted by Justine "here let me help you". I paused looking at the sincerity in her eyes with tears brimming.

It hit me than, though completely innocent, she was the reason that I am here, all of Kevin's words come back to me spinning wildly, was I a default in Justine's life? I allowed her to help me, but I just couldn't look at her in the eyes.

"Alright, dear we will give you guys some privacy -" the nurses words faded out to me echoing like a chorus in the background of a song, all I could do is keep my eyes on Justine, who was looking at the nurse, all I could think about is the current events and how my insanity is at an all-time high.

"Would you like that hon?" My head turned to her once I picked up sound, turning towards her I watch them wait for an answer from me, shit, I zoned out, of course after someone asks me a question that's when my brain wants to come back to reality. I'm embarrassed to have her repeat herself and more so cautious cause than it'll be admitting I wasn't paying attention, "Yes" I hoarsely speak coughing right after. Quickly my mom pulled out a water bottle from her purse and I gulped it down like it was my last.

"Great, we're going to apply some topical for the inflammation and be back to check on you shortly" the lies they tell, when they say shortly, they mean 10 hours later. I smile watching the nurse smile at everyone in the room, from Justine, to my mother that started at me plastered a look of worry and disappointment on her face, I furrowed my brows when she looked and nodded at someone behind me. "I'll go ahead and also check on his wounds as well".

"That would be lovely" I heard behind me, that sultry voice once more speaks, an anxiety falls upon me, the room quiet as the pace of my heartbeat pick up, who is that?

I turn to Justine who was smiling gratefully looking at something high and tall, "Thank you once again." Eyes full of gratitude, she says. I furrow my brows looking at her and she widens her eyes at me to acknowledge the elephant in the room.

Signaling to the figure behind me to approach, I catch a whiff of coconut "This guy brought you." Manly footsteps and the clinking of the heel rang in my right ear, unable to move my head I wait patiently for the man to approach, from the waist down is what I am able to see, both hands stuffed in pockets, half tucked in shirt with a few buttons undone from the bottom, I can hear it than, the resounding sound of my heart beat going crazy on the monitor, from the corner I could see everyone's heads turning towards the chaotic noise questioningly. My eyes don't move as it studies the man more; from the white bandage around his upper left thigh, gulping thickly to the point I almost choked to a dangerously large python tucked away in his pants, outline lays calmly on his right thigh, the pain in my neck screams to stop but I'm hungry for more to see, lean and strong physic from his hard stomach to the biceps, I wince from the light that was casted behind him.

He spoke a familiar word than, and I swore my heart exploded. "Jane" with that he steps into a perfect view blocking my vision from the light, I'm greeted by the Cerulean orbs once more. I couldn't remember the reaction I had that day but all I knew is that I wasn't breathing,
I see nothing but him, I feel nothing but my heart working 6x faster than normal making the effort to catch my breath go in vain. Rowan. It wasn't a dream, he was here in the same country as me, I'm staring at him now. I say nothing as I look at him and only him.

"Sweetie, can you hear me, what's the matter calm down". I heard from the other side of my head, I'm frozen, I want to respond but I can't seem to form any words or move any muscle.

"Jane" I hear again.

"Jane" it gets more assertively.

"Jane!" I heard louder than before, fingers snap on my face while my shoulders are lightly nudged. "Huh, I'm ok, I'm ok". I speak, I heard it than, the sensation of my beating heart. I need to calm down, burn how could I, when I see him.

"Honey, I need you to breath for me, rest your heart rate, you'll end up with high blood pressure." Listening to her words I breath in deeply and exhale slowly "I'm ok thank you so much."

"Alright, uh alright I'll go ahead and leave the topical here for ya ok, remember only when your exposed to heat." I was able to pick up a southern accent from the nurse, the room quiet staring at me expectedly, "uh yes, thank you".

With one final nod both nurses leave the room, a part of me wants to reach out to keep them here in the room with me longer, with them leaving I was soon going to be bombarded with never ending questions, I remembered everything but that would only enter a deeper whole for myself. On cue the nurses glide the door shut behind them, my mother and Justine spring into action making me slightly turn my head to the side in annoyance.

