I've had a headache for the past three or so days 😔✌️

I haven't been sleeping well either so I wonder if I'm subconsciously worrying or stressing about something XD Every now and then I would just suddenly get really anxious and I don't know why, so that's a little annoying, but hopefully it'll pass soon lol

I didn't really do much today, I really wasn't feeling well at all so I pretty much just played Animal Crossing, read IT and then went straight to my room to lay down for a while because my head was pounding T_T I did the voiceover and finished editing my youtube video, and I drew a little bit so I guess I was a little productive but it felt like I was just really lazy today XD

This was probably my favorite voiceover though because I freak out over a spider, and add two bloopers where I get so frustrated by my stuttering that I just muttered "oh my fucking god" and "I wanna fucking die" 😂😂

When i went to my room to rest, I was watching youtube videos about conspiracy theories and serial killers and stuff lmao, and then videos about people surviving school shootings popped up on recommended and I couldn't help myself >_> That was a big mistake lol

The mom of one of the survivors was talking about how her daughter had called her to tell her that she loves her and all that and the mom could hear the shooter in the classroom with her daughter, and all she was thinking was that the last words she hears from her daughter might be her begging for her life

That did something to me 😭😂 I was holding back tears so bad, and then there was a girl who had to hide under one of her dead classmates and play dead, another one was talking about her best friend that had died and aldjalkaldjck

I might've cried and made my headache 10x worse 😂

Buuut some good news is that I convinced my mom and sister to watch a few episodes of Sonic X with me :DD It's kinda funny because I'm the only one actually enjoying it because it's not really that good but it was my childhood so I don't care how good it is, I'm still gonna love it 🤣 And of course I sang along to the opening lolol

The best part was when Chris did something stupid to Dr Eggman and I said "what's the plan?? The fuck?!" but it sounded like I said "what's the plan?? To fuck?!" and I started laughing so hard and I can't get that image out of my head XD

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You ever look at a character and think "you look like my next obsession"? :)

Hannah showed me an edit of Zack from Final Fantasy 7 and that was what was going through my head-

DO ALL SQUARE ENIX CHARACTERS HAVE TO BE SO GORGEOUS?! XD

Aerith: but whatever happens... you can't fall in love with me

Me: TOO FUCKING LATE ALSJALQKNDCL

I HAVENT EVEN PLAYED THE GAME AND IM ALREADY WILLING TO DIE FOR HER-

You can't just look at Aerith and not immediately fall in love, tf

JUST LOOK AT HER, WHAT WAS I SUPPOSED TO DO

She looks like a goddess, she has the cutest voice in the world, she's such a precious and wholesome and sweet character and SHE DESERVES THE WORLD

I wish My Hero Academia made female characters as interesting as Final Fantasy 😪😪😪

There's so many girls in My Hero Academia but I can't really seem to care about any of them because no one can really compete with characters as well-written and interesting as Bakugou, Todoroki, Midoriya, Kirishima, Tomura, Dabi, THE LIST GOES ON

And then we come to the girls and they're all just mediocre... XD At least Momo is cool and she was actually helpful in season 3, but the rest of the girls haven't really done anything, at least in the anime =3=

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The rest of this chapter is literally just me talking about IT lmao

IT is seriously so good aljaldkalskd

I really liked the movie when it first came out because it was the first horror movie that I ever watched that actually had a good, happy ending, it was the first horror movie where I actually liked the characters, and I had a little crush on the main character lol

But damn

I'm really loving this book XD THERES SO MANY THINGS THAT WASN'T ADDED IN THE MOVIE ALUXLKLASNK

I thought that it wouldn't be that fun reading IT when I've already seen the two movies but I'm enjoying it more and more the farther I come into it

It was kinda tough to get into at first because
1) I've already seen the movies so I thought it wouldn't be very interesting for me
2) it's a BIG book so it was really intimidating lol
3) it's really hard to read when you're not used to reading or haven't read a book in a while XD So much text, the timeline was jumping everywhere, difficult language and lots of metaphors and ugh, it was just really hard to read for longer periods of time before XD But now I've read all 7 Michael Vey books and Pet Sematary so it doesn't make my brain hurt anymore lmao

The characters in the book actually react realistically to everything that's happening around them and I can't express how much I love it

Like when George died (not a spoiler, it's in the trailer and it's literally the first thing that happens in the movie/book lol), they really delved into how his entire family dealt with it and it's exactly like how I would imagine a family reacting in that situation - which wasn't shown in the movie

Obviously Bill is hurting because he feels at fault for helping him with the paper boat and being too sick to play with him and watch over him, and as his older brother he feels like he should've protected him, but what I love most is how his parents reacted to it

It was kinda like Bill lost his entire family that day, because he's been invisible in his own home ever since and his parents barely even talk with him anymore, he even mentions several times in the book how the silence over dinner would be too much for him and we would have to go to his room

Like his parents were just so caught up in their own grief to take care of the child they still have - and I can totally see that being the case in real life

It's awful but I love it XDD Plus he actually broke down while explaining how guilty he feels and Richie comforted him - which made my love for Richie 20x stronger and made him more than just the comic relief

I just read this part where Richie and Bill went through something truly horrifying and nearly died, and they just broke down and cried together and THAT'S THE REALISTIC REACTION THAT ANY HUMAN BEING WOULD HAVE, BUT SOMEHOW IS NEVER IN HORROR MOVIES

I also love how they actually have brains and don't do something stupid like splitting up or something lmao

^ good choice lol

Also, one more thing I love about this book: Beverly's fucked up relationship with her dad

I feel like the book version is way more realistic and disturbing and I love it XD In the movie, the dad's a dick who beats Beverly up all the time and that's pretty much it, but there's so much more manipulation and mind games to it in the book, because he can actually be sweet to her at times and manipulate her to believing that he only hurts her because she deserves the punishment and that he really does love her

Like, he got mad and beat her up and literally right afterwards he was hugging her and tucking her in bed and being sweet and that is so much more realistic and disturbing to me XD

Ok I'm done now lol, I hope you guys have a good day/night :) Have this photo of Athena to make you feel better <3

She always puts her paw on my arm when I pet her XD 💕