I'm thinking rationally again and now I feel silly for making such a big deal of things last night >3>

I think I've mentioned this before but my mind is such a mess and whenever anything is bothering me, my thoughts get all jumbled up and I can't think straight

But writing sort of brings me clarity and it makes my thoughts more coherent so that's why I like writing about whatever's on my mind here XD I know a lot of people vent through art, but I don't really like to do that because drawing is something that's supposed to make me happy and venting through art doesn't exactly make me happy lmao

Plus I'm trying to keep my art accounts somewhat professional so I try to keep my personal life out of it XD I want my art to make other people happy and I want it to make me feel happy, plus I don't usually feel like drawing when something is bothering me

But I'm ok now! I'm gonna blame my emotional outburst on my period! XDD I felt so awful when I woke up today lmao, my head was pounding and I had cramps TwT I felt better after playing some Animal Crossing lol

My sister even read a poem that she wrote last night and I legit started crying from it 😂

In my defense though, my sister has a very dark but beautiful mind! XD But now I'm scared to watch or read anything for a few days because everything is gonna make me cry lmao

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My sister has been re-watching Attack on Titan on the TV in the living room and I'm once again reminded of how good it is

Literally everything about it is good

But now I'm mad after seeing how good the art used to be 😭😭

What a downgrade

IM SO ANGRY ABOUT THIS

Everything on the left is pure beauty and then everything on the right looks wonky and weird :((((( HOW DARE THEY

The worst part is that people seem to like the changes, I guess because it resembles the manga more or something

THE ART WAS THE ENTIRE REASON WHY I DIDN'T READ THE MANGA 😭😭

Eren went from this:

To this:

And Levi went from this:

To this:

Now he really does look like an old man 🤦‍♀️😭😂

And Mikasa used to be so gorgeous:

The photos on the left side are from the first season, the photos on the right side are from the third season

Cue depression

Ok she's still beautiful but she used to be more beautiful! XD

I can't express how much this bothers me XD It bothers me even more now that I'm re-watching the first season AND IT'S SO FREAKING GORGEOUS ASJASJALSJ

I got to see the scene where Levi beats the shit out of Eren, aka the best part of the entire series lol

That's the moment everyone falls for Levi 👌😂

At least the animation is better, which I didn't even know was possible =3= The animation of AOT will never not impress me

While I'm still on the topic of anime lol

Hannah was telling me about her online friend that she has that anime challenge with (the one that i terrorized lmaooo), and she was telling me how he can't stand the slightest bit of romance

And I just witnessed a beautiful thing

Hannah: HE CAN'T EVEN WATCH THE SEVEN DEADLY SINS BECAUSE OF BOOBS, WHAT A MAN-CHILD PUSSY ASS BITCH

I've been laughing at this for way too long 😂😂 I can't believe those words came out of my little sister's mouth

I can't blame her though, she told me that she sent him a video from Toilet-Bound Hanako-kun where Hanako says to Nene that she can pay him back with her body, and he wrote back "must be a shit anime"

EXCUSE ME

TOILET-BOUND HANAKO-KUN IS WONDERFUL XD

And the "pay me back with your body" really meant that he wanted Yashiro to be his slave and clean the bathroom lmfao

THE ROMANCE IS EXACTLY WHAT MAKES THIS SHOW SO GOOD 😭😭💞💞

Speaking of Toilet-Bound Hanako-kun, the next chapter came out a few days ago and I was once again reminded of how breathtaking the art is ;w; (there's no spoilers, don't worry lol)

I seriously kept zooming in on that page because I'm so captivated by the colors and shading and AHHHH

I can just zoom in on his shirt and you can see how much effort went into that drawing

LOOK AT THAT

And the rest of the manga is equally beautiful too, even in black and white 😭😭💞💞💞💞

It's breathtaking ;w;

Also, I live for Yashiro and Hanako's relationship

They're always holding onto each other 🥺🥺💞💞

I started using those emojis as a joke but now I use them seriously lol oops

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Athena was sound asleep in the living room, and all of a sudden she shot up, ran towards me and started licking my face and her tail was wagging so much and she was so excited

I was really confused and so were my dad and Hannah (who were also in the living room with us), and Hannah said "maybe she dreamt that something happened to you"

And now my heart hurts 🥺🥺💞💞

What if she dreamt that I died or something so she got really happy to see that I was still alive? XD WHAT AN ANGEL

Also, Athena likes to sit between people's legs so I keep call her my egg lol

She'll just walk over while I'm standing somewhere and sit down right in front of me, so I start petting her and she slowly scoots farther and farther back until she's between my legs XD

She's a little too big though lol so I always have to bend over a little XD WHAT A CUTIE

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I have the curse of taking off with other people's things lol

I went a month or two with T's eraser and Amalie's calculator, and now I've stolen T's calculator lol

I need to stop borrowing things I can't remember to give back XD I still have pencils and markers that I've burrowed from my previous schools lol

Ok last thing: I've reached 100 subscribers on youtube! :DD

I know it's not a lot but it's a start! XD

Speaking of my art, I'm working on a Demon Slayer character and I had to google the character for reference photos to make sure that I was drawing her correctly, and I came across two Demon Slayer spoilers in the process

The things I do for my drawings 😔✌️

At least it was just Demon Slayer lol, I would've been beyond angry if I had come across an AOT spoiler or another MHA spoiler XD

I'm sorry for squeezing everything into one chapter lmfao