I'm our native tongue my mom begins lecturing me on safety and how there is one life and how I need to make better choices with my life especially my career path, somehow the supposed sadness turned into anger, and she was digging into my past about the wrong choices I couldn't fix, of course my Caribbean mother would pick that topic of all things in the current events. Though I could feel her watching me and all the wires hooked up to my body, looking in her direction was better than my opposite, the pair of blue cerulean eyes that burned a hole through my cheek were worse, I just got my heart race to settle down.

After an hour of speaking about my life and comparing it to other girls that have failed or were now successful my mother leaves me the Haitian remedy of a thick caramel colored sweetened substance, my mouth watered at the site, my favorite especially with peanut butter and bread, she than soon took her leave after nodding and saying goodbye to everyone especially -Rowan who didn't say much but his grandma spoke for him - and left.

"I don't think Kevin will get away with it this time." Justine says after a few moments of silence, I heard the way my heart leaped at the name of that monster, Rowan heard it too and came closer to me, Not helping dude.

"I can't believe I let you leave without your taser" Justine continues.

It could have slowed him down but not stop him. I speak in my head.

"What happened I thought he had a Restraining Order".

I did too but clearly money can buy anything.

"Cameron told me how sorry he was."

For being born?

"He told me everything."

The truth?

"He was called away last minute and couldn't reach you in time,"

Doesn't he mean -More Important affairs-Figures he already planned this ahead of time.

Justine begins to cry, I hated when she did cause than I cry when someone else cries, only saying the truth would break her more in the end, I know her loyalty for me, but I would crumble watching her go into depression, I don't think I had the strength.

Closing my eyes to blink out more drops of tears I paused, feeling a feathery touch of a finger gently wiping away the tears from my cheeks; warm and calloused as they traced from the bottom of my eyelid to the puffy of my cheeks, opening my eyes was the worst mistake, I hear my heartbeat resound violently all over again once I saw his face, closer than ever, soft minty breath fans my face, we are the only two people in the room as everything faded to white, intense heat flows through me from the eye contact, his thumb traces from my cheeks until I feel it tracing the top of my lip, my breath shudders from every contact he makes on my skin.

God, I want him so bad, I want him to put me in every position the way he did under that tree, I want to arch my back the way I did for him before. The blood rushing through my veins burns hot on my cheeks, unordinary, almost unbearably irritated actually, what the hell my face is burning.

Moving away from the source I reach up to itch "No, what are you doing, no itching when the urge comes" Justine says flying to catch my wrists.

"What?"

"You zoned out again, omg, babes you're not supposed to be exposed to heat when, and you must avoid any if any heat for a while," her eyes glanced from me to the heart monitor than to me again to this time Rowan who kept his eyes on me the whole time an emotion of relief and sadness, trying to put the two and two together. Turning towards Rowan " Thank you so much for saving my friend, anything you need please never hesitate to ask me, we are now family."

Little does she know this was the very Rowan she has been needing to thank from the very first time, It's Kind of crazy, when she first found me in that village, she never got to see who he was, that was because ... because he disappeared.

Oh, that's right, Rowan disappeared right after the mind-blowing sex of my life, I'm still not over it, in fact I think I still hate him for it, how could I now when he just saved me for the second time, I think.

"I will be back later; I need to head to work," turning to Rowan once more " Thank you again, and please never hesitate to ask me anything,"

"You are sweet, thank you" I hear the grandma speak, Justine than turns to me and lingers a kiss on my forehead. Placing my hand over my mouth a yawn feeling an overwhelming exhaustion overcome me.

"Sweety I'm outisde if you need anything," I hear the grandmother speak as she cuffs her vibrating phone in her hands, through my blurred exhaustion I see her step out, leaving me with the most dangerous man on the planet, I can't blush cause than my skin will burn, my heart will break from excessive pumping's, literally anything he does is bad for me, yet I want him closer than ever, that is why I feel him tucking me in, fixing my hair back, and applying the topical on my face so gently and soft, he is always so gentle with me.

"Ro-" I softly managed

"Shh, Naga, sleep now," His voice deep and rich as he whispered above me, his arm wrapping around my body, I'm still mad at him, I want to be mad -but I'll start tomorrow- for now let me embrace the quiet and safety for tonight.