— written Sunday August 8th —

Friday was a busy day XD

I started the day off with lunch together with my friend group at 11:30 :D

Me, Amalie and T made a promise that we were gonna use parties as an excuse to try out new clothes that we normally wouldn't have the confidence to wear, so I put on some different clothes

Anyone that knows me, knows that I'm most comfortable in a hoodie and tights and that's fine and all, but I wanna try to wear other things so throughout the year, I've been wearing more jeans and flannel shirts and stuff

I tried on a new pair of jeans on Friday, and they fit so perfectly and were still so stretchy and everything?? I dont really like jeans because they feel so suffocating and I can't move freely in them, but these were fine, and they were light blue and ripped too

And then i wore a white t shirt under this:

(It looks so long in the photo lmao but if you zoom in on the tag, you'll see that it's literally meant for 14 year olds-)

I also had a ponytail with a blue bow :D I'll get back to my outfit later lolol

Mine and T's friends from school invited us to a girls' night but they live about 30 minutes away, so I picked up T and we went there together :D

It was teally nice :) I'm so glad to be friends with them, especially since it was ME that the one girl became friends with and I'm not used to people coming up to me, talking to me and wanting to be friends with me 😭❤️❤️

T's mom picked us up at around 8:30, we drove home, picked up T's alcohol at her place, and then went to our friends' party at around 9:15 :D

I walked in and they were all sitting in a circle on the floor, talking about kinks and my first thought was "im way too sober for this" 😂😂 (they were all drunk at this point lol)

And then they turned towards me and R immediately went "woahh you look so hot!!" and H and Amalie agreed and kept calling me cute throughout the night and it was such a confidence boost, especially since they kept talking about how cute my outfit was and my embarrassed reaction every time they mentioned it XD

So anywho, I took 4 shots within 15 minutes which definitely sounded like a recipe for disaster-

So we played that game where you spin the bottle and whoever the bottle points at, you have to answer a question, and the bottle kept landing on me?! XD

I think one of the questions was something like "how would you react if *insert friend's name* kissed you right now" and I didn't really know what to say or do so she kissed me 🤣

And Amalie and T also kissed me thoughout the night so i kissed 3 girls that night 😂 but that's what happens at our parties! 🤣

Some friends started vomiting so me, Amalie and H escaped outside and we stood out there, bonding over how much we love English and how much we hate Norwegian for so long 🤣

And thats how me and Amalie started bonding that night 😂 We just kept talking and we bonded so hard, and we kept telling each other and T thay we care so much about each other and that we wouldn't have made it these past few years without each other

Amalie and I also bond at parties because we're the only ones that understand each other :> Everyone else is like "iT taStes liKe wAteR" while me and Amalie act like we've been shot after every shot 😂 So we understand each other's pain and we hype each other up when we need it, and we have the same drinking style too because we both NEED orange juice afterwards to be able to take a shot XD

One more thing from the party: my friends all know the footloose dance and I surprised them on Friday when the song came on and I knew the dance (not that it's very difficult lmao) 🤣  They were so impressed with me and it was so funny, especially since I was also drunk while dancing lmfao

Anywho, my mom picked us up and drove T and Amalie home because they were too drunk to walk haha and we were all trying our best to seem as sober as possible in the car XD

I OBVIOUSLY WAS NOT ANYWHERE CLOSE TO SOBER ALSHALDJOW and i came home and my mom asked if i ate anything after the girl's night at my friend's house (because I said that I would eat before the party), and i just said "yeah. A cookie" and I started laughing so hard at myself 😭😭😂

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One of the questions I got during the party was "what's your guilty pleasure?" and I couldn't think of anything so I said High School Musical but everyone was like "that doesn't count, everyone loves that!" and I don't even feel a sliver of shame for liking HSM 😂

I thought of an actual guilty pleasure though

I get a wave of self hatred every time I admit this but TWILIGHT-

ALJSLAKSLA I KNOW

Like, I'm well aware of how cringe it is and I'll sit and make fun of the movie every time I watch it, but I still get the urge to watch it regularly??!?!

