— written Sunday Nov 28th —

Hello :>

T celebrated her birthday with a party last Saturday! I was looking forward to the party all week long because it was finally a party somewhere else than the same two places, and she invited our friends from class!

Me, Amalie and another friend came early to help with the punch (we tried making punch with an entire bottle of Kalinka in it lol), and then 3 other people from our "friend group" came, plus T's childhood friend, plus Blanc and our other friend from class and another friend who used to be in our class but moved away this year

I mentioned this a few chapters ago, but I started to really not like my friend group a few months ago for a number of reasons, and I also mentioned that I hate partying with them because all they ever do is vomit and cry :( They have fun for half an hour, and then they have to get all depressing and bring the entire mood down and ruin the fun for the rest of us and they do this every time

And even though two people from the friend group didn't come, those that did come still found a way to be depressing 🤦‍♀️ The three of them sat away from the rest of us looking upset and bored (I'm pretty sure they never even spoke to us throughout the night), and then they left after less than two hours to go to a bar in town :/

It would've been one thing to leave to go somewhere else if it was a normal party, but it was T's BIRTHDAY party, so I think that was a pretty shitty move

It also would've been one thing to go somewhere else after the party or towards the end, but it hadn't even been two hours yet??! All they did was show up, ruin the mood and then leave??!

Though I was really glad that they left because the party got much better once they left lmao

Another reason why I think it was a shitty move is because even if we had all went to the bar instead of being at T's house, we still had 3 friends under 18 so what were they supposed to do? Wait half an hour to get picked up, to then drive half an hour back home after being at the party for less than two hours after spending half an hour to get there in the first place?? Even if I actually wanted to go to the bar, I would've never left them :(

I was so glad to have Blanc and my other friends from school there!! I've asked my friends if I could invite them to just about every party we've had for the past few months, but there's only two of us in the "friend group" that throw parties and there's only room for so many people so I haven't been able to invite them

And that last party (the public one) was the best one Ive ever been to, because I only hung out with T and Blanc and rotated between other friends that I ACTUALLY like, I wasn't with my "friend group"

T's party was the first private party I've actually enjoyed in a VERY long time, so I won't be going to any more parties unless Blanc and them are invited =3=

Blanc and I are such a chaotic duo when we're sober, we're even worse when there's alcohol in the picture XD All we do is laugh and joke and we both gravitate towards the floor for some reason?? So we kept laughing and falling to the floor and then we just kinda stayed on the floor and chilled 😂

We played a drinking game on spotify and there was a little "never have I ever" section, and the guy talking said "I've never come too early, I've never come too late" and I drank because I come too late to everything because of ✨ bad time management ✨ but no one else drank and I thought "wtf? No one else has ever come too late to anything?" and the look on Amalie's face told me that he was talking about a different kind of come 😭💀

There was also a funny moment where I sat with T, Blanc, my other friend from school and our friend that moved away, and I was obviously drunk at this point and I just went "not to be that person, but I love you guys so much" and everyone started laughing 🤣 Not to be that person, but yes I am that person that tells everyone that I love them at parties lmao

So yeah, despite all the ranting I just did, I really did have a good time :D And I don't mean to sound ungrateful or anything with the "friend group", I really needed that summer with them and it was nice to actually be a part of something and I learned a lot from it, but I'm kinda done with it now XD

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The universe was against me on Wednesday lmao

It was a series of unfortunate events 🥲 It started with my sociology test: I forgot to bring my pencil case and my old-school teacher likes to have tests on paper, so I sat at my desk and was panicking because the test had just started and I had nothing to write with

So I called my teacher over and luckily he had a pen that I could borrow

And then the ink kept spilling all over my hands and it stopped working halfway through the test so I had to call him back over and tell him that the pen stopped working T_T

So in the middle of the test, he asked if anyone had a pen I could borrow and everyone turned to look at me and it was embarrassing :') Luckily the girl next to me was nice enough to let me borrow her pen

For some reason, I was unreasonably nervous throughout the whole test?? Like my brain really wasn't working that day, my head felt all foggy and I couldn't think straight so I really didn't feel like I did my best on that test, and I felt like I had such little time left (even though I didn't) so I rushed myself so bad and was super stressed

After the test, I was talking to my friends about how bad the test went, and I said something that implied that the next day was Friday, and my friend told me it wasn't Thursday and I got depressed 😭😭😭 I WAS SO SURE IT WAS THURSDAY AND I WAS SO EXCITED TO BE FINISHED WITH THE WORST PART OF THE WEEK T_T

And then on my way to my next class, I was telling Amalie about my bad luck that day, and as I was explaining, all the papers in my book fell out and spread across the entire hall :)

I felt personally attacked that day 😂 I can't believe I didn't get hit by a car on my way home or something-

I did have some good luck when I came home though, because my camera finally arrived!! All my studio equipment is here now! :D

And I also FINALLY bought a new bed, and that arrived on Thursday! So my parents helped me take out all the stuff I hated about my room (like my closet that was definitely haunted), and my room looks so much better now 😩

There was also a new banner on Genshin Impact that day: Albedo, my absolute favorite Genshin character since I first started playing a year ago, and I got him on my first 10 pull!!!

So it was a very conflicting day 😂

I have more to write about but this chapter is already long enough, so I'll save it for the next chapter ;D