— written Tuesday June 29th —

There's a lot of drama to unfold but imma write this in chronological order XD

Starting with last Monday, T and I met up with four of our friends from school since one is moving away this summer and another one applied for another school and might move away

We met up at a cafe and I bought an Oreo milkshake and we just sat outside and talked and it was nice :D Then me and my other friends had a girl's night at Amalie's place and Amalie cut my hair 👌

My hair reached my butt and I've been complaining over it for MONTHS now so it was about time XD Im relieved to have shorter hair but I kinda miss my lighter tips lol

Jumping to last Tuesday, my friends and I met up to just drive around and we bought some snacks, drove up to different locations and just sat there, listened to music and ate snacks :D

And then to Friday, when all the drama happened... XD

A few of my friends met up to just drive around again, but I decided not to because I was watching High School Musical with my mom and sister lmao

My sister's been going through some stuff and I think she feels lonely a lot, so I feel really bad when I hang out with my friends too much

Plus I feel really bad for my parents that have to drive me everywhere :( I live on the outskirts of town and the majority of the road into town is nothing but highway surrounded by forest so my parents would never let me walk either, so then my parents have to stay up late to pick me up and I feel so guilty, especially for my mom who gets tired at like 8 o'clock 😭

My friends suddenly decided to have a party Friday night, and I didn't want to miss out so I managed to convince my mom to drive me and pick me up

So I went to the party already feeling extremely guilty, and I had a really bad feeling about that night but I thought I was just feeling that because I was guilty - I should've listened to my intuition :)

I arrived some time after 10 p.m. and I had to be home by 12 so I didn't have a lot of time, so I pretty much started taking shots the moment I arrived

And it was fun for probably around an hour, until I looked up and saw two unwanted guests

A certain ex-friend and B (a girl from my class last year who I'm also not a big fan of) were standing in front of me

The host of the party (let's call her A for the sake of this story) was friends with B and had to sort of play pretend friends with you-know-who since they were in the same class all year, plus A tends to be a bit of a people pleaser and can't say no, so at first I was a little upset at her, thinking that she had invited them or at least let them in

But then I saw A come back inside after those two, and she looked absolutely miserable so I could tell that she didn't want them there

I could barely hear over the music so I leaned into T to ask what was going on, and then I suddenly heard you-know-who say "speak a little louder" and I knew she was talking to me and T, and we just ignored her and I heard her say "I know you can hear me"

I just had to laugh to myself because you must be pretty narcissistic to believe that the world revolves around you and that every conversation is about you

A little later Amalie went to the bathroom so T and I followed out into the hallway so we could actually hear each other since we were still trying to figure out what was going on (and we just needed to get away for a moment)

And then you-know-who fucking walks up to us, grabs both of us and with the most disgusting, smuggest smirk, says "let's dance" and tries to pull us in to dance

It took everything inside me to not shove her into the fucking wall (I know better than to do that tho - don't pick a fight that you can't win 😂 My 5"2 ass could never)

T legit said "fuck off" and walked past her and that was pretty cool lmao

So yeah, it was pretty obvious that the entire reason as to why you-know-who was there was to make us suffer :) I wouldn't be so angry if it was just that she wanted to party and hang out, but it's the fact that she does things like this PURELY to hurt us that pisses me off so much

Like, why can't she just move on and leave us alone and actually act like an adult? I don't want drama, I don't wish any kind of pain upon her and I wouldn't go out of my way to hurt her in any way, but it's so fucking hard to keep thinking that way when I know that everything she does, she does to make us suffer

Seeing as her entire reason to being there was to make us suffer, Amalie, T and I decided to just keep having a good time and ignore her since if she sees that we're fine, it'll get boring for her

And it was working for a while

R probably knew that the three of us were extremely uncomfortable and pissed, so I guess she was trying to cheer me up when she did this (plus she was pretty drunk), but she tried to put a bottle in my mouth and it chipped my tooth a little 😅

Honestly it's so small that you won't see it unless I point it out, but I was already having an awful night and I already had plenty of alcohol in my system so I had a panic attack in the bathroom :')

T and Amalie were actually lifesavers though, they comforted me and made me feel a lot better 🥺❤️ A even showed up at some point because she had to use the bathroom lmao, and that's when she told us that you-know-who and B weren't even allowed to come in, they literally just forced A aside and walked on in and she didn't know how to tell them to leave

