Nooooo I just remembered something I did while I was drunk 😭😭😂 (I'm sorry, I know I've spoken about this a lot, I'm just having some memories come back to me lmfao)

I told H how cute he and R are together and that I was a little bit jealous lol and he started saying that I'll find someone one day

But I stood there whining and going "noooo I'm not gonna find anyone" and he just grabbed my shoulders and looked in my eyes and told me that I'm gonna find someone and that he's gonna love everything about me, and I still just kinda stumbled around and whined "nooo" so he had to hug me 😂

I think that's when he told me a secret (=ﾟωﾟ)ﾉ

He was supposed to whisper it in my ear but I can almost guarantee that we were yelling about it to each other XD He just told me that he was gonna propose to R in Paris one day but I couldn't tell anyone and I promised I wouldn't

I walk away and literally the first thing I do is tell Amalie and T about what H told me 😂 I'm sorry H, I betrayed you XDD

If these two don't get married and have a goat together, I'm giving up on love 😤😂

He also came up to me at some point and asked if I could draw him and R together and that he was gonna ask me again when I'm sober, which was good because I had forgotten about it until he sent me a message two nights ago saying "now that you're probably sober" and asking me about the drawing again XD

That's so embarrassing though, I can't believe I whined about my love life to H 😭😂

I CANT BELIEVE I TOLD AMALIE'S BROTHER ALL THE DETAILS OF MY LOVE LIFE, WHICH WAS A SURPRISING AMOUNT CONSIDERING THE FACT THAT I PRETTY MUCH HAVE NO LOVE LIFE ALSICISPKQ

REGRET 😭😂

I've also legit never had a single conversation with him before, I didn't even know his name until that night, and now he knows everything about my love life 😭😭😭😂 And who knows what else I told him, because I honestly can't remember most of what I said towards the end of that night, I just remember that I wouldn't stop talking XD

I forgot to mention that I was sneaky at the party 😂

I had already been drinking but T and I were sobering up a little (at least we thought we were lol) and we didn't wanna sober up yet and that's when Amalie's brother showed up with beer

I remember there was several times I asked for a sip and they were like "ok but just a sip" and then I chugged as much as I could before it was taken away from me 😂

I still can't believe I'm that one bitch that feels the alcohol after like two or three shots 😭 In my defense tho, I did drink more, I just can't remember what or how much XD At least I wasn't the drunkest person there 😌 Second drunkest maybe, but not the drunkest! XD

I'm very impressed for my belly though for not throwing all the alcohol back up again :3 I wanted to throw up once beer got involved because it was just so nasty but I didn't! I have a stomach of steel, I only throw up when laughing while I'm drinking water apparently! XD

I'm sorry lmao, all these memories are coming back to me for some reason 😂

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I'm so happy! 😭😭😭

There's this one girl in town who used to go in T's class (I'm gonna call her Shay, I'm sorry for bombarding you guys with all these names lol), and she's an artist as well and I think she also struggles a lot mentally, at least with social anxiety and stuff

She had joined UKM this year and she also went on, so she contacted me before the lockdown and said that she wanted to get to know me since we would be going on with UKM together

Literally a day or two later, the lockdown started and UKM was cancelled so I haven't really spoken much with Shay since, but she contacted me again a few days ago and asked if we could meet up (and that I could bring T along since we all have similar interests and she already knew T a bit)

I was actually really impressed that she reached out to me at all because I've heard that she's extremely shy and socially anxious as well, and I know I wouldn't have reached out to anyone like that XD

So the three of us met up at a cafe today and it was a little awkward at first since all three of us are relatively (very) quiet and shy lol, but we have common interests so it was pretty easy to find an icebreaker lol

We just spoke about art and anything art related for the longest time :D She had brought along the lady that she lives with (I don't think they're related, I think it's just the owner of the dorm Shay lives in) and she kinda did her own thing and let the three of us talk alone, but she came up to us and asked if we wanted to see the art gallery in town

We all obviously said yes lol, I've never actually been there before so that was kinda nice :D I can't believe that paintings can be sold at such crazy prices lmao, I wouldn't be able to sleep at night if I had sold any paintings for like 10 000 NOK (around 1100 USD) XD

While we were in there, the lady told T and I about this place in town that will make prints of your art and we were both really happy to hear about it because we had no idea about that place

And then she told us about this one Norwegian website that will make stickers, pins, cards, etc of your art and is relatively cheap so I got a lot of useful information from her today, I was in awe! XD

And then the best part came

She took the three of us to this outdoor area where there was art, antique stuff and really all kinds of clutter being sold, and she told T and I that Shay was maybe gonna have her own art display there

Then she asked if T and I wanted to join

Alxjapsjalsn whAT

I really hope that'll work out, I'd love to have my art on display and sell prints and stuff! ;w; I don't think it'll be anytime soon though, the lady seemed to think that it wouldn't be until fall break or something so we have plenty of time to plan things out

That wasn't just something spontaneous that the lady thought of either; she and Shay had already planned on asking us before we even met up

They were thinking about us 🥺🥺🥺 I'm seriously so touched, I can't believe they actually thought of us and wanted us to join

After that, the lady took us to check out her and Shay's "studio" (I don't know if I can actually call it a studio lol but it was basically a studio XD) and that was obviously really interesting, and we all just stood around and spoke about it for the longest time

And then the lady said that T and I could also use the studio and the three of us can draw together and have like drawing evenings and stuff and alsjpakxpa my heart!! 😭😭

That's all I've ever wanted, I can't express how badly I've wanted to draw in an actual studio with some friends and all of us can just draw together and ahhhh I'm so happy ;w; ❤️❤️❤️

The lady was also a part of some organization who had all their merch in that studio so she handed T and I chapsticks, pastilles and little candy and akxjlkamdn

And then she said something about how there were muffins in the fridge and I straight-up said "this only gets better and better"

I've had more good news in the past 24 hours than I probably have all year 😂 Ok that's stretching it a bit far because I got a dorm, I got into an art school, I got invited out on a date, I got invited out a lot by people I never thought I would be friends with, I went to my first actual party and got drunk for the first time- and the most toxic person in my life is gone! I'd say I've had nothing but good news this year! 🤣

I don't care what anyone else says, I've been loving 2020 XDD (Though, obviously, COVID and stuff does suck, my heart goes out to anyone who's been affected by it >_<)

Which is exactly why the thought of giving it all up is so terrifying right now T_T I may or may not have been so anxious about leaving it all behind that I've been nauseous for 3 days straight and have barely been able to eat-

But anywho lol, I'm just so incredibly happy that Shay wanted T and I to
1. become closer with her
2. join in on the art display thing
3. draw together in her studio!!! 🥺🥺

I swear, one day I'm gonna have a big, beautiful studio and I'm gonna have my own online shop where I sell all kinds of merchandise and prints of my art and I'm gonna make a living off of my art and I will live the artist life I've dreamt of for so long!! I'm gonna make it happen! XD

Instead of ending with a meme, I'm gonna end with this:

^ that's the best news I've ever heard 😭😭😂

This just in: I'm actually 20-30% attractive 😭😭🥰😂

Ah, gotta love self-deprecating jokes :)

Ok lol I hope you guys have a great day/night! ^-^