Edward is so moody and kinda creepy and Bella is so mopey all the time and it can be so cringe so WHY DO I ENJOY IT EVERY TIME ALSHALSJ

My sister had friends over yesterday night and they used the living room, so I was kicked out and just hung out in my studio and drew for a while but I wasn't quite feeling it so I went to the den instead (the den and studio are connected)

My mom was in the den too and she put on Twilight, and I was just gonna play some Neo or something but I ended up sitting there with my full attention on Twilight 😭😂

AND I LOWKEY WANNA READ THE BOOKS SO BAD AKSHALALL

Speaking of books, I finished the fourth Harry Potter so I've officially reached the dark stuff :D

AND IM SO MAD AT THE CREATORS FOR NOT BRINGING SOME STUFF IN THE MOVIES ALSJALSJLAS

Major Harry Potter spoilers up ahead, but honestly if you haven't seen Harry Potter yet, you should feel an immense amount of shame :<

Plot-wise, I think the movies are better because everything is dramatized and the powerful and sad moments just hit harder, but they took out so many moments that were so important for characters and their relationships!! T_T

Like, Harry and Sirius are obviously close, but you don't truly understand how much Sirius meant to Harry until you read the books

And at the end of the fourth book, after Cedric dies and Voldemort comes back and blah blah blah, Dumbledore takes Harry to his office where Sirius is waiting for him

SIRIUS IS THE ONE COMFORTING HARRY AND HARRY FEELS SO MUCH BETTER JUST BY HAVING HIM NEAR ALSJALSJLAS

And Cornelius Fudge was being a dick to Harry and Sirius (in his dog form) growled at him and I just 🥺🥺🥺

They really should've brought this though: Harry doesn't cry at all when Cedric dies or when he's explaining everything to Dumbledore, but once he's in the hospital wing with Ron, Hermione and Mrs Weasley, the weight of everything he's been through that day finally breaks him and he cries and Mrs Weasley hugs him

And it's written that that was the first hug Harry ever had that felt that way - like a mother's hug

And that's the first time I've cried to the books

THEY SHOULD'VE BROUGHT THIS ALSHAKHSAL

So yeah, I'm on the fifth book now, which is also the biggest book with 800 pages :>

We also watched the final Harry Potter movie today (we've been rewatching them again lol) and EVERYTHING HURTS SO MUCH MORE AFTER READING THE BOOKS

Now I cry to movie 4 through 8 :( I always cry when Harry brings Cedric's body back and his dad starts yelling "that's my boy", I cry every time Sirius dies, and when Dumbledore dies and everyone puts their wands up for him, and when Dobby dies (here lies Dobby, a free elf), when Hedwig dies, when Snape dies, and of course when Fred dies

Today must've been a new record for me because I cried when Snape died and I cried throughout the entire Pensieve scene (Snape's backstory), and I cried more when Fred died

Which reminds me that I once came across a post on IG about Snape, and tons of people in the comments were saying that they don't like him and I nearly lost my shit

I can't be friends with anyone who doesn't respect Snape >:( HE SACRIFICED LITERALLY EVERYTHING, YOU COULD SEE THE PAIN IN HIS EYES WHEN HE KILLED DUMBLEDORE AND WHEN MCGONAGALL FOUGHT HIM, HOW CAN YOU NOT LOVE HIM??!?!!?

Name one HP character that's sacrificed more than Snape, I'll wait 🙂🌸

Everyone can have their own opinions, but I won't stand for this one 😤😤😤

Anywho lol

Netflix worked on my PC today (finally) so I got to draw while rewatching Howl's Moving Castle :D I enjoy it even more the second time lmao, I still don't really understand anything that's going on but it's still a comfort movie 😂

Howl is such a comfort character lol, also I really wanna read the book :> Too many books, not enough time 🥲