After my panic attack I decided I had had enough that night so I just went home and continued to cry some more XD Hannah went with my mom to pick me up and she told me that the moment I walked out, she could tell how upset I was and she wanted to barge inside and slap you-know-who XD

So yeah, I told them about everything and cried it out, I sobered up and then I was a lot better XD

Amalie wasn't doing so well either when I left the party so after I cried my eyes out, I messaged her to see how she was doing and she told me about some more drama that happened after I left

Apparently B and A started fighting?? I'm not quite sure why, but B had ended up screaming in A's face and she legit bitch slapped her

I was so mad when I heard this!! A is so sweet and pure and could never hurt a fly, and B straight up hit her after crashing her party and making her feel miserable?!

You-know-who was also recording the fight, she posted it on Snapchat with the caption "we trashed their party" and then recorded herself obviously feeling very pleased with herself

How are there so many psychos in such a tiny town 🤦‍♀️ I can't believe B actually straight up hit my friend - and she wasn't even drunk so she couldn't use that as an excuse either (not that that's an excuse)

And of course I still can't believe that it's been more than a year since all that drama with you-know-who went down and she still goes out of her way to make us miserable :/ You must not have much of a life if all you care about is hurting others to make yourself feel better

So yeah, that's how Friday went XD I can't believe that A still wanted to throw another party on Saturday after all that drama on Friday lmao

So Saturday was pretty fun, we had no uninvited guests pop up and that was very nice lmao

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We had really good weather on Sunday and yesterday, so I was outside a lot and worked on Harry Potter :D I actually finished the third book a few days ago, and now I've read around 100 pages of the fourth book 👌

I fucking love Mr Weasley so much slajsljsal

I love him and all the Weasleys so much 😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

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The universe just doesn't want me to get my money 🤦‍♀️

First it took 3 months to actually get my blood money into my account, and now I'm waiting to be able to transfer the money so I can have it in the Norwegian bank where I actually have access to it

My grandparents in Delaware went to the bank back there THREE times last week trying to sort it out but there's always something new they need and I just aldhaldjlickd CAN I PLEASE JUST HAVE MY MONEY-

I don't have a summer job since I consider art sort of like my job, and I wanted to spend this summer working on improving my art and marketing it so that I can actually have a bigger audience and more customers, so I was gonna spend some of my money on some actual equipment so I can take high quality photos and videos

But who knows when my money will even be sorted out, and then I'll have to wait a week or two to for the stuff to actually arrive and who knows how far we are into summer vacation by then T_T

So I've come to the conclusion that the human race is useless :D IT SHOULD NOT TAKE THREE MONTHS TO PUT THE MONEY INTO MY ACCOUNT AKSHAKSJALJS

So in the meantime, I bought a new phone :> My old iPhone 8 just couldn't take decent photos or videos, and editing was literally my worst nightmare because I never had any storage, it would lower the quality of the video even more and it was just hell

So now I have an iPhone 12 (it's mint green and really pretty hehe) 👌 And I'm really impressed with the video quality!! I was just taking videos of everything yesterday because I was so impressed XD

I'm also so grateful to be able to play Genshin Impact now without glitching out of the app 5 times within a span of 30 minutes 😭😭💕

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Ok last thing lol

I promised my sister that we could have a cozy night where we hang out in her room, stay up late, eat snacks, play games and watch anime :D

So last night we started off with some Genshin Impact, and then we watched the final two episodes of Fruits Basket and cried our eyes out together, then we watched some Tokyo Revengers :D

I can't get over how good Tokyo Revengers actually is!! I've seen 9 episodes so far and I really like it :D Here's the opening if you're maybe interested in trying out the anime ;3

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If you like anime like Erased, Steins;Gate, Re:Zero etc then you'd probably like Tokyo Revengers :D The main character suddenly finds himself in the body of his younger self from middle school, and his goal is to save his girlfriend from back in middle school since she dies in the future

It's about gangs and gang wars and stuff and the main character is basically trying to stop this big gang war from breaking out, since it's the reason why the girl dies in the future (plus other people he grows to care for)

It's really good, I recommend it 👌

So yeah, I just wanna end with this :)