It's been a while since some shit went down and I've cooled off so I can actually write about this and hopefully not get angry now XDD

A certain someone is getting on my nerves again (I'll start writing her name again after I'm actually finished with school and don't have to worry about her telling the teachers or my "friends" about it lmao, I can't stand anymore drama XD)

My anger towards her had died down because I really only pity her, but my anger and hatred came back today XD

I was sitting with Amalie, R and a few others during lunch break and that was obviously really nice because I love them lol. Class was starting so I walked back to my classroom, but I heard a certain someone's voice just before I reached the classroom

I heard that she was in there so I stopped for a second and just debated to walk away and wait until class actually started because I really didn't want to see her unless I had to, but I heard her say my name

She was in there talking about me with her friends

You know that laugh that girls have when they're saying ugly things about other people? That was the kind of laughter I heard

I didn't stand there long enough to catch what they were saying, but I heard my name several times and that ugly laughter

I just stood there thinking "is this bitch for real?" because just last fall, my friends and I got accused by the teachers for being bullies because apparently we said awful things about her behind her back and excluded her etc (which wasn't true in the slightest), and there she was doing that exact same fucking thing

I wanted to walk in there and just tell her "say that to my face, fucker" but then I heard JT and B come up behind me so I decided to just follow them lol

At some point, I did hear something like "omg did you see what Kaitlin did when you sat down by the table? *ugly laughter*"

Some context lol: earlier that day we had class outside by these tables and four of us were sitting at one of the tables, and Mal suddenly sat down with us

I had my hand covering the left side of my face and Mal happened to be sitting to my left, but what she doesn't know was that the sun was blasting me in the face and I was getting blinded

THE WORLD DOESN'T REVOLVE AROUND HER

EVERYTHING I DO ISN'T AUTOMATICALLY OUT OF HATRED FOR HER

I kept facing and looking at my right because
1) I was getting fucking blinded
2) some people were playing volleyball and it was fun to watch them
3) there was some nice scenery and I liked watching the planes take off 😂

The fact that I got to turn away from her was just a bonus lmao

But yeah, after I heard that, my anger skyrocketed and my blood was boiling for the rest of the day

It got a little better when my class was allowed to watch some people play volleyball outside, and suddenly Amalie and R showed up and took me away from my awful class and I got to be with them :D

My class was allowed to leave a little earlier and as I was walking away, I heard "bye Kaitlin" being yelled and I turned around to see Amalie and R waving at me in front of everyone XDD That was nice lol

But then something else happened that made my blood boil even more

I was walking with JT and B out of school and you-know-who suddenly ran up and started talking with JT and B

Obviously I thought "fuck this shit" because I just wanted to go home and they always walk painfully slow when they talk and I didn't want to hear a certain person's voice anymore so I walked past them

You-know-who had the nerve to say "you can walk with us you know, I don't bite"

It doesn't sound bad when you don't hear the tone she said it in, but imagine this really bitchy, judgy, condescending tone

It took everything inside me to not just turn around, give her the finger and walk away

Excuse me for not wanting to walk with the person who wasted several years of my life, has caused me nothing but pain and is still trying to hurt me :)

So yeah, if I end up writing tomorrow that I yelled "whore" at her face or punched her, don't be surprised lol because I've been holding back for plenty of months

This is the perfect definition of her:

Even after all this time, she genuinely does not understand what she has done wrong and she believes that she's the victim in all of this

Which is what annoys me the most. It would be great if she could realize her mistakes and actually learn and grow from it and become a better person, but she still goes around blaming others and manipulating everyone to believe that she's so innocent and never does anything wrong

And there was no innocent people in this situation; we're all victims in our own way and we've all been hurt. We all hurt each other and made mistakes, but my friends and I can at least own up to it and understand our flaws, and we all grew from this and became better people. I just wish that she had enough brain cells to do the same

Until then, I hope that karma keeps biting her in the ass XD

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On to happier things!! XD The weather was so nice today! So I rotated between being inside and drawing, and being outside with my pets and reading :D

I started reading Pet Sematary today!! I've been debating to read it ever since I got it for my birthday in March, but I kept telling myself that I should finish IT before I start reading anything else

But I couldn't resist lol, so IT is gonna have to wait XD I seriously already love this book (I've only read 53 pages so far though, I have no idea what this book is even about and I've never seen the movie so please don't spoil!! T_T)

I was reading one of the first pages where Stephen King was explaining how this book came to be, and he himself said that he found this book truly horrifying

And he's written a bunch of horrifying books, I'm convinced he has a sick mind lol, so the fact that even he found this book that horrifying really intrigued me XD He even said that he never even wanted to publish the book; he wanted to keep it hidden in a drawer because he thought it was just that awful

I've only read about 50 pages so nothing has really happened yet, but I still get a really yucky feeling from it >_< I just feel like something horrible is gonna happen at any moment lol

It's not that it scares me, I just get this pit in my stomach XD Probably because I just read an entire chapter talking about pets dying and that is not an easy topic TwT

I was talking about Pet Sematary with my dad (he's seen the movie and read the book, even though it was very long ago so he doesn't remember much lol) and he keeps asking me if I've come to the part where the main character goes to work

I haven't reached that part but he's asked me that so many times and begged me to let him tell me about it so now I'm so scared of what's to come XD I also ended up bringing the book with me to my bedroom because I'm too curious and I wanna read more, even though I don't wanna read before I go to bed in case that yucky feeling in my stomach comes back and I can't sleep tonight >_>

So yeah, I might stay up all night but that's alright lol

Also, they talked about moose at some point :( (no spoilers, don't worry)

I would actually really like to try reading other genres, because the only books I've ever really read are the Michael Vey books and horror books

I don't know what other books I would like to read though >w< Plus I would need to buy them ;;;;;

My dad has been telling me about "The Stand" and I wanna read it so badly!! But again, that's another Stephen King book, and it would be nice to try out some books from some other authors as well XD

So if anyone has any book recommendations, I would really appreciate